Hey all.
i think there is something going around girls, my belly is all naff naff aswell today! We must all have sympathy belly for each other or something! lol.
Just got off the phone with my best mate, she only just found out what happened, and was pretty shocked, so she rang me just to make sure it was true and if i was ok. She asked if i wanted her to come to the funeral with me, i reaaallly did, but i couldn't say yes for some reason, but thankfully she knows me far to well, knew what my stuttering and stammering ment and asked me for my address lol.
Shes gonna come up on the monday night, as she will be driving half way across the country for it, she lives in Buckingham, so really really greatful she is commin, not just because i need someone outside the family here with me, but also because she will make me go, everytime i think about going, i get all short of breath and panicy about it. But she is very straight talking and will whip me into shape if anything happens. lol.
Got everything sorted today tho, we went and spent a few hours in town (Even at times like this, my sister still has a shopping problem! But she did buy me a mag to read lol) We got her some nice clothes, but spent an hour aruging over what flowers to pick. First it was about getting the typical huge MUM flower thing, then we figured out we where arguing about the fact neither of us wanted the flowers like that, so felt alittle stupid about that one! lol.
We settled on a really pretty circle thing, it was pink and white roses, with pink lillies in it. We saw it and it was the only thing we instantly agreed on lol. My dad just got her 12 white lilies as they where her fav, so we stayed away from a huge white lilly one (even tho it was possibly the pretties set of flowers i have ever seen) But we are happy with what we got.
While we where gone, a couple of dads mates from work turned up and sat with him for awhile, which i am really glad about, as its just been family, half of which he doesnt like.
He let 2 things slip when we was talking to the Vicar dude (He was actually really cool, i usualy dislike religious folks rightaway) 1st was just how angry he is with my mum for doing this, but the vicar said it was pretty normal in this situation, and then he said he was really worried about me going back to uni in 2 months. Apparently he knows i won't let anyone close to me, until i am alone, then apparnetly it will hit me, hard and he wont be close. That really touched me and i just smiled at him, because he is right. I can't even cry anymore, i get bored when people come around and talk about her, also noticed today something i haven't felt in a loooooong time. My short temper is back. Normally i take about a week to get wound up and snap, let alone come close to violence, but in town today, i just had the urge to yell and push some old people outta my way because they where REALLY starting to bug me.
Going to have to work on that i think, really don't like my temper at all!
Anyway! Hows everyone else doing? Any gossip for me girls?