I'll try harder gulping down the water!!
I went to visit my mum and dad tonight, my nephew was finishing his pudding and his small piece of left over steak and carrots was sitting on plate next to him....I picked up the fork, moved the steak around , sniffed it, drooled then put it in bin, then after searching all shops for pumpkins and failing I decided I would carve a melon for my nephew.......OMG the juiciest melon ever and my nephew sat eating it I struggled but I resisted! I need the next 17lbs off quick then I know I'm half way to my first target of 12 stone.
I don't want to fail, my battle with my weight is always a fail. I have spent the last 15 year's of my life blaming a tumour I had on my pituitary gland which means I have messed up hormones which do have an effect on my weight and metabolism but 75% is my addiction to food. This is why I need such a strict diet to take food completely out of the equation.
I'm bubbling tonight :'(
Positively don't you dare leave me!! Get your skinny ass back into my head and kick that fat bi@ch stuff face monster out!
Hopefully feel better tomorrow day 24, nearly quarter of the way through a hundred day challenge.
I suppose every day on this diet can't be a walk in the park!