Cheekylau, maintaining is a challenge. I have struggled for a few weeks to keep within my range . I knew I was gong off Plan, too many beers, too many meals out, too many chocolates......birthday celebrations, anniversary celebrations, work liaison, socials..... I posted my concerns in my diary, fessed up to my gain, said I wasn't going to bother weighing and a good minimin buddy advised me to get a grip, weigh in( I do it at home) and get back on plan and keep the faith. His is the exact advice I gave others when they were struggling, I just couldn't see it for myself. Got back on plan and within a week I had got rid if over 5lb, back with 3 lb of target and this week another pound off. It was all down to being mindful of what I was dong and asking myself what I wanted to achieve, what was more important to me now? Sure, I ended te Chinese buffet, the beers etc. but I have since me some choic at I are masking me feel tops and quite proud of myself. Had anther worl liaison last week, I chose gin and slim line, no beer. Then has a couple of red days more than usual, but did have a doughnut in he week( my choice) did have mini Jamaican patties, still lost a pound over the week. Had to go to McDonalds with. Rugby coed today, I chose chicken salad, it was tough bu I really did enjoy it, of corse I nicked a coupl of chips!
You can turn it round quite quickly if you decide to lose it, you said you preferred losing so i reckon you will kick it. Then when you are back at target range be mindful of what you are eating, you make the choices through your decisions and choices. You are not alone in going off the rails and gaining, that's why we are all here on sw! It's the way we are, dont bash yourself up.
Hope it's of some help. Im sure you will be supported on here and especially at your club. All the best.