So
Here we are again! It's 2016 and I'm back up to 13 st 11 This was a big shock for me as i'd gotten down to 11 stone last July and then put some on and back down to that at Christmas. I'd done it healthily with a personal trainer, and decent diet for a while but for some reason I just struggled with food and eating well consistently.
So I've decided to give exante a try again. I've got a holiday coming up in August and I'm determined to be a bit slimmer by then. As it stands I'm on the cusp of not fitting into any of my clothes (I got rid of loads after my first time on exante). So something has to change.
If I'm completely honest I have loads of reservations about doing a vlcd again. I know there's a good chance I'll pile the weight back on afterwards. I also know it's harder and harder to stick to it each time you try. But I feel like I'm at a loss; I'm so heavy that exercising has become so much more of a struggle and I lack the confidence to go and work out in a gym (stupid I know). I'm also more concerned about the potential side effects this time, so I'm going to be keeping an eye out for anything slightly off. I just keep telling myself that if I do it, and stick to it, in a few months I'll be at a decent weight and can get back to exercise and healthy eating- I just need to use this time to figure out a way to be healthy.
I'm not sure what my goal weight is at the moment. My holiday is in two months, and I'm not sure I'll be able to stick to exante when I'm away for 3 weeks, all inclusive. So that will mean it takes me longer to drop the weight. Even if I stick to exante between now and then I can only hope to be at 11 st 11, which is still too big. I think I want to get to about 10 st, so I'm just going to see how it goes.
So today is my first day (again). I'm currently sat at my desk trying to ignore the hunger pangs, light headedness and cakes that are on the next desk. I also forgot about the wind I get with this diet- an unfortunate side effect! I'm trying to remind myself that it does get better.
I hope I can prove myself wrong, as at the moment I keep thinking of that quote, about the definition of insanity being when you do the same thing again and again but expect different results. I don't want this to be the same as last time, a cycle of weight loss and piling it on. I'll have to try and figure out a way for that not to be the case, but I'm just so desperate this feels like the right way forward at the moment. So, here it goes!