I finally went to bed at 2.30am - my body clock is all over the place! (I blame my sister for instilling a nightclubbing timetable for the last 3 weeks.. lol...and I rang her and told her so! lmao)
I was shopping at Tescos at midnight - flipping wide awake! Bought myself an alarm clock to make sure I could get up for work this morning!
Sent S a chatty good morning text (as usual) and was pleasantly surprised to get one back saying he is going to call me later! That will be interesting!
Ho hum...
Am dead tired and this morning is dragging terribly - I don't want to do any work, lol, but have to!
I'm struggling like mad to SS (urge to eat is incredibly strong, even though I know I'm not actually hungry!) but if I can grit my teeth and get through today 100% then I will have cracked it. So far, so good, but then, it is only 11.20am!
Will leave work at 12 and go to the High Street and perhaps buy myself a new skirt as the skirts I have are all too big and I want to flash me brown legs off a bit. lol
Also - it will help keep me on track AND I need some more cheap sunglasses as I broke both my pairs!
Yawn
Boy is my holiday catching up with me - but you know what... I'm still feeling pretty chilled out.. lol.. and the house is tidy and the washing on the line and the dog happy... and things are ok apart from the fact that I am still single.. lol
I've decided not to rejoin any dating sites and to not 'look' to meet anyone now and to just do as I did before and fill my life up. Probably will get more involved in the church again as that is always a good thing and lifts me up.
Have been listening to Paul McKenna 'Instant Confidence' cd and reading his book and hoping that will help me too.
I'm not even sure I will feel the same way towards S when I see him next so perhaps it is irrelevant what he has to say to me after all... lmao... can't believe I am thinking this way, but it's true. I don't know how I shall feel.
Hopefully we shall arrange to meet and I can find out! lol
Going to make myself exhausted this afternoon/evening so that I will sleep at a decent hour... my body clock is still on Tobago time... lol...
You won't believe this! The Babysitter rang me last night!!!! He has tried calling me every day since I left the island, lol, and I 'missed' his calls... hee hee (truth is, I ignored them whilst in Dublin as they would have cost me heaps, and I ignored them in the UK coz I could't be asked to talk to him) ... lmao... last night though I had just parked up at Tesco's and didn't even check who was calling as had earpiece in.. lol..
He waffled on about nothing in particular... said he had promised to call and will call again.. lol.. dunno why though.. have an idea he might be coming to the UK sometime and will be seeing if he can ponce a few nights at my place as a cheaper alternative to hotels... well... tough.. lol I wouldn't be able to trust him! Blimey - can you imagine if he nicked MY car - or Zoe's!! or anything!!
Not only that, he doesn't know where I live (that was deliberate evasion on my part!) and I am sorely tempted to give him my ex's address if he asks...
but that would prob backfire as ex would send him here! lol Still, the thought made me chuckle...
Sis is in daily contact with the chap she met halfway through the hols... have a horrible feeling about this though.. told her to be careful and hopefully she will be!
Still - when all's said and done, she's a grown woman and makes her own decisions!
There's loads I have to waffle on about but not sure I want to sit and type for hours as it is then that I am sitting doing nowt that I get the nibble urges! lol So,... we shall see... am going to try and post some pics of my dive though.. boy was that the DB!!!
Tempting fate today by hanging washing out (that comment just for you Caz) LMAO...
Well, only another 30 mins to kill then I am free again... lol I have the heater on here and am wearing loads of clothes! lol
I jumped on my scales this morning (scale hopping alert!!!) and was pleased to see the holiday 'gain' has gone.. but still.. cannot get complacent... I WANT those size 14 jeans!!!! lol
Caught up with a very dear school friend last night and am hoping to arrange to meet up with him and catch up on everything sometime soon. His girlfriend refused to meