Lovely I'm going to give you a little bit of tough love but there's a big hug afterwards
You need to stop! I perfectly understand your fears and worry over eating with SW but the chopping and changing isn't helping you emotionally and physically.
You lose weight on SW because you cut down all the high snacks and the allowance we get is restricted. You also cut down your calories through your super free so you're not going to over eat on your carbs/protein.
You need to stick with the plan for a month before panicking whether it works or not. All the chopping isn't helping.
If I was go back to calorie counting I'd be screwed! On SW you eat to your satisfaction, some days you'll eat over your calories but other days you won't feel hungry so you're calories will be under. It's always swings and round abouts.
If weighing carbs help you then great but remember you need to eat until you're satisfied both physically and mentally.
Think about everything SW gives you, all the freedom and lovely food.
Personally I think you need to settle on a weigh in date, stick to it and promise yourself to follow the plan for a month before truly worrying.
Now for the big ((((HUG)))) xx