Day 19: nothing much to report, it all gets quite boring doesn't it, I read your diaries and I am glad that everyone is doing so well and remain focused, you inspire me!
For me it has gone beyond the cravings, beyond the desire, it is more a case of ok how long do I have to do this for! It no longer seems a problem, just a period of time!
I don't really feel better about myself, however I do echo the comments of looking at larger people and being glad I am doing something about it and yet, they may be thinking the same about me!
I am also enjoying the time to evaluate my relationship with food, yes I have known I have a problem for years but I have never really looked at the how and why I eat! I am looking and thinking how can I control this in the future!
I did something I promised I wouldn't do yesterday, I got out some clothes to try on, all still to small, but my fear was it would make me feel so low I would eat, but I didn't feel that way, I took it in my stride, I know I will be there soon!
The funny thing is I have 3 suits (I don't wear a suit often), and I have a job in Feb when I will need it! My 3 suits are BIG ME, normal me and skinny me! Now the BIG ME suit is too too big, like I am a child wearing my dads suit, my normal me suit, is just too small! Help!!!
I have until the 4th of Feb to get in it, I hope I can, and that job is stressing me out massively, let's just say, abroad for a week sat in a room from 7am until 11pm working with a company I have worked for once and not trying to seem like a freak for not eating in the evenings with them! It's worrying me!
Anyway all the beat to you 100% people! Keep it up!