That's right, I'm still making it through this diet!
I miss my DH so much that this is getting tedious. I just want a hug. I talk to him every night on Skype but it's not the same!
I'm feeling really down and fed up. I just want to quit. I don't really know what to do.
I definitely will continue this 100% until my first weigh in.
I really want to eat some food. It's not even that I want junk food! I've been craving apples and salads.
I'm confused because I don't know if it's just because my DH isn't here. I'm not getting the support I would normally get.
I'm thinking in my head, what I could have as healthy alternatives to what I would usually get. I just really want to lose this weight, and I know that I won't let it pile on again.
Maybe I just need to set myself a goal to lose whilst on CD and then carry on with something better like healthy eating with calorie counting plus exercise.
I guess I could start having an idea now... I would probably like to lose 40lbs in total on CD and then move onto real food. There are a couple of great websites where you can work out how many calories to lose or maintain weight. I will use that as a guide.
I want to do some more exercise too. I'll be doing badminton once a week. I do it now but I try not to go to hard because I'm not supposed to exercise.
I'd also like to do squash. My DH enjoys squash and actually said that he'd like to lose some of his belly. Just need to find somewhere to book a court (and learn how to play it properly!)
Lastly, I would like to hit the gym! My gym is a 5 minute walk from work so I could go afterwards.
It feels so good to write down what I want to do when I reach this goal. It makes it sound more real. I'm still really determined to lose this weight!
I have also decided - If I am doing this, I'm doing it 100%! What's the point in cheating? It seems so simple now, I actually can believe it! Do I want to lose the weight - Yes. Do I want to be happy with my body - Yes. Do I want to walk around with my head held high - You're damn right!
So! That's the plan! Lose 40lbs in total on CD (or 8 weeks) then onto healthy eating with calorie counting!
Cat xx