Morning
Down 2 more - 244lbs - so thats 7lbs since thursday. Meh. I'll take it.
Z woke up at 6:30 this morning
So I got up and ran to the loo but as I was on my way back to bed via the living room, she toddled out in to greet me. *sob* I asked if we could PLEASE go back to bed. She ignored my request and asked for a jaffa cake. lol. So ...NOPE.
Hubby and I got into yet another argument - and I told him that Im done and if I could move out, I would. I really wish we could separate. i really really do. Love him but...Ive had enough. Im exhausted, you guys. Im bored. Im overwhelmed and underwhelmed at the same time. Im tired of being accused of having a go at him constantly. Everything i say is wrong. Everything i do is wrong. So yeah. Done.
Last night we were talking about eating healthier after reading an article in the guardian which talked about ALL the many secrets and rubbish that is in our food now...even down to fruit and veg being dipped in chemicals to help lengthen their shelf life. So we were talking about it all. And he was saying he would like to try to avoid stuff like that as much as possible and we were looking at farm veg box delivery etc...and then he started suggesting things that he might want to eat (trying to cut out meat). I have tried to get him to reduce his meat intake and to eat healthier FOR TEN YEARS. I have suggested so many meals and he has such a limited group of foods that he actually likes (mostly all heavily processed sh!te)...that he shot down EVERYTHING. But then last night...its like he had this revelation and came out with a list of stuff that i have suggested over the years and was told NO...but because HE has "thought" of them....then its a good idea to try them. Seriously?! Anyway...whatever.
So ....yes. if I could move into my own place for a while or go stay somewhere for a while...i think a separation would be good for us right now. No idea what the future holds. But at this rate...its not looking good at all. *shrug* I cant really go anywhere though...so .....meh.
We were going to go geocaching today but of course, its cloudy right now. Im going to see what its like in an hour or so....i might just take the girls and GO ANYWAY. Im freezing already though. lol.
Really pleased with my loss so far. Im hoping to get another 1lb this week (WI thursday) to get me back to the lowest i had gotten to a few weeks ago. Then carry on downward from there.
Have a nice Sunday all!