Ok so....
I understand that I've been feeling and sounding confused! So last night I did what any sensible girl does when having a crisis of this kind... I phoned my mom!
And... She gave me a complete lecture about how "fabulous" I looked now and that I didn't need to stick to daft faddy diets any more - I needed to be happy and healthy!
She went onto tell me how bloody miserable and snappy I was during my 5 months on CD and how she avoided talking to me at the time (which looking back is true... Just didn't realise it!)... This miserable Alex was also confirmed by my 11 year old who slapped his head and said "oh please no!" when I told him I was dieting again lol!
My mom went onto tell me that at 40 I should avoid being too skinny as I now had wrinkles to think about and being too thin made these worse!
So my mom thinks CD is wrong, my son thinks its wrong, my minimins friends think its wrong!!?
So last night I reread my whole diary (which confirmed my JUDDDDing happiness!) and looked at what I ate on my two weeks when I lost ! This made me rethink the reasons why I hadn't lost on the other weeks
The final straw was feeling exhausted this morning... So much so that I struggled to get out of bed! And.... I have a huge spot on my chin??!!!! Not had a spot since first week of CD last time!
So in conclusion lol! I'm back JUDDDDing today! Im going to make sure i have 4 DDs and 3 UDs each week and stick to my DD calories but apart from that im not thinking about it anymore!!
So.... Can I come back into the bosom of my JUDDDDing friends :-D ???? Sorry for the ramblings this week lol! Xx