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Oh man. My mom was rushed to hospital couple jours ago n now they found out she got a blood clot in the lungs. Last time she had one as almost died there. :(
 
Running up n down like a lunatic. Having first meal now. Had to stop because felt faint. N there is further drama going on with other members of my family.
 
Not really. I crashed yesterday. Made some spaghetti carbonara for the family and ended up having a portion :( don't think I'll do it again. I had really crippling pains in my stomach :(

In times of crisis food has always been my comfort. At the moment I feel like having cereal, toast n whatever else in the house.
 
Not really. I crashed yesterday. Made some spaghetti carbonara for the family and ended up having a portion :( don't think I'll do it again. I had really crippling pains in my stomach :(

In times of crisis food has always been my comfort. At the moment I feel like having cereal, toast n whatever else in the house.

Bless ya do what you can dont beat yourself up hunny its a stressfull time. Thoughts are with you today its so draining being strong in times like this x
 
Not really. I crashed yesterday. Made some spaghetti carbonara for the family and ended up having a portion :( don't think I'll do it again. I had really crippling pains in my stomach :(

In times of crisis food has always been my comfort. At the moment I feel like having cereal, toast n whatever else in the house.

Don't worry hen ur only human. Thinking of you! X
 
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Thanks guys. Xx


I'm bak to being in charge of the family. My dad ain't well at all. I got the mammoth task of cooking all the food in the house and refreezing it as well but of course because I'm the eldest no one else thinks to help me.

I'm just asking God to give me strength.
 
Sorry to hear ur under so much pressure hen. Hopefully things get better soon and you can be under less pressure. Don't be afraid to ask for help you can't do everything alone x
 
I ask for the help Hun but family member ain't thst helpful. It's complicated man.

Had an awful few days. N at the hospital I saw a lady walk out with the physique that I want to end up with. That was the kick in the bum I needed! Think I'm gonna go up some steps so I can have the extra energy to see this moment thru.
 
I ask for the help Hun but family member ain't thst helpful. It's complicated man.

Had an awful few days. N at the hospital I saw a lady walk out with the physique that I want to end up with. That was the kick in the bum I needed! Think I'm gonna go up some steps so I can have the extra energy to see this moment thru.

That's a great and positive decision henny I know you can succeed because you are adjusting the plan to your situation and not going off. Well done I'm proud of you x
 
Still no change with mom. She has been moved to another ward n that's it really. I'm under so much pressure. I love my family but they just do not pull together. They expect everything to be done for them by me n they do nothing. It is still wearing me down but in trying to keep a brave face for my mom n dad. My dad is unwell as well n ATM has to stop very frequently to catch his breath or because of the pain he feels in his body.

The fight I'm having within my body now is whether to cave into the pressure ov eating unhealthily. I have tried to rearrange food plans to suit this diet but I'm gonna end up spending so much on food. Money that I don't really have. At the same time I don't wanna bring up money to my parents.

Anyways I'm up early because I decided to cook a few meals and refreeze them so at least my dad will be able to eat something later on. The rest of them can b so so lazy at times. Someone else said to do a family meeting but I just don't have the strength.
 
I can't take my family. Come down this morning after I clearly stated this stuff is for my diet n don't touch it and guess what!!!! It's missing! Food And my water has been drunk overnight. No one has admitted to it at all. I just can't take this. I've come back down to help and support my parents and the family but no one, no one at all is pulling together. It's really wearing me down.
 
I can't take my family. Come down this morning after I clearly stated this stuff is for my diet n don't touch it and guess what!!!! It's missing! Food And my water has been drunk overnight. No one has admitted to it at all. I just can't take this. I've come back down to help and support my parents and the family but no one, no one at all is pulling together. It's really wearing me down.

Hen I know you say u don't have the strength for a meeting but you can go on like that either. Ul n drained otherwise and then ul be no good to anyone. You need to at least try ur doing everything u need help. X
 
Already at breaking point. N to top it off Ste thinks now, a time when my mother is in hospital is the perfect time to tell me he is jacking in Uni. I mean. What an idiot. Why r u giving me extra pressure and stress when I told u I felt run down and at breaking point.
 
Already at breaking point. N to top it off Ste thinks now, a time when my mother is in hospital is the perfect time to tell me he is jacking in Uni. I mean. What an idiot. Why r u giving me extra pressure and stress when I told u I felt run down and at breaking point.

What's he doing that for?
 
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