oh and a quick update on my life at the mo, i didnt get that job, i was gutted spent most of thursday evening crying to myself but i had no idea what i was going to do, id volunteered there for a year and then been asked to go for that job, I just felt so deflated and disheartened. i quickly filled in the application for midday supervisor at my little ones school as the closing date was yesterday and had it all printed off to hand in.
yesterday morning was a rush as little one was on a school trip and i was helping out, i looked awful when i got up (eyes were all puffy) but showered and tried to make myself look presentable. handed my application in straight away then ran round to little ones class. i was given a lovely group of kids to look after (although it was a nightmare watching 4 of them as two of them would run off in one direction and two in another, then one woulsnt want to go somewhere and the rest would or some of them would need the toilet and others wouldnt!!! but i had a lovely day, when we got there i noticed i had a missed call from school, so i rang them and they asked if i wanted to do relief that day, so i explained i was on the trip and she asked for me to go in when we got back. so whem i went in to see her she asked if id be happy to do relief for them, i said yes so im in on monday

so its only relief and only dinnertimes but at least its a job finally and hopefully will turn into something perminant and then either lead me onto more hours doing something else in the school or my boyfeiend thinks i should start looking into becoming a consultant and if i did that this job would fit around it as well... so hopefully things are starting to look up for me.
oh and then last night i ate and drank loada of what i shouldnt but i had a good night and it was planned, i was supergood on thursday when i was disappointed i really wamted everything i shoulsnt have but ended up just having pasta beans and cheese (partly because we didnt have much in that was really naughty and partly because my boyfriend for once stuck by what id want him to do and refused to get takeaway as id regret it after)
sorry about all the spellinv mistakes, on my phone typing quickly