Barb's slow but steady improvement diary!
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CuddlePaws
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It's been a while since I've been able to catch up Barb, but I've just gone over the posts I've missed here, and I'm really impressed with the way you have been handling everything. I particularly admire the way you allow yourself to be 'human' and eat a little more to feel better and you say that it does work. I think that is much better than undereating all the time and feeling horribly deprived and nothing feels 'normal' as you say. Remember you are still getting there, how you get there is very personal to each of us.
Remember that you are such an inspiration to so many of us here. Even myself, I face some hard days and I think, hmm what would Barb do in this situation?
So I just wanted to congratulate you also, because I think without your diary I wouldn't be doing so well in mine!
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Remember that you are such an inspiration to so many of us here. Even myself, I face some hard days and I think, hmm what would Barb do in this situation?
So I just wanted to congratulate you also, because I think without your diary I wouldn't be doing so well in mine! xx
Barb
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Wow CP, thank you so much for that. If I have helped you whilst trying to help myself then that makes me really happy.
That is the joy of this forum, it truly is a support system of friends helping each other out. Love it!
Feeling much better today, work stresses continue to mount but I must try not to worry about that too much.
I need a really good day today and Sunday; saturday we are out to a friends for dinner and I know that will not be a low cal affair! However, I am going to eat very low cal all day on saturday, plus fri/sun of being seriously good and I could yet pull off a 1lb loss this week. I really want to, I am rapidly sinking into 'dithering' land and I don't want to do that.
I'm going to re-read my diary today and get my head firmly back in the zone.
That is the joy of this forum, it truly is a support system of friends helping each other out. Love it!
Feeling much better today, work stresses continue to mount but I must try not to worry about that too much.
I need a really good day today and Sunday; saturday we are out to a friends for dinner and I know that will not be a low cal affair! However, I am going to eat very low cal all day on saturday, plus fri/sun of being seriously good and I could yet pull off a 1lb loss this week. I really want to, I am rapidly sinking into 'dithering' land and I don't want to do that.
I'm going to re-read my diary today and get my head firmly back in the zone.
Barb
Gold Member
Decided to read my diary over and this was one of the first things that really struck me, so I thought I'd repeat it.
1. Since off the vino and on the diet, no indigestion!
2. My back is aching a lot - if i'm lighter I'm convinced it will be better.
3. Our cruise in May to the Baltics. I'm going to Russia - how exciting is that? I want to be much slimmer by then. There will be a lot of walking involved, I need to feel strong enough.
4. My heart - this has got to be a strain on my heart being this big. I've never acknowledged that before. I need to now.
5. My joints - my hips, but more so my knees, are really troubling me lately. If I stay this weight what will they be like in 5 years time?
6. Clothes - we are in a good place financially and I could buy a whole new wardrobe full of nice clothes if I wanted to. At size 24 I don't, at 16-18 - you won't be able to stop me.
7. I have a seriously overweight son. Actually a morbidly obese son. Time I admitted that too. Perhaps if he sees his Mum slim down he will think he can too. I hope so.
Now, 5 weeks into this plan and the benefits show already. I have just over a stone off and I feel better already. My joints are still painful but I feel lighter and better. I have 'put down' 3 bags of potatoes that i had been carrying every minute of every day. I can't wait to put the next one down, hopefully in the next 2 weeks.
1. Since off the vino and on the diet, no indigestion!
2. My back is aching a lot - if i'm lighter I'm convinced it will be better.
3. Our cruise in May to the Baltics. I'm going to Russia - how exciting is that? I want to be much slimmer by then. There will be a lot of walking involved, I need to feel strong enough.
4. My heart - this has got to be a strain on my heart being this big. I've never acknowledged that before. I need to now.
5. My joints - my hips, but more so my knees, are really troubling me lately. If I stay this weight what will they be like in 5 years time?
6. Clothes - we are in a good place financially and I could buy a whole new wardrobe full of nice clothes if I wanted to. At size 24 I don't, at 16-18 - you won't be able to stop me.
7. I have a seriously overweight son. Actually a morbidly obese son. Time I admitted that too. Perhaps if he sees his Mum slim down he will think he can too. I hope so.
Now, 5 weeks into this plan and the benefits show already. I have just over a stone off and I feel better already. My joints are still painful but I feel lighter and better. I have 'put down' 3 bags of potatoes that i had been carrying every minute of every day. I can't wait to put the next one down, hopefully in the next 2 weeks.
abz
Gold Member
go for it barb!! sounds like your head is in the right place again. sometimes it's good to take stock and see where we are and where we need to be you can do it. and like you said. if you can, so can your son!! i know that being around other overweight people helps me justify the size that i am. when i'm surrounded by people of a healthy weight it really makes me realise that it isn't ok for me to be this unhealthy. maybe the same thing will apply to him?
abz xx
you can do it. and like you said. if you can, so can your son!! i know that being around other overweight people helps me justify the size that i am. when i'm surrounded by people of a healthy weight it really makes me realise that it isn't ok for me to be this unhealthy. maybe the same thing will apply to him?abz xx
Barb
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I hope so Abz - it does worry me. He is 28 yrs old and is married with a 3yr old daughter and a new baby due in September. He is not tall, prob about 5ft7, but is knocking 20 stone I reckon. I don't know, he doesn't say. He plays the 'big' rather than 'fat' card and I think that is how he justifies it to himself. Thing is though, he is very young to be so big and I can only see him getting bigger. He is such a lovely boy(ok man, but he is still my little boy)I hate to see him so unhealthy. His wife is sweet but she also has a weight problem. He has put on a good 6-7 stone since leaving home to live with her 10 years ago.
