A quest for the old happy Em
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Another week down and another loss - 1.2lb down this week so I'm really happy with that. Have to be really good this week to make up for the weekend and make sure that doesn't catch up with me next Sunday.
Saturday I got most of the xmas shopping done. You'd never think there was a recession on with the number of people who were filling every spare inch of shop floor space - it was a nightmare! The food hall at lunch (we waited till nearly 2pm as well) was queued everywhere so we had chips rather than pizza hut as it would have wasted too much of our day. We had some pizza for tea instead. We also had 2 krispy kreme donuts (one shopping and one for pudding when we got home). Had one of their new jaffa ones with orange jam in the middle and choc on top - it was lush. So that was it food wise, could have been worse and all those hours on our feet must have burnt some calories off judging by how knackered and achey we were getting back on the coach!
The skirts I tried on in M&S were indeed too short. I think even a small child with little legs would have found them too short! Plus they had that odd pointy fish tail at the back where the fabric on straight cord/denim skirts always seems to stick out oddly. I seem to find them too tight fitting over the hips despite the waist being too big or they narrow at the hem so I've never been able to wear straight pencil skirts. Then I found the most perfect skirt from 'White Stuff' in John Lewis that tapered out slightly rather than in so skimmed my hips and stayed out, dead straight across the back with no sticky out fabric and the perfect just above the knee length. They had both a dark denim and a brown denim (not cord but close enough!). I'd be pushed to spend £45 on a coat, let alone a skirt normally (I'm a combination of not rolling in cash as well as being a bit careful with the money I do have!) so to buy 2 at that price each they must have been perfect!
My boyfriend bought me a nice new watch in the swatch shop too so today I'm wearing that and getting used to the feel of it. Ever so odd when you haven't worn one in ages. I also treated myself to a new perfume, the new CK One Shock, very fruity and came with free body lotion, and I had a 20% off voucher so I couldn't say no
So all in all a day for treating myself to things as well as getting the shopping done. I have to pop out again to get a couple gift vouchers for Hobby Craft to go with some smellies I bought for relatives and then I'm pretty much done.
Just have to make sure I don't gain weight or those beautiful skirts won't fit!!
Saturday I got most of the xmas shopping done. You'd never think there was a recession on with the number of people who were filling every spare inch of shop floor space - it was a nightmare! The food hall at lunch (we waited till nearly 2pm as well) was queued everywhere so we had chips rather than pizza hut as it would have wasted too much of our day. We had some pizza for tea instead. We also had 2 krispy kreme donuts (one shopping and one for pudding when we got home). Had one of their new jaffa ones with orange jam in the middle and choc on top - it was lush. So that was it food wise, could have been worse and all those hours on our feet must have burnt some calories off judging by how knackered and achey we were getting back on the coach!
The skirts I tried on in M&S were indeed too short. I think even a small child with little legs would have found them too short! Plus they had that odd pointy fish tail at the back where the fabric on straight cord/denim skirts always seems to stick out oddly. I seem to find them too tight fitting over the hips despite the waist being too big or they narrow at the hem so I've never been able to wear straight pencil skirts. Then I found the most perfect skirt from 'White Stuff' in John Lewis that tapered out slightly rather than in so skimmed my hips and stayed out, dead straight across the back with no sticky out fabric and the perfect just above the knee length. They had both a dark denim and a brown denim (not cord but close enough!). I'd be pushed to spend £45 on a coat, let alone a skirt normally (I'm a combination of not rolling in cash as well as being a bit careful with the money I do have!) so to buy 2 at that price each they must have been perfect!
My boyfriend bought me a nice new watch in the swatch shop too so today I'm wearing that and getting used to the feel of it. Ever so odd when you haven't worn one in ages. I also treated myself to a new perfume, the new CK One Shock, very fruity and came with free body lotion, and I had a 20% off voucher so I couldn't say no
So all in all a day for treating myself to things as well as getting the shopping done. I have to pop out again to get a couple gift vouchers for Hobby Craft to go with some smellies I bought for relatives and then I'm pretty much done.
Just have to make sure I don't gain weight or those beautiful skirts won't fit!!
What a week....nothing exciting though I'm afraid, just lots of coughing, nose blowing, slobbing on the sofa and feeling sorry for myself and generally being a lot less active than usual (which is saying something, even for me!). I think I'm seeing off the last of it now though in time for * week so that's nice...no surprise the combination of the two has me gaining 1lb this week. It may well go up again come Sunday as I'm out for two meals this week before two different shows at the Bristol Hippodrome on Thursday and Saturday.
Puppetry of the Penis on Thursday and Vagina Monologues on Saturday. Really looking forward to both of them, should be a laugh. Bit sad I'll have an empty seat next to me where my friend who died recently should have been but I know she'd want everyone to have a good time in her absence.
I'm trying to be good this week on the days I'm not eating out to minimise the damage!!
Puppetry of the Penis on Thursday and Vagina Monologues on Saturday. Really looking forward to both of them, should be a laugh. Bit sad I'll have an empty seat next to me where my friend who died recently should have been but I know she'd want everyone to have a good time in her absence.
I'm trying to be good this week on the days I'm not eating out to minimise the damage!!
Feeling much better now Jane, thanks. This weeks food hasn't been amazingly good diet wise but you know when you get your head in a 'it's not going to be good with all these meals out so I won't worry too much' place.....well that's where I am again.
Tonight is a meal at Bella Italia so not sure what I'll have, can't remember what they do in there that's 'good'. The tomato pasta is probably the safest bet although still not great. Then it's off to see Puppetry of the Penis Should be a good laugh. I saw the show a couple years back but it's supposed to be new so worth a watch again. I mean what's not to find entertaining about 2 guys making their bits into shapes!?
Tonight is a meal at Bella Italia so not sure what I'll have, can't remember what they do in there that's 'good'. The tomato pasta is probably the safest bet although still not great. Then it's off to see Puppetry of the Penis
Should be a good laugh. I saw the show a couple years back but it's supposed to be new so worth a watch again. I mean what's not to find entertaining about 2 guys making their bits into shapes!? Oh dear oh dear, another week, another pound gained - eek. I guess it could have been worse, I have been for meals this week.
The puppetry was very entertaining on Thursday and I ended up getting a pizza and sharing some garlic bread in Bella Italia....and then sweeties for watching the show for desert.
Saturday was many hours spent walking round the shops for which my legs are still suffering now, ouch. I did get some nice stuff though and it was a pleasant day by myself relaxing and doing what I fancied. I stopped in Yo Sushi for lunch but didn't have very much as tea was going to be quite early....then went to Thai Edge for tea. Never been there before but it was lovely food, some sweetcorn patty things to start with a plum sauce (deep fried so not good), then pad thai for main....oh and then sweeties again while watching the show. I did do at least 5 hours of solid walking so hopefully it'll all balance out.
I should have stopped there of course but we ended up with a Chinese last night too to finish the weekend off. I didn't eat a lot all day though as I was busy cleaning and stuff but still.....it's not good.
In order to try and stop this weekend catching up with me next week I'm back on the wagon today, counting syns, writing it all down and keeping my fingers crossed
The puppetry was very entertaining on Thursday and I ended up getting a pizza and sharing some garlic bread in Bella Italia....and then sweeties for watching the show for desert.
Saturday was many hours spent walking round the shops for which my legs are still suffering now, ouch. I did get some nice stuff though and it was a pleasant day by myself relaxing and doing what I fancied. I stopped in Yo Sushi for lunch but didn't have very much as tea was going to be quite early....then went to Thai Edge for tea. Never been there before but it was lovely food, some sweetcorn patty things to start with a plum sauce (deep fried so not good), then pad thai for main....oh and then sweeties again while watching the show. I did do at least 5 hours of solid walking so hopefully it'll all balance out.
I should have stopped there of course but we ended up with a Chinese last night too to finish the weekend off. I didn't eat a lot all day though as I was busy cleaning and stuff but still.....it's not good.
In order to try and stop this weekend catching up with me next week I'm back on the wagon today, counting syns, writing it all down and keeping my fingers crossed
Oh dear, it's all gone horribly wrong and we aren't even in to the scoffing month yet!! As far as I know I have 2 works xmas meals out and a birthday meal with a friend as well as a meal out on Saturday coming up, not to mention xmas itself.....you'd think I'd be managing to lose a bit beforehand really wouldn't you?
Instead I've been totally useless, gained 1.8lb this week and I'm the biggest I've been since passing this weight on the way down this time last year. Don't know why I can't get my head in the right place
I did manage to get to the gym last week and I'm planning two trips this week but that's not enough really.
I had a friend tell me yesterday they thought I was an outwardly negative person but inwardly positive....I argued that I thought I was even more negative inside and I try to keep a positive front to other people (and fail at this obviously!). But then he pointed out that despite losing my hair, gaining loads of weight, feeling so drained with the thyroid thing and various other things over the last few years I'm still here aren't I.....I didn't do anything silly, I didn't let depression take a hold and drag me down, I don't sit at home moping about it (I come on here instead!) and that must make me a positive person. This particular friend hates to be wrong so made a convincing argument to prove his point
I guess he's right really. When I think back on stuff I do feel a bit proud of myself that I've come out the other side and got on with my life. Some might say there are worse things to go through than losing your hair and getting fat and that people have far worse medical issues than a thyroid problem, and they'd be right of course. Having had a friend die young of cancer recently I know this only too well. But as anyone who's had any problem in their life will know, no matter how insignificant it might appear to others, it's a big deal to you when it's you it's happeneing to.
The 'proud' feeling is an odd one really, probably due to it being so unfamiliar, I've very rarely had occasion in my life to feel anything positive about myself. I can probably count on one hand the times I've felt good about my life's achievements, on the whole I feel like my life's been a bit of a flop and someone else could have lived it better and deserves it more than I do - my friend who recently passed for instance. If I could have given her any time I had remaining to me and swapped places with her I would have done. She'd have used the time far more wisely, accomplished so much more and made more of an impact on others lives than I will. Hmm, not sure my friend was right about that inwardly positive thing....my head's a dark place at times!
Well that was a rather gloomy post wasn't it, went from positive to negative like the flick of a switch. I'm now going to try and make a mental list of those positive moments I mentioned and see if it adds up to more than the fingers on one hand
Instead I've been totally useless, gained 1.8lb this week and I'm the biggest I've been since passing this weight on the way down this time last year. Don't know why I can't get my head in the right place
I did manage to get to the gym last week and I'm planning two trips this week but that's not enough really.
I had a friend tell me yesterday they thought I was an outwardly negative person but inwardly positive....I argued that I thought I was even more negative inside and I try to keep a positive front to other people (and fail at this obviously!). But then he pointed out that despite losing my hair, gaining loads of weight, feeling so drained with the thyroid thing and various other things over the last few years I'm still here aren't I.....I didn't do anything silly, I didn't let depression take a hold and drag me down, I don't sit at home moping about it (I come on here instead!) and that must make me a positive person. This particular friend hates to be wrong so made a convincing argument to prove his point
I guess he's right really. When I think back on stuff I do feel a bit proud of myself that I've come out the other side and got on with my life. Some might say there are worse things to go through than losing your hair and getting fat and that people have far worse medical issues than a thyroid problem, and they'd be right of course. Having had a friend die young of cancer recently I know this only too well. But as anyone who's had any problem in their life will know, no matter how insignificant it might appear to others, it's a big deal to you when it's you it's happeneing to.
The 'proud' feeling is an odd one really, probably due to it being so unfamiliar, I've very rarely had occasion in my life to feel anything positive about myself. I can probably count on one hand the times I've felt good about my life's achievements, on the whole I feel like my life's been a bit of a flop and someone else could have lived it better and deserves it more than I do - my friend who recently passed for instance. If I could have given her any time I had remaining to me and swapped places with her I would have done. She'd have used the time far more wisely, accomplished so much more and made more of an impact on others lives than I will. Hmm, not sure my friend was right about that inwardly positive thing....my head's a dark place at times!
