losing my mind and gaining those lbs-rant alert!
After having such a great loss last week and it's fair to say I was on cloud nine-by Saturday however I fell back down with a crash with nothing to break my fall
For the first time since starting my journey I feel like I've given up on my journey, myself and well everything and I'm struggling to get back to it, it's almost like I don't care anymore which feels a dangerous place to be.
It seems to me I'm at a crossroads, I really don't want to face those scales on wed but I still have 5 sessions left on my countdown-i think I feel more of a failure because I can't really afford to be going but we're making it work as it's so important (or at least it was!) to me.
I have found my scales and I'm looking at a 8-15lb gain depending how accurate they are feeling today so I'm pretty embarrassed!
I've got 5 weeks to turn this around or it will be it, I need to be able to justify the cost, but then again that's the reason I got a countdown in case I fell I would generally have to dust myself off and keep going.
I'm going to face those scales on Wednesday, I don't know what will happen next week, what kind of place I will be in or if I will be able to turn it around but I feel like I can't go down (or back up as it were) without a fight-i just don't know if I have any fight left :sigh:
Hope everyone's having a good week x