So, yes, I figure if I lose weight at 50, he can look at me and think 'crikey, Mum looks a lot fitter, if she can I can'. Thats the hope anyway.
I think my head is back where it belongs; it's been weird this week, like because i've not been well all the rules cease to apply. Before I know it the lack of rules was becoming the new 'habit' - nipped in the bud I'm pleased to say.
I don't know why i suddenly gave myself permission to stop counting cals/write everything down/eat whatever i fancied. I just did. I've stopped, i am not going to get what i want by drifting off plan.
So, back to all the rules that were working so well. Looking forward to Mondays weigh in - it IS going to be worth writing down!
So, yes, I figure if I lose weight at 50, he can look at me and think 'crikey, Mum looks a lot fitter, if she can I can'. Thats the hope anyway.
I think my head is back where it belongs; it's been weird this week, like because i've not been well all the rules cease to apply. Before I know it the lack of rules was becoming the new 'habit' - nipped in the bud I'm pleased to say.
I don't know why i suddenly gave myself permission to stop counting cals/write everything down/eat whatever i fancied. I just did. I've stopped, i am not going to get what i want by drifting off plan.
So, back to all the rules that were working so well. Looking forward to Mondays weigh in - it IS going to be worth writing down!
Barb
Gold Member
Finished yesterday on 1158cals but was hungry and grumpy. 200 cals was wine which I think was a huge mistake, it meant I woke in the night hungry and have woken up grumpy this morning. Feeling resentful again, don;t know what the matter with me is. I don't feel 100%, still tired and achy, so maybe thats it.
Anyway, I will do my best today, although we are out for dinner tonight which makes it tricky. Tomorrow will need to be a very good day if the weigh in is to be worth doing!
Anyway, I will do my best today, although we are out for dinner tonight which makes it tricky. Tomorrow will need to be a very good day if the weigh in is to be worth doing!
abz
Gold Member
well there's no reason you can't enjoy yourself tonight barb, but you can make sensible choices where you can, healthier potato choices, salad choices along with the main dish. drinking a little more sparkling water and a little less wine. it all adds up in the end. i'm not even going to suggest that you scrimp on dessert because i never manage to do that
abz xx
abz xx
Barb
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Ok, wise words Abz and in some ways I did follow them but not for the right reasons.
We were at a friends for dinner - we've known them for 30 years plus, so imagine my surprise when the starter she served was drizzled in walnut oil and walnuts - I am allergic to walnuts! So, no starter for Barb, never mind I thought, I can just have a bread roll. The bread was wholemeal, I'm allergic to wholemeal. Ho hum. By now I am working my way through a bottle of Cava and haven't eaten since lunchtime! Main course arrives, salmon en croute - yummy I think. No, not really as it is severely undercooked and virtually inedible. So, ate a couple of new potatoes and thought knickers, I'm definately having dessert. How wrong i was, my friend managed to drop the chocolate dessert on her garage floor and so there was just a bit of fruit for pud! By this time I have finished the Cava and have started on some Rose. Oh dear.
Next thing i know Abba's on the stereo, I discover I've got a fantastic singing voice and proceed to dance around their lounge for the next 2 hours.
Ate a chocolate chip cookie when I got in, which sadly i can't remember, but i expect i enjoyed it.
Have woken up with a gargantuan hangover, which I deserve but at least i didn't overeat. Chance would have been a fine thing!
We were at a friends for dinner - we've known them for 30 years plus, so imagine my surprise when the starter she served was drizzled in walnut oil and walnuts - I am allergic to walnuts! So, no starter for Barb, never mind I thought, I can just have a bread roll. The bread was wholemeal, I'm allergic to wholemeal. Ho hum. By now I am working my way through a bottle of Cava and haven't eaten since lunchtime! Main course arrives, salmon en croute - yummy I think. No, not really as it is severely undercooked and virtually inedible. So, ate a couple of new potatoes and thought knickers, I'm definately having dessert. How wrong i was, my friend managed to drop the chocolate dessert on her garage floor and so there was just a bit of fruit for pud! By this time I have finished the Cava and have started on some Rose. Oh dear.
Next thing i know Abba's on the stereo, I discover I've got a fantastic singing voice and proceed to dance around their lounge for the next 2 hours.
Ate a chocolate chip cookie when I got in, which sadly i can't remember, but i expect i enjoyed it.
Have woken up with a gargantuan hangover, which I deserve but at least i didn't overeat. Chance would have been a fine thing!
