Time to get serious!

[CrazyDiamond]

Delivery came.... Dilemma.... I usually don't do low cut and this is a little low and short at the same time, what did I expect ordering a Kelly brook dress! BUT I think I love it. Do I keep it? Tell me honestly, am I over exposed? Will my modest Indian boyfriend tell me to go and get dressed or in the right climate am I ok and just being paranoid?

 

[marthacol1988]

Delivery came.... Dilemma.... I usually don't do low cut and this is a little low and short at the same time, what did I expect ordering a Kelly brook dress! BUT I think I love it. Do I keep it? Tell me honestly, am I over exposed? Will my modest Indian boyfriend tell me to go and get dressed or in the right climate am I ok and just being paranoid?

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I love the dress not too low or short. Paranoia for sure.

That's the worst! Free food and free food you wanna gobble lol

What about the other stuff? Are you happy?!

Glad rana got out earlier and did you do much else today?

What u end up doing? Ss or a meal?

Just in from the course! Very tired but had a good day xx

 

[CrazyDiamond]

I love the dress not too low or short. Paranoia for sure.

That's the worst! Free food and free food you wanna gobble lol

What about the other stuff? Are you happy?!

Glad rana got out earlier and did you do much else today?

What u end up doing? Ss or a meal?

Just in from the course! Very tired but had a good day xx

Thanks hun, guess ill have to decide if I can wear it without feeling paranoid then!

Loads of the stuff was fab, gonna have to be strict with how much I keep, couple of pics below Of things I'm Deffo keeping (was sending them to mum for approval!) the long dress Is a very stretchy 8!- the only size they had so I ordered it an hoped for the best and i managed to pull it off - again, a bit low cut for my liking but now my boobs aren't that big I'm not so conscious of that, and gonna feel mega good wearing an 8!











Rana managed to swap shifts then was supposed to be storing at 12.30 (bringing supplies on the ship) turned out by the time he had his shift it was all done, so I was only alone for half hour - major result! Any longer and I may have eaten pizza!! Had to rush back home after as I'd left the dogs 7 hours and we don't usually leave them that long. So came home to my parcels and have literally spent the last hour+ trying on!

Glad you had a good day, and don't you just love that feeling that you have achieved something today.

Don't know what I'm doing yet, was gonna go to the shop and get some chicken to have a warm chicken salad, but then I fancied broccoli, but then I don't know if I can actually be bothered to go to the shop! Mum offered me one of her slim n save meal packets so that is always an option as well. Always feel knackered after visiting Rana on the ship - maybe it's just that I am getting up early at the weekend to do it. I do need to get off of my backside. Currently sat watching fraggle rock lol.

Also need to make sure I go swimming tomorrow!!

 

[marthacol1988]

Thanks hun, guess ill have to decide if I can wear it without feeling paranoid then!

Loads of the stuff was fab, gonna have to be strict with how much I keep, couple of pics below Of things I'm Deffo keeping (was sending them to mum for approval!) the long dress Is a very stretchy 8!- the only size they had so I ordered it an hoped for the best and i managed to pull it off - again, a bit low cut for my liking but now my boobs aren't that big I'm not so conscious of that, and gonna feel mega good wearing an 8!

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Rana managed to swap shifts then was supposed to be storing at 12.30 (bringing supplies on the ship) turned out by the time he had his shift it was all done, so I was only alone for half hour - major result! Any longer and I may have eaten pizza!! Had to rush back home after as I'd left the dogs 7 hours and we don't usually leave them that long. So came home to my parcels and have literally spent the last hour+ trying on!

Glad you had a good day, and don't you just love that feeling that you have achieved something today.

Don't know what I'm doing yet, was gonna go to the shop and get some chicken to have a warm chicken salad, but then I fancied broccoli, but then I don't know if I can actually be bothered to go to the shop! Mum offered me one of her slim n save meal packets so that is always an option as well. Always feel knackered after visiting Rana on the ship - maybe it's just that I am getting up early at the weekend to do it. I do need to get off of my backside. Currently sat watching fraggle rock lol.

Also need to make sure I go swimming tomorrow!!

Lol I take pics of myself all the time now aha! Just for myself. Some I wouldn't show anyone anyway lool

Loving the dresses! and whoop for the 8!!!

Ur boobage is not showing the cut is perfect!

Defo great when you achieve something!

Motivate yourself girl! Get some nice food in you! Not curry! What did rana think?

Slim and save meal is an option your right. I'm not finding the dropping a pack too bad but the scales are not loving me anymore either!

