I'm so tired today, its not funny!
This past week since starting my pre-op I've not been sleeping well at all, not going to sleep til gone midnight & awake by 0500.
(No wonder your tired!)
Although I don't feel nervous my mind must be in overdrive, I can't believe I can be this tired & not sleep!
We watched 'In pusuit of happyness' last night & I bawled like a baby over his relationship with his son & then I got all upset about what I'm putting my kids thru all b'coz I can't keep my hand out the cookie jar!!!!!!!!
(Ok so you can stop right there as we all know it is more that just over eating the biscuits. Your kids are going to benefit from this just as you are)
Today I feel really disgusted with myself that I ever let it get this far & that I am letting my kids down by going thru all this..... please tell me this is my nerves finally kicking in & I'm perfectly normal!!
(I is your nerves and the fact your a great mummy and everyone can see this by the worry of you saying your letting them down by putting them through this. I dont think you are, i think you are being very brave and putting them first)
Kids are back to school today & I'm going to miss them so much, at least I get to pick Amalie up from preschool at lunchtime! Think I may try & have a sleep whilst she's out.
( Oliver went to one school last week on thurs and fri no probs at all then went to the other one today, the one hes been going to for the longest time and cried, wouldnt let go of me and broke my heart. He didnt do that on the first ever day he went!)
Sorry for my doom & gloom, off to go & hide in a dark corner now!