A quest for the old happy Em

[prawnchopSuey]

Hi EmmyLou, my gym's the same with its communal shower room. I usually go straight home as it's only a couple of minutes' drive, but when our boiler was playing up I braved it and found that there was never anyone else there so it was absolutely fine!!

Although you're always on guard, just in case someone bursts in - but in my case I think my white bits would give them more of a shock than they'd give me

Hope you're enjoying getting back into the exercise routine. Once you start making a habit of it I think it gets easier to motivate yourself to keep going. And I definitely find cardio helps my losses

 

[EmmyLou30]

I figured there's probably not that many women out there who are willing to bare all whilst soaping up (especially with rubbish showers which take longer to wash the shampoo out)so I may be lucky and get the showers to myself every time. I think I'd do like you though prawnchopsuey and go home to shower if people were in there as they'd scare me off! Last night I was feeling like 'yeah get me being all brave and confident in the shower', then I heard a load of people outside the changing rooms and I totally panicked and freaked out thinking omg someone's going to see me! I wasn't so brave afterall ;-) They didn't come in though, just used the toilets outside.

I am hoping it'll get my losses started again and it's nice when in just a few weeks you start to feel less puffed out going up the stairs etc. Shame you lose it so quickly when you stop. I do need to improve my fitness levels though and my boyfriend assures me the rowing will tone my arms so I might hold him to that and get rather miffed when I don't have arms like him in a few months time ;-) That might scare him if I did have arms like him though. I think muscley women look amazing, he thinks they look butch (most men probably do I guess). I've seen loads of pics of Cameron Diaz lately with moans about her taking it too far and her arms look too butch but I think she looks so good right now.

 

[EmmyLou30]

Day 3 away from the scales and no class last night in the end. I think I've developed triskaidekaphobia and that's what's keeping me off the scales.....the fear of the number 13 on them again!! I figure I can't do more than I'm doing, I've cut out the HEXA, I'm doing exercise and so whatever the scales show :snooty: humph to them, I'm not going to let it get to me.

Meal out on Friday at Bella Italia before going to see Hairspray at the Hippodrome but that's my only naughty thing for the week.

Lunch today I had beans on toast which I haven't done at work before. Don't know why as it was really nice for a change and takes 10 seconds to shove bread in a tupperware box and a tin of beans in my lunch bag of a morning and far nicer than the ryvita I've been putting up with on rushed days! Would have been lovely with a poached egg of course...

 

[10st10lbs]

Hi beautiful I'm always reading your diary on the sly! I absolutely used to hate showering at the gym so would just walk home or jump on the bus - I figured it stinks anyway The extra exercise will definitely help you get away from the dreaded one three, but take measurements too - it's a lot nicer to see the inches drop when the pounds are being stubborn! Do you post a food diary up here? It might be a good idea and you'd get some brill feedback, someone might pick up on something you're under-synning or have a tip or two on how to kickstart losses?

xxx

 

[EmmyLou30]

Hi there 10st 10lb (still my ultimate goal btw!!), thanks for popping by. I don't do a food diary no but I post the odd one on here every now and again for comments/advice so I'll have to do another one. Best make it Saturday or Sunday as tomorrow is my meal at Bella Italia ;-) And today I haven't finished yet so I'll post after a finished day.

Still not been on those scales - must be a new record for me I reckon Off to the gym tonight to burn some more pesky fat (hopefully!).

I have done measurements along the way and my last lot weren't all that long ago as a friend wanted to prove she had bigger thighs than me for some reason!? I text her my stats and that reminds me....she never did tell me hers I'll have to have words....

Beans on toast again today for lunch as I enjoyed it so much yesterday, then probably the other half of the chickpea dahl and rice I had for tea last night after the gym.

 

[TrimTrixy]

Well done on not weighing yourself!!

 

[EmmyLou30]

Definitely some sort of record now since I started this diet again in September last year....another day scales free!

I think it's still fear keeping me away from them to be honest and after yesterdays accident with a free leftover buffet it's probably just as well They ordered too much in the end as some didn't turn up to a meeting so there was loads left over. For some reason they'd not even opened the nice sweet stuff and they'd stuck to the fruit, rolls and veg sticks - health freaks

So me and the rest of my work colleagues decended on it like vultures and despite having already had our lunch (bearing in mind we were all still sat in the canteen at the time so it was literally straight after we'd already eaten!) we all tucked in. I couldn't help it, I was obviously still in a 'sod it, I want nice food' mood. A small egg mayo roll, a glass of orange juice, 2 marshmallow 'things', an inch square piece of millionaires shortbread and a lemon cheesecake piece topped in white chocolate about the same size as the shortbread, and a load of melon pieces and grapes (why didn't I just stick to those last two!?). It was delicious though even if I did feel a bit sick afterwards as I'm not used to the sugar anymore.