Swim tomorrow sounds good! Your doing well. Just chill tonight and prep for a morning swim

Xxx

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Lol I take pics of myself all the time now aha! Just for myself. Some I wouldn't show anyone anyway lool

Loving the dresses! and whoop for the 8!!!

Ur boobage is not showing the cut is perfect!

Defo great when you achieve something!

Motivate yourself girl! Get some nice food in you! Not curry! What did rana think?

Slim and save meal is an option your right. I'm not finding the dropping a pack too bad but the scales are not loving me anymore either!

Swim tomorrow sounds good! Your doing well. Just chill tonight and prep for a morning swim

Xxx

Thanks hun. I got off my ass and went to the shop, though impulse buys of a mag (had nails inc varnish on it) hair serum and fake tan (all on offer) it turned out quite an expensive trip!!

So this was dinner...

Chicken, lettuce, cucumber, chive and 3g (ooohhh naughty) Parmesan and 5ml (ooohhh so bad) low fat dressing, pah, could've been worse, could've been a burger!! I don't care, I loved it!!



I was right, he turned his nose up at the mince! But was quite happy to eat it, I wasn't best impressed though!! He shoved two more mouthfuls in my mouth (with chapati) I literally couldn't stop it! Hey ho, I'm sure it'll be fine! And it was lovely! He just said he doesn't like the smell of mince.

I have made such a mess of the living room... Clothes everywhere!! Better clear it up before my parents are back tomorrow!

 

[marthacol1988]

Thanks hun. I got off my ass and went to the shop, though impulse buys of a mag (had nails inc varnish on it) hair serum and fake tan (all on offer) it turned out quite an expensive trip!!

So this was dinner...

Chicken, lettuce, cucumber, chive and 3g (ooohhh naughty) Parmesan and 5ml (ooohhh so bad) low fat dressing, pah, could've been worse, could've been a burger!! I don't care, I loved it!!

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I was right, he turned his nose up at the mince! But was quite happy to eat it, I wasn't best impressed though!! He shoved two more mouthfuls in my mouth (with chapati) I literally couldn't stop it! Hey ho, I'm sure it'll be fine! And it was lovely! He just said he doesn't like the smell of mince.

I have made such a mess of the living room... Clothes everywhere!! Better clear it up before my parents are back tomorrow!

Oh I hear ya! Magazine obsession! I got the Elle the other week just because if the free travel size benefit mascara lol it's pretty good mind!

Dinner looks yum!

Naughty rana! Lol you should tell him ur not making anything else lol when is he bk?

I'm sure ul love getting those beauties in ur wardrobe. Do you have much to send bk? And are you keeping the smaller sizes!?? Xxx

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Oh I hear ya! Magazine obsession! I got the Elle the other week just because if the free travel size benefit mascara lol it's pretty good mind!

Dinner looks yum!

Naughty rana! Lol you should tell him ur not making anything else lol when is he bk?

I'm sure ul love getting those beauties in ur wardrobe. Do you have much to send bk? And are you keeping the smaller sizes!?? Xxx

Yeah I saw that and was tempted! Though I never read the magazines, I just like the freebies! At least I can give the mags to my nana who will read anything!

He's a sod! Back next weekend!

I have loads to send back, I may also have to reevaluate my "keep" pile, I'll do some sums then decide! And yeah, keeping mainly 10s (thank you stretchy fabric!) at least that way the guilt is less since I can't see me getting smaller than that, so they should last, and even if I did (yeah right) they'd never be too massive. Since a lot of it is the sorta stuff ion.y wear on holiday or in the summer - and since I'm not sure if there will be either this year I need to justify somehow!,

 

[marthacol1988]

Yeah I saw that and was tempted! Though I never read the magazines, I just like the freebies! At least I can give the mags to my nana who will read anything!

He's a sod! Back next weekend!

I have loads to send back, I may also have to reevaluate my "keep" pile, I'll do some sums then decide! And yeah, keeping mainly 10s (thank you stretchy fabric!) at least that way the guilt is less since I can't see me getting smaller than that, so they should last, and even if I did (yeah right) they'd never be too massive. Since a lot of it is the sorta stuff ion.y wear on holiday or in the summer - and since I'm not sure if there will be either this year I need to justify somehow!,

Lol dear love her!

Not long to wait

Brill about the 10s! I'm sure you are loving life! I'm sure you will be in them this summer!

Would you wanna be any lower than a 10? Xx

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Lol dear love her!

Not long to wait

Brill about the 10s! I'm sure you are loving life! I'm sure you will be in them this summer!

