Barb's slow but steady improvement diary!

[Barb]

I like you Abz - lots and lots. I know Thomas does too and lots of lovely miniminers too! I'll pop over to your diary and see whats going on.

 

[clarri]

My goodness Barb,
That is all a bit much. Its in the air though, testing us, pushing us to our limits!!! hugs to you. xx

 

[Barb]

Thanks Clarri, need those hugs. Had a cry and a moan and feel a bit better now. Hoping for a better day tomorrow.

 

[Mini]

Sending you big (((HUGS))) Barb and hoping that tomorrow will be a good day for you.:grouphugg:

Good luck with your weigh in on Monday!

Love Mini xxx

 

[Barb]

Well, did a stupid thing this am, got on scales. Thought I have been incredibly good, very much against the odds, even resisting wine last night and guess what? Gained 2lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG, I don't know what to make of it; I know it's not possible as I've been well under 1500 cals every day this week. It's upset me though.

Think it could be TOTM; I had a hysterectomy when I was 30 so I don't have an obvious 'cycle, but I was feeling very hormonal yesterday and i look sort of 'puffy' today, so I guess it's fluid retention. It's not real weight, it can't be.
Now feel even more fed up than I did; which is surprising really as I didn't think it possible. Oh well, onwards and (hopefully)downwards!

 

[abz]

oh barb. i'm so sorry about that. get glugging the water. try and drink around 2 litres a day and then other drinks on top of that if you aren't already. and i'm sure it will drop off again. like you say, it isn't fat, and after all it's fat we're wanting to get rid of. there's a post on here somewhere about what quantifies success. is it the number on the scales, or the knowledge that you have stuck to plan, resisted temptation, done fabulously well and achieved so much. you have definately done the latter and i think that is an incredible success. so sod the number on the scales. you are succeeding in ways you never have before!! keep it up honey. tomorrow it will probably be gone again!!

abz xx

 

[Barb]

Oh dear Abz - I have just eaten 7, yes 7, shortbread biscuits. I am a complete idiot. Had not had time to eat much all day, came over completely starving and just went for it. I don't even feel that sorry, I just feel' oh well, what's done is done, can someone open a bottle of wine please?'.

Hopeless; having said that I know it's a blip and I will get over it but not holding out any hope for Mondays weigh in now.

 

[abz]

draw a line under it and keep going barb. at the end of the day it's just seven biscuits. as a one off event the calories won't even be that disasterous!! just boogie around the kitchen while making dinner

abz xx

 

[Barb]

You are right Abz and my DH said the same. In fact, i was shocked at how much better I felt for eating so I wonder if I have been under doing the food a little too much. We had a chinese last night and some wine with friends and it was lovely to have a bit of normality.

Got on scales this morning prepared for the worst and the 2lbs have mysteriously dropped off again. I think I could be heading for my first STS, which I promise not to be upset about. We'll see.

Going to have a good day today. Eating sensibly but NOT starving myself.

 

[F.A.R]

Dont be upset if you do stay the same, at least it wont be a put on.

 

[abz]

well done for taking stock honey stick at it and you really will succeed. after all, it's all about the journey and the destination, not necessarily the route we take... if that makes sense?

if you do get a sts well it's only one week. there's another week after this one for you to continue losing

abz xx

 

[Barb]

Thanks Abz, it is about being realistic and sensible. No room for panic on this plan.

Well just half a pound off this week. Better than STS, very much better than a gain! Quite pleased really as I thought it could have been worse.

Came down with a cold yesterday, so not feeling great, sore throat etc.. so it's going to be a stay indoors and drink tea sort of day i think!

 

[abz]

sounds like a good kind of day honey!! you've done well to lose!! whenever we lose it's worth congratulation, and whenever we don't, beating ourselves up just makes things worse. we'll get there barb.

the fear factor is starting to keep me on track. i would like to lose 2.5 stone at least before my wedding, well, before my final dress fitting really, and that's in four months!! aargh. if i was doing cambridge that wouldn't really be much of a problem. but without it i need to get going. going swimming 1-2 times a week is really helping i think. and hopefully i will be able to get some cambridging in somewhere as our finances sort themselves out. we'll see...

abz xx

 

[clarri]

Great going on the .5lb. Hope you dont get too ill. These colds are really knocking people.
xxx

 

[Barb]

Wise words Abz, I agree, beating myself up would be wastd energy and half a pound off is still the right direction, so i'm chuffed!
2.5stone in 4 months is do-able but you will need to be super organised. Perhaps you should visit one of those BMR calculator thingys and work out a definate plan. I did it the other day and it gave me the cals I'd need to lose 1/1.5 or2lbs a week. Very interesting. The swimming will make a big differece to you too - toing and burning cals, it doesn't get any better than that. Very good for your poorly back too - my back used to love it when I swam every day.
Have a good day,

Love

 

[Barb]

Thanks Clarri, i'm quite pleased really. I'm going to 'cosset' myself today and stay in the warm in the hope of getting over it quickly. can't go near my parenst whilst I'm germy which is the biggest problem. Thank goodness for the phone!

 

[Barb]

Feel very peculiar today. High temp during the night and feel alll sort of wobbly and unsteady on my feet. Don't know how many cals I had, didn;t count as didn;t feel like eating much. Had biscuits with tea but only rich tea fingers so nothing too naughty. Back really hurts, feel like I've been trampled. Which i definately haven't.

Looks like another quiet day for Barb.

 

[clarri]

Oh poor you. Take it easy today, and rest. You body is telling you to be kind to yourself. Wrap up in cotton wool!
Hugs.
xx

 

[Barb]

Feeling much better this evening. Tired but more 'normal'. Have not been good today, haven't stuffed myself but have not been counting cals and so need to get back to it tomorrow.

We have a night out Thursday and saturday this week, so I need a few very restrained days between now and next Monday. Help, it does not look easy! Would really love to see 1.5 off next Monday as I feel like I have kind of 'lost a weeks progress' already.

Please nag me girls, I need it!

 

[abz]

naggity naggity nag!!

you can do it barb!! you can. stay strong!! you've done so well so far. would be awful if you undid it now!!

abz xx