Hi PaulaJ, thanks for your kind comments, yes I know what you are talking about! As long as you don't start calling me Magnum PI!!
I have also found when I used to diet with my ex I would consistently lose less each week, which annoyed her! But like you OH, I have always put on plus a little more!
I think the reason I am now bigger than I have ever been is comfort eating from my break up through my divorce and then finding the love of my life who loves cooking!
In my precious relationship we never ate together, I hadn't had sit down evening meals since I lived at home, my wife cooks hot meals every night, we sit down as a family and talk, it's wonderful! Her meals are healthy and nutritious, but I snack like a son of a *****, I go to buy bread to make us some lunch and buy myself a sandwich for the journey home, and then have the homemade sandwich too that's not right!
I have a food addiction, it's not until you break the cycle on a diet like this that you can see how much control it has over you!
I'm fed up feeling fat, I'm fed up of comments by so called friends, I am fed up of never seeing a decent picture of me!
My wife loves me as I am, everything I am doing is for me, no one else, I want to feel like I did it 2007, people complimented me, it was fantastic!
Anyway, knowing I have a problem is the start, this is fantastic to be on and coping with it and although sitting with them at the dinner table drinking my shake feels a little odd, I know I will be eating with then in the future, feeling and looking better!
Keep strong guys!