Would you wanna be any lower than a 10? Xx

I ordered my jeans In a 10 as my 12s are too big (same pair) there is NO CHANCE of them doing up, So I guess I'd really like to be a 10 bottom, that's my problem area - tummy, I don't really wanna be smaller than that since my pelvis mega sticks out when I lay on my back, In a really ugly way already, my problem is that I need to tone mostly, oh and loose a little more fat on that area,, my stomach is still really flabby and sticky out when I sit down, a whole lotta rolls there, which weren't there when it was full of fat!! I am now really body conscious now, I have a really nasty shock if I lean over the sink brushing my teeth In the morning without a top, not good at all! Who knew that under those skinny clothes people don't all have perfect bodies hey!! I was certainly under the disillusion that weight loss would make my body beautiful!

The moral of the story, always keep your clothes on!

 

[marthacol1988]

I ordered my jeans In a 10 as my 12s are too big (same pair) there is NO CHANCE of them doing up, So I guess I'd really like to be a 10 bottom, that's my problem area - tummy, I don't really wanna be smaller than that since my pelvis mega sticks out when I lay on my back, In a really ugly way already, my problem is that I need to tone mostly, oh and loose a little more fat on that area,, my stomach is still really flabby and sticky out when I sit down, a whole lotta rolls there, which weren't there when it was full of fat!! I am now really body conscious now, I have a really nasty shock if I lean over the sink brushing my teeth In the morning without a top, not good at all! Who knew that under those skinny clothes people don't all have perfect bodies hey!! I was certainly under the disillusion that weight loss would make my body beautiful!

The moral of the story, always keep your clothes on!

Lmao that's a good moral!!! Ahaha

Defo the illusion of everything being perfect after loosing weight is not true. I know what you mean! Much more paranoid when I've lost a bit than before when I was huge!

Also hear you work the pelvis! Mine feels so big layin down too! Child bearing hips for sure lol

Size ten would be nice I agree. And the jeans WILL fit!! Bare with it!! Just have a saggy ass for a few more weeks lol

We will get there in the end and maybe half of these problems we seem to find with ourselves will do one lol

Xxx

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Lmao that's a good moral!!! Ahaha

Defo the illusion of everything being perfect after loosing weight is not true. I know what you mean! Much more paranoid when I've lost a bit than before when I was huge!

Also hear you work the pelvis! Mine feels so big layin down too! Child bearing hips for sure lol

Size ten would be nice I agree. And the jeans WILL fit!! Bare with it!! Just have a saggy ass for a few more weeks lol

We will get there in the end and maybe half of these problems we seem to find with ourselves will do one lol

Xxx

Haha sat here thinking "did I mention to Martha about my saggy bum?" The realised you were talking about the jeans! I did put the size 10s in the send back pile, I can go get the, in a few weeks, maybe there will be a promotion or something by the time I need them, no point buying them now at full rice just to sit on the side for weeks.

Wake up feeling so lethargic today, Had a shake at 7(!) hoping it may perk me up and get me in the mood for a swim! If I go, I'll wait until later though, done wanna do lane swimming, I feell a bit under pressure, I'll go during public and do a slalom around the kids instead!

Child bearing indeed! I tell you what, I wonder if it is even worth bothering trying to tone it all up, by the time I get my body in good shape ill probably end up having a baby anyway and be back to square one with the flabby saggy bits lol. They say it takes 2 years for skin to catch up with weight loss - that gives me 1or two years before it'll be nackered again since I don't wanna be too much past 30 when I have kids!

Made a good weekend on eBay! 15 items sole, got a horrible feeling I don't have enough bags to send it all in though, trip to staples may be required which I object to since they're prob trice the price of the ones I buy off of amazon! Well be glad to get this pile of clothes down though, got two laundry baskets, a big carrier bag and a bottom draw full!!! I want to be free of it al!!!

 

[marthacol1988]

Haha sat here thinking "did I mention to Martha about my saggy bum?" The realised you were talking about the jeans! I did put the size 10s in the send back pile, I can go get the, in a few weeks, maybe there will be a promotion or something by the time I need them, no point buying them now at full rice just to sit on the side for weeks.

Wake up feeling so lethargic today, Had a shake at 7(!) hoping it may perk me up and get me in the mood for a swim! If I go, I'll wait until later though, done wanna do lane swimming, I feell a bit under pressure, I'll go during public and do a slalom around the kids instead!

Child bearing indeed! I tell you what, I wonder if it is even worth bothering trying to tone it all up, by the time I get my body in good shape ill probably end up having a baby anyway and be back to square one with the flabby saggy bits lol. They say it takes 2 years for skin to catch up with weight loss - that gives me 1or two years before it'll be nackered again since I don't wanna be too much past 30 when I have kids!