I was out on site in the afternoon burning it off though on a sugar fueled energy burst....then almost 45 minutes at the gym as I was still feeling quite energetic after work.....then a bit of car seat dancing to the Jackson 5's 'Blame it on the boogie' and other great tunes on the radio all the way home (it was dark - no-one saw me acting like a woman possesed). So I certainly burnt off some of it and slept like a log

 

[Funky_Munky]

Hey Emmy, glad to see you're feeling a little better. It honestly wouldn't suprise me if the change in your pill is effecting your losses. But like you said, you're doing all you can with eating well and exercising. Your body will work it out in the end.

 

[EmmyLou30]

Love your new profile pic Funky Munky! I think it's either coming off the pill or just one of those levelling out periods. I'm not going totally off the rails, just diverting off into the sidings every now and again!

 

[EmmyLou30]

I managed to go a whole week without weighing!!!! I put on 0.6lb this week so it could have been worse. I've now effectively stayed the same for a month and I'm 3lb heavier than my lightest so far (lost my 3.5 stone sticker I know but I'm hopeful I can get it back to avoid the hassle of changing it back to a 3!). I'm now half a stone over my Easter target so that's out the window but I'm blaming it on the pill or lack of pill should I say.

Hairspray on Friday night was one of the best musicals I've seen yet, fantastic. Michael Ball was great in the role and my lucky friend got to meet him by the back door after the matinee show Saturday. Yummy Bella Italia too

The weekend was good, tried two new recipes, one ok one awful. Rose and cardomom panacotta - yucky! Even the boyfriend left it and he hates wasting food and will usually plod on with it regardless so it must have been bad. Mexican bake, passable but it's no smash pizza :drool: Basically it was new potatoes, peppers, onions, pasata and some spices topped with your HEXA of cheese and bunged in the oven. Probably chuck some quorn chunks in next time. I tried the quorn steak strips this weekend too in a stirfry expecting a different flavour....er no. Just quorn pieces coloured brown and taste exactly the same as the chicken pieces - what's the point in that!?

Gym again tonight if my leg doesn't protest too much. Woke up Saturday morning thinking I'd just slept funny and it'd sort itself out but it hasn't. Hurts to walk right at the top of my thigh and I've no idea why. Thought it might be good to work through the pain at the gym though and loosen whatever's got trapped in there. I can't go for the rest of the week and I'm not at work next week so can't go then either so really need to get a session in tonight.

Hope everyone is all set for another week of SW, fingers crossed for a loss - pleeeeeeease!!!

 

[EmmyLou30]

Well my leg was fine at the gym and although it still hurts to walk I think it is a tiny bit better today. Proud of myself I didn't use it as an excuse to dodge the gym. I am liking the new gym though so I hope I can keep it up. I got out of the shower just in time last night as someone else actually came in and used the changing room and showers She admitted she never usually bothers though and was surprised the changing rooms were so quiet. It was really nice to chat to someone actually about nothing in particular. Turns out she's yet another Bristolian who used to holiday down where I live! Tourist season is in full swing at the moment but it shouldn't affect the traffic or parking at fat club tonight.

I'm expecting a 2 or 2.5lb gain for last week and this week put together and I sort of have my excuses ready when she says 'what went wrong?'. I know I shouldn't be making excuses but I think it's more of a reason than an excuse to be fair. Not sure it's really appropriate to go explaining my medication to a class full of people though as they're not interested in my health issues!

I've also realised I'm way off target now for more free SW vouchers on the NHS as I haven't lost enough. I had to lose 12lbs in 12 weeks and I've lost 5 or 6 depending on tonights weigh in and I've only got two weeks free left (blimey that went quick didn't it!?). I think I might carry on paying for a 6 week countdown or something and then if I still look to be gaining then I'll leave till my body sorts itself out or I can get on some other medication.

Has anyone got experience of taking Metformin to control weight gain with PCOS? It's a diabetic drug so it sorts the insulin issues out which make PCOS sufferers gain weight.

 

[Jane R]

Good luck with WI tonight. It might be worth talking to the person who supplied the vouchers about your change in medication. x

 

[EmmyLou30]

I've just been on the phone to her and we've arranged a meeting for next Wednesday to discuss eligibility for more vouchers. I expect it's a clear cut yes or no based on your weight loss but I will plead my case and explain that I had no choice in coming off the medication. Ok I could have taken two more months of it in order to get the second lot of vouchers but is my health worth just £55? I had to come off it as it was just too bad a pill to stay on a moment longer.

I've worked out I needed to lose 9.5lbs not 12lb but I'm not going to reach that either so it doesn't matter. I'm still trying to work out what to say in class tonight and will probably go with a simple 'I've recently come off some medication that was controlling my weight and I'm sure it's no coincidence that the moment I stopped taking it I started gaining weight!'. I guess the class will think I've been on diet pills and been cheating or something but without going into detail and mentioning the PCOS I can't help that.

