Well...after being up all night with my sick son, who has thrown up over everything apart from himself!!?? Anyway, after being up all night, and eating 3 medium chocolate eggs, 4 slices of white bread toast with margarine and a whole bag of microwave popcorn (jeez), I have decided that instead of being annoyed with myself, and thinking about a gain or a sts, I am going to forget about it.
I am actually within my target of 9 stone, at 8 stone 11. I can go up to 9 stone 3, or drop down to 8 stone 11. I feel confident in my clothes, and happy with how far I have come since joining SW. I will be wearing a bikini on holiday, and I won't feel silly wearing it. I am not walking around with a sign on my head stating my weight! I am not going to stress about a little gain, as long as I stay within my range.
I eat really well for the most part, but every now and again the old me raises its greedy head, and I'm on a mission to eat everything I can find. I know this is a problem I will probably always have, so I guess I just need to accept it, as long as it is every now and again and not every week!
Yesterday, I was going to go on a soup diet to loose more weight for my holiday, for so many weeks I've been obsessed with getting a lower and lower weight. WHY!? My husband keeps telling me how good I look, and I need to believe him! I need to stop and settle with the weight I am now.
When I joined slimming world 18 months ago, I had just had a baby three weeks earlier (the same baby whose been throwing up all night). I was 12 stone, and I was crying in shop dressing rooms because nothing fitted. Back then, my aim was to get to 9 stone, I thought it was impossible, but it was my dream weight. Anyway, my original target was 10 stone 4, and I got there around my birthday last march (2011). I've changed my target a couple of times since then, my consultant used her discretion
to lower it by different amounts (9stone11, then 9 stone 5 and then 9 stone).
I finally got to that dream weight a couple of weeks ago, but I was still obsessed with loosing! I wasn't happy and wanted to see if I could get to 8 and a half stone. But then what...if I got there, would I want to be 8 stone?? Where would it stop?
I still want to continue sticking to the plan because it's a fantastic way to eat healthy, filling foods, that I can cook using proper ingredients, rather than packets and microwaves, but I don't want to always think about avoiding food in order to continue loosing.
So my target it 9 stone, and so long as I am between 9 stone 3 and 8 stone 11, I will be happy and comfortable and exactly where I want to be.
Blimey, glad to get that off my chest, even if it is only me talking to myself! Massive thanks to anyone who did take the time to read this! xx