Made a good weekend on eBay! 15 items sole, got a horrible feeling I don't have enough bags to send it all in though, trip to staples may be required which I object to since they're prob trice the price of the ones I buy off of amazon! Well be glad to get this pile of clothes down though, got two laundry baskets, a big carrier bag and a bottom draw full!!! I want to be free of it al!!!

Lmao tell me all about ur saggy bum ahaha

Okay yes send them bk then you can repurchase and ur right there may be a promo!

Bargains all the way! Lol

That's a fair point about the baby thing! Get on it! Lol

The lethargy in the mornings suck! I find sometimes I have to drink 1/2 a litre before I even begin to feel normal! What the eff!

See how you feel but you prob will feel better if you go. You kno that sense of. Achievement we talked about yesterday? Lol or do the full 20 min shred?

Glad the ebaying went well. Oh they sell the bags on amazon that's pretty handy. Not when u need them now but for future ref. how much do they cost? And do u keep ur sales uk only to keep posting down? I still have these clothes to sort but not worrying until after Friday. Wanna get them all freshly washed n ironed ready to go!

Xx

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Lmao tell me all about ur saggy bum ahaha

Okay yes send them bk then you can repurchase and ur right there may be a promo!

Bargains all the way! Lol

That's a fair point about the baby thing! Get on it! Lol

The lethargy in the mornings suck! I find sometimes I have to drink 1/2 a litre before I even begin to feel normal! What the eff!

See how you feel but you prob will feel better if you go. You kno that sense of. Achievement we talked about yesterday? Lol or do the full 20 min shred?

Glad the ebaying went well. Oh they sell the bags on amazon that's pretty handy. Not when u need them now but for future ref. how much do they cost? And do u keep ur sales uk only to keep posting down? I still have these clothes to sort but not worrying until after Friday. Wanna get them all freshly washed n ironed ready to go!

Xx

:-( it's not attractive, I miss my bigger bum - no foldy skin things going on back then!!

Pah! Rana wants one... Oh yeah, sure, ill do all that whilst your in whatever country you happen to be in! No way lol.

Missed this mornings swimming, maybe this afternoon! Shred- no way, tried some pop Pilates this morning, didn't last 3 minutes!!

Bags are between £3-5 for 50 depending what size you get. I specify uk only but if someone mails me and asks I usually can accommodate. Free listing next weekend remember! I usually charge £2.99 for Royal Mail second class - usually covers it, it's £2.60 for a small parcel then the rest covers the cost of the bags - used to make a little profit on P&P but they put the price up by 40p a few weeks back, boooo! Anything heavier like shoes is cheaper sent myhermes.

Just had my lunch... Bland sounding but actually rather nice - griddled plain chicken and courgettes! Would have rather just had a plate of courgettes though!!

 

[marthacol1988]

:-( it's not attractive, I miss my bigger bum - no foldy skin things going on back then!!

Pah! Rana wants one... Oh yeah, sure, ill do all that whilst your in whatever country you happen to be in! No way lol.

Missed this mornings swimming, maybe this afternoon! Shred- no way, tried some pop Pilates this morning, didn't last 3 minutes!!

Bags are between £3-5 for 50 depending what size you get. I specify uk only but if someone mails me and asks I usually can accommodate. Free listing next weekend remember! I usually charge £2.99 for Royal Mail second class - usually covers it, it's £2.60 for a small parcel then the rest covers the cost of the bags - used to make a little profit on P&P but they put the price up by 40p a few weeks back, boooo! Anything heavier like shoes is cheaper sent myhermes.

Just had my lunch... Bland sounding but actually rather nice - griddled plain chicken and courgettes! Would have rather just had a plate of courgettes though!!

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Lol I miss my bum but still want rid of my shelf above my bum loool

How would that work with his culture etc? Would you guys have to be married first?

Bags don't seem to bad. Yea myhermes would make sense for shoes I guess. I'm defo gonna be on it nxt weekend. Il finally be free lol

Lunch looks lovely. Missing veg big time. A big bowl of broccoli sounds so yum right now lol

Xx

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Lol I miss my bum but still want rid of my shelf above my bum loool

How would that work with his culture etc? Would you guys have to be married first?

Bags don't seem to bad. Yea myhermes would make sense for shoes I guess. I'm defo gonna be on it nxt weekend. Il finally be free lol

Lunch looks lovely. Missing veg big time. A big bowl of broccoli sounds so yum right now lol

Xx

Yeah, well, he speaks all that about his culture but his actions don't always match his words. But personally I want us to be married and settles somewhere together before that happens, scary cos the clock is ticking!!

