Hi Annette, welcome back & hope you had a good break.
Don't worry, you're not alone in the way you're feeling as it happens to all of us after a spell away from SW & MM :sigh:
The only advice I can give you is to go back to basics & start as if you are a beginner to SW.....a must is a daily food diary (I still do one on my tablet!)
Go shopping & stock up on lots of healthy food & write a meal plan for the week......hopefully this will get your enthusiasm back for healthy eating again.
I found after Xmas when I wasn't following SW, I had to go cold turkey on the chocolate front & didn't have any all of January.....Im back on it now tho lol!
Try & drink 2 litres of clear fluid to flush yourself out.
Weigh yourself on Monday & just go for it. Come on here as much as you can, cos I find it really helps & there is normally somebody about