 

[EmmyLou30]

2.5lbs on at class last night so my overall loss is 5.5lbs now. She did ask if I knew where it had come from and I quite openly said I'd actually gained for the last 3 weeks but it coincided with stopping some medication - one of the symptoms of what I was taking them for was weight gain so they were clearly doing their job and now they aren't! She asked if I was going to set a goal for this week....I wonder if she was even listening to my explanation as clearly weight loss isn't on the cards for me at the moment unless my body can learn to cope without the drugs. I said just a STS would be good at the moment although I was upping the exercise so was hoping that might help.

I'm on week two of my body magic silver now and I'm pleased I'm getting back into a routine with it even if I only go once in a week. I had a mole removed from my thigh this morning so that's now a bit stingy now the numbness is wearing off! I'm hoping as they chose to burn it out rather than cut it out I'll still be able to gym tomorrow night as I can't at all next week. I wasn't going to go to the gym and strain a stitch but if it's just burnt it should be ok so long as it's covered up. What am I like eh, actually wanting to get back to the gym!!?

 

[EmmyLou30]

I'm sat at my desk in a rather twisted way so as not to sit down with my full weight on the back of my thigh....think I'll need the gym later to untwist it with some stretching! It feels ok so long as I don't poke it or sit fully on it.

This is my last day in the office for 11 days woo hoo!!!! So glad I decided to take the 3 days off next week afterall. My boyfriend reminded me last night (as I was getting excited about a week off) that it wasn't a week off it was for working! I have a stack of painting and DIY jobs to do as well as gardening so I will be doing some sort of work most days but it'll keep me away from the non SW food. I tend to go a bit off plan when I'm not at work in my usual routine. I noticed at class there were a lot of gains this week all put down to holidays and not being in a normal routine so glad it's not just me.

I'll be honest and hang my head in shame.....I got on the scales this morning Don't even know why I did it as I wasn't fighting the urge to get on them or anything like I normally would, as after a week of abstinence I haven't even been thinking about it in the morning. I think I was just sleepy and did it on autopilot almost. They actually showed a bit of a loss though.....I won't get my hopes up but I have been extra strict food wise this week and upped the exercise to try and combat the pill withdrawl so I deserve a flippin' loss after the last 3 gains.....but it'll still be a nice surprise on Sunday if I lose even half a pound as it will hopefully mean I can fight the lack of pill if I try really hard. Bit of a further kick in the teeth of course that I was already dieting harder than 'normal' dieters just to lose half what they were so to have to be even more strict is like further punishment. But being fat feels like a punishment too as it's sort of medical related (ok some of it is take-away related too! I won't deny that). So I have decide which is worse really don't I!

 

[Jane R]

I do hope that the scales are kind to you on Sunday EmmyLou, you really deserve a loss. Hope that you have a good 'break'. x

 

[EmmyLou30]

Thanks Jane. Hope you're having a good week too and are on for a loss. Enjoy the bank holidays.

I guess I should think myself lucky we don't have family plans for Easter that involve food and not knowing what's in stuff. Mum and Dad are trying to be 'good' though and lose weight so hopefully if I do end up round there it won't be too disasterous!

 

[TrimTrixy]

Good luck EmmyLou, u deserve a break. And DIY counts as body magic too

 

[Jane R]

Hi EmmyLou, I hope that you are OK as you havn't posted for a while. Perhaps you are up to your eyes with DIY. x

 

[EmmyLou30]

I'm ok, I finally managed to get back on here while I wait for some paint to dry The laptop has also been broken - well the keyboard anyway. The space bar was broken and I thought a post with no spaces in would be a bit silly and hard to read

In my week off I've been very busy in the garden and it's now finally up together with clean decking with a fresh coat of oil on (took days of work in the heat - typical the sun's gone in now we've finished!). Got to count as body magic as we seriously had a sweat on doing it!

Not so much painting done but I'm still pleased with what I've got done. Mum says I've wasted my week off as my brother and his wife have spent theirs at the zoo and on days out.....now if I'd done that she'd have said 'oh, no work done in the house then'. Can't win with her, it's like the constant comments on the weight, I can't do anything right.

I saw the health trainer on Wednesday and explained why I hadn't met the pound a week target and she was very understanding and said she'd plead my case for a second lot of vouchers.....they came in the post today So I get another 12 weeks at class for free and I'm really chuffed with that. It's certainly keeping me on track while my body sorts itself out coming off the pill.

On that front I'm hoping my body is getting there now as I lost 1.5lb last week! I've not been so good this week as I've not been at the gym and I've been picking a lot more at stuff. Usually a bowl of cereal or an Alpen bar but still naughty. I've been avoiding the scales again this week - yes I think I might have cracked my addiction So tomorrow will be a surprise on the scales - hopefully a good one!