Yeah lunch was quite nice! And finally got out for a swim, was a major slalom job around the kids lol. REALLY struggled, have been feeling a bit lack lustre all weekend, thought it was in my head but apparently not! Made myself do the same amount of lengths as last time, which was really hard, but I did it, and enjoyed that empty sorta feeling in my tummy after.

Now trying to to my ironing though, can barely stand, so bloody tired :-(

 

[marthacol1988]

Yeah, well, he speaks all that about his culture but his actions don't always match his words. But personally I want us to be married and settles somewhere together before that happens, scary cos the clock is ticking!!

Yeah lunch was quite nice! And finally got out for a swim, was a major slalom job around the kids lol. REALLY struggled, have been feeling a bit lack lustre all weekend, thought it was in my head but apparently not! Made myself do the same amount of lengths as last time, which was really hard, but I did it, and enjoyed that empty sorta feeling in my tummy after.

Now trying to to my ironing though, can barely stand, so bloody tired :-(

Lol that's men for you eh? Aha I know what you mean tho.

Glad you had ur swim and it's good you pushed yourself! I fell asleep and now feel rubbish. My dad takes my little girl on Sundays and my hubby works until 8pm so Sundays are my day. Good when I have work to do but can be quite boring when it's all done. I still have revision but just avoiding! The 1st exam is Tuesday morning tho lol I should be a little more motivated aha!

You will sleep well tonight! Weigh in is looming too! And one step closer to ur goal!

Watching secret eaters lol do u watch it?

Don't over do it and make sure u rest your body!


Xxx

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Lol that's men for you eh? Aha I know what you mean tho.

Glad you had ur swim and it's good you pushed yourself! I fell asleep and now feel rubbish. My dad takes my little girl on Sundays and my hubby works until 8pm so Sundays are my day. Good when I have work to do but can be quite boring when it's all done. I still have revision but just avoiding! The 1st exam is Tuesday morning tho lol I should be a little more motivated aha!

You will sleep well tonight! Weigh in is looming too! And one step closer to ur goal!

Watching secret eaters lol do u watch it?

Don't over do it and make sure u rest your body!

Xxx

I bet you can't wait until all the study Is over - that way you can spend your Sundays reading, watching a movie, painting your nails...

No, not seen that. What channel is it on? I spent all my ironing time watching nigella, oh boy, that bit at the end if every episode where she sneaks to to fridge and takes a big bite of some naughty leftovers is a killer!!

 

[CrazyDiamond]

So have woken up this morning feeling like a proper invalid again! Staggering around! Who knew 20mins swim could kill me so much!

Was very good yesterday and didn't have a crumb of anything I shouldn't.

Got on the scales this morning and its looking like I will be lucky if I hit 2lbs again this week. What is frustrating is I don't know why... Is it that I had those spoonfuls of curry and that tsp of salad dressing over the weekend? I've done this plenty times before without an issue! Is it that I went swimming and my muscles are retaining water for recovery? I do ache like a mofo! Or is it that that I'm just close to target so should expect it? I don't wanna believe that since last weeks las was ok!

Generally less than 3lbs puts me in a bad mood and throws a gazillion questions out there every time - should I go back to SS? It should I stay SS+? I should I in fact go to step 2? But would step 2 make the losses slow even more?!! Then Part of me thinks sod it, eat normally for a day and shock your body to kick start losses again! (Don't plan on doing that) since its all such an unknown I really don't know what I'm supposed to do? Or just be patient and accept my 2lbs a week an the longer time until target - I'm so bloody impatient though!!!

 

[marthacol1988]

I bet you can't wait until all the study Is over - that way you can spend your Sundays reading, watching a movie, painting your nails...

No, not seen that. What channel is it on? I spent all my ironing time watching nigella, oh boy, that bit at the end if every episode where she sneaks to to fridge and takes a big bite of some naughty leftovers is a killer!!

Yes! I'm making it my mission to clean the house from top to bottoms starting Monday because my daughter will be at school and I can really get stuck in!

It's on channel four. You can catch up on 4od! It's a good show. Oh the lovely nigella work her perfect life lol yea that pig moment at the end is a killer! What a biatch lol

Xx

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Yes! I'm making it my mission to clean the house from top to bottoms starting Monday because my daughter will be at school and I can really get stuck in!

It's on channel four. You can catch up on 4od! It's a good show. Oh the lovely nigella work her perfect life lol yea that pig moment at the end is a killer! What a biatch lol

Xx

oh cool, I'll have to check that out