Well that was a rather gloomy post wasn't it, went from positive to negative like the flick of a switch. I'm now going to try and make a mental list of those positive moments I mentioned and see if it adds up to more than the fingers on one hand
Jane R
One step at a time
If it is any consolation EmmyLou I am also struggling to keep in control.I walked around Morrisons yesterday with my tongue on the floor when I was confronted with all the Christmas goodies. I am feeling extremely weak willed which isn't good as we are still nearly 4 weeks away from Christmas! I am expecting a gain tomorrow judging by the scales this morning.
I believe also that you should feel proud of yourself EmmyLou so don't beat yourself up. x
I believe also that you should feel proud of yourself EmmyLou so don't beat yourself up. x
Thanks Jane, hopefully we can both resist those xmas goodies in the shops and get back on track. It's just like whole aisles of tempting stuff every week when you go shopping isn't it with the nuts and chocolates. Doesn't help Sainsburys having the big toblerones for £2 at the moment, I so nearly bought one but managed to resist! I bought some Lindt Lindor for a friend and my boyfriend made me wrap them up quick smart or he was going to tear into them if they were left out in full view!!
Two days done on plan now this week and two visits to the gym too. I went a bit harder than usual both nights and added in a bit of time on the weights machine in there. My arms are now killing me of course so I'm having a day off from it today Hoping to try an early morning session before work tomorrow as next weeks evenings are nearly all booked up and if I'm going to keep the gyming up it's gonna have to be in the mornings.
Two days done on plan now this week and two visits to the gym too. I went a bit harder than usual both nights and added in a bit of time on the weights machine in there. My arms are now killing me of course so I'm having a day off from it today
Hoping to try an early morning session before work tomorrow as next weeks evenings are nearly all booked up and if I'm going to keep the gyming up it's gonna have to be in the mornings. Well I was doing ok till someone brought cake in and I had to have a little flapjack bite and a cookie.....and then another flapjack bite when I passed the table later - oops. Could be worse I suppose but they're all gone now so no more temptations for the rest of the day!
Success!! 3 gym sessions last week, lots of walking round the shops on Saturday (I have a blister on the tip of my toe to prove it) and I've managed to lose 3.1lbs this week Even more impressive is the fact that I made it to the gym on a Monday morning before work I'm sat here with partially dry and fluffy hair now - the downside of washing my hair of a morning rather than the night before so it can flatten down a bit but it just feels a bit dirty and wrong not to wash my hair in the shower after the gym along with the rest of me.
I have two more gym sessions pencilled in for the week so that'll be 3 again and hopefully that'll mean a loss of some sort next week too. I have two meals out this week and I was out for a meal on Saturday too so with a good loss this week I'll be happy for any sort of loss next week really.
I had a bit of a pick me up conversation with a friend at work on Friday too. She said two of the blokes in her department had asked what a girl in my department was called....she asked them to describe her and they said 'the one who's lost loads of weight'....they meant me!! Not only was that a compliment from people who didn't know I was on a diet, but they're men too! I'm also about the same size now as this time last year so that makes it extra surprising that they would say that. We usually pick on a negative to describe someone don't we - the old one or the fat one, or we use a persons ethnicity - they could have picked hair colour, not the pregnant one, the one that sits by x, but they picked a positive and I'm really grateful she told me. She knew I'd want to hear it - who wouldn't!?
So starting the week on a high note, fingers crossed it's not too downhill from here ;-)
Even more impressive is the fact that I made it to the gym on a Monday morning before work I'm sat here with partially dry and fluffy hair now - the downside of washing my hair of a morning rather than the night before so it can flatten down a bit but it just feels a bit dirty and wrong not to wash my hair in the shower after the gym along with the rest of me. I have two more gym sessions pencilled in for the week so that'll be 3 again and hopefully that'll mean a loss of some sort next week too. I have two meals out this week and I was out for a meal on Saturday too so with a good loss this week I'll be happy for any sort of loss next week really.
I had a bit of a pick me up conversation with a friend at work on Friday too. She said two of the blokes in her department had asked what a girl in my department was called....she asked them to describe her and they said 'the one who's lost loads of weight'....they meant me!! Not only was that a compliment from people who didn't know I was on a diet, but they're men too! I'm also about the same size now as this time last year so that makes it extra surprising that they would say that. We usually pick on a negative to describe someone don't we - the old one or the fat one, or we use a persons ethnicity - they could have picked hair colour, not the pregnant one, the one that sits by x, but they picked a positive and I'm really grateful she told me. She knew I'd want to hear it - who wouldn't!?
So starting the week on a high note, fingers crossed it's not too downhill from here ;-)
Thanks Jane. x
I probably undid some of it with a meal out last night but I did gym again this morning and plan to tomorrow and Friday so I've upped this weeks count to 4.
I've been giving my brother a lift to work since he got a job in my office as he can't drive so me gyming in the morning means he has to get the rather expensive train instead - so that makes me feel a bit guilty as he's not being paid very much and he loses 1.5 hours wages a day if he has to use the train. He uses weights at home in the garage and says gyms are too expensive but it actually works out cheaper for him to come to the gym in the morning with me than use the train so he came with me today
Something about having someone there makes you work a bit harder too so it's all for the better. Means I can now gym tomorrow without the guilt and it also means he can drive his car with L plates and get some practice in - as all the days I gym he can't do that so it's a double guilt trip for me!
So more gym for me and hopefully if I can stay on plan (aside from Thursdays xmas meal) then I can get a loss this week.
I bought a new dress a couple weeks ago and although I washed it at 30 it shrank. They don't have any more left so I don't want to take it back, and it does still fit - just. So I really want to get a few pounds off to keep wearing that too.
I probably undid some of it with a meal out last night but I did gym again this morning and plan to tomorrow and Friday so I've upped this weeks count to 4.
I've been giving my brother a lift to work since he got a job in my office as he can't drive so me gyming in the morning means he has to get the rather expensive train instead - so that makes me feel a bit guilty as he's not being paid very much and he loses 1.5 hours wages a day if he has to use the train. He uses weights at home in the garage and says gyms are too expensive but it actually works out cheaper for him to come to the gym in the morning with me than use the train so he came with me today
Something about having someone there makes you work a bit harder too so it's all for the better. Means I can now gym tomorrow without the guilt and it also means he can drive his car with L plates and get some practice in - as all the days I gym he can't do that so it's a double guilt trip for me!
So more gym for me and hopefully if I can stay on plan (aside from Thursdays xmas meal) then I can get a loss this week.
I bought a new dress a couple weeks ago and although I washed it at 30 it shrank. They don't have any more left so I don't want to take it back, and it does still fit - just. So I really want to get a few pounds off to keep wearing that too.
Blimey, 3 mornings in a row at the gym.....really flagging now though! I tried to make sure I did the same amount today but it was tougher than yesterday, especially after yet another nights crap sleep due to a cough some lovely person at work brought in to share. I'm past the contagious bit (that was there to spoil my weekend instead) and use lots of hand sanitiser and stuff so I don't think I'm spreading it about - I hope not!
It's also disturbing my boyfriends sleep who has to get up at 5:30am :-(
Undecided about gyming for the rest of the week. I did have a mad crazy moment where I thought 'yeah, I'm going to go every morning this week' but now I'm not so sure. It very much depends how much sleep I get tonight! Oh, and if my brother wants to come. He gave it a miss today as yesterday has left him with aching arms!!
Food wise I did so well yesterday till my boyfriend brought home some choccy cake....naughty boy. Oh, and I now have a meal out tonight too!! Oh dear. Hopefully all the gyming will lessen the blow on Sunday's WI....fingers crossed
It's also disturbing my boyfriends sleep who has to get up at 5:30am :-(
Undecided about gyming for the rest of the week. I did have a mad crazy moment where I thought 'yeah, I'm going to go every morning this week' but now I'm not so sure. It very much depends how much sleep I get tonight! Oh, and if my brother wants to come. He gave it a miss today as yesterday has left him with aching arms!!
Food wise I did so well yesterday till my boyfriend brought home some choccy cake....naughty boy. Oh, and I now have a meal out tonight too!! Oh dear. Hopefully all the gyming will lessen the blow on Sunday's WI....fingers crossed
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