Morning all, didn't realise I'd missed so many days
Appointment all good, nothing to worry about. It's just some bruising remaining from a bad fight with a Christmas tree I had a few years ago, more noticeable now with lots of breast fat gone. But it still took three consultants, a mammogram and an ultrasound to confirm that, all is good.
I'm all over the place with food and weight and energy to be honest. I didn't go swimming on Saturday but did a big cleanout of my wardrobe. Old stained, torn or frayed items are bagged for either cleaning clothes or charity shop shredding/recycling. One or two items have new lives with daughters. And then I've two bags of clothes either too big or I'm just not wearing. I'm not giving them away but am vac packing them up to shrink and store. Anytime I give something away about 6 months later I wish I had it back, this way I'm making room but don't necessarily need to replace them.
I'm off for Sept and we will get to the sun for a few days, so while sorting out wardrobe I put my sunclothes to one side ready to be packed, then when I come home they can be washed a packed away until next year. I've even bought new hangers to hang everything on neatly and it looks great and everything easy to find.
Food wise I'm up and down, meals are fine but then after dinner I've been snacking on cream cheese and sweet chilli rice crackers, not good. On Sunday afternoon I started to feel not great, very shaky and dizzy with heart pounding, it stayed like that all night. I was ok Monday at work but like that Monday night too and it's stopping me sleep. I used to be terrified of it but now it's usually a sign my body is fighting some infection. Well Covid is doing the rounds at work, the sixth person has gone out and we share an office. I'm testing negative and other than being tired have no symptoms but think it was my antibodies fighting, and hopefully beating it. When I get super tired I get very jittery and can't sleep so took two paracetamol last night to help me sleep. It seems to have worked, I slept and am awake now but still tired.
Yesterday was a good day bad day with food. I was at an online training session in the morning and was so tired that I turned off the camera to put my head down for ten minutes. When we stopped for the tea break I nabbed a hobnob from the canteen purely to nibble to keep me awake. Then I felt guilty so went to Lidl next door to replace them (it was the last one in someone else's pack) and bought some dark chocolate digestives and ate four of them with tea after lunch. That was the bad bit. After work I went to the shopping centre for moisturizer in Boots and more hangers in Penny's. I picked up a fabulous pair of sandals in Penny's and then left them with the cashier at the counter saying I'd changed my mind. I really don't need more sandals and can't afford them. I'd already decided I was going to McDonalds to eat and was buying wine to bring home, well I walked straight past the wine shop saying nope I wouldn't have any and then decided fish fingers at home would be much better than McDonalds in the car. I was already anticipating the uncomfortable full feeling after eating carbs and driving. I think that's a win for me for the afternoon. Fish fingers ( not the best choice but better than some) and cabbage tossed with butter, garlic and sunflower seeds became dinner followed by a square of dark chocolate finished my day.
Has my last dental appointment on Monday after work and finally have a pretty smile, he cleaned up my teeth, evened out the four top front teeth and took away the sharpness that was causing blisters inside my lower lip. All good now.
I think that's me all caught up, been swimming every morning since Sunday and off again when I get up. Weight not back to where it should be but will remain on track for next three days and see where it takes me.
Chat later
. I hope your breast clinic appointment comes quickly, it will be tiring mentally waiting for it. I’m just trying to recall when I was last at a zoo, I think it’s 25 years for me too. 
. Still on the floor at home. Not enough time to drive back and get it and swim. And too early to go to work. So im sitting in a service station at the side of the motorway eating a sausage sandwich... Well have eaten it and it wasnt even nice. 
, I'm horrified. Though only myself to blame. So need to get very focussed and get that back. I did manage to go swimming yesterday and about to go again this morning. Lunch for both days is the chicken noodle soup, a boiled egg and a yoghurt pot and dinner is mince and Courgette lasagne. 
. It has membership of Ifit so you can do guided cycles with an instructor. I used it twice and had started a cycle around possibly an island in Hawaii. Started it up on Sunday and found an introduction to cycling, I think it was a 7km circuit in Montana somewhere, I knew it would be difficult to do. Never mind the cycle, I struggled to finish the 3km warm up
. Today it's unpacking and washing and bagging up my summer clothes for next year. I have some chicken thighs and want to make some soup, maybe even two soups. Something detoxing probably. 
. I'm absolutely thrilled for him but it means that becomes my summer holiday and it's quite late in the year. May now becomes a quick weekend away ( and not to somewhere I would choose to go). Workwise and financially it's going to be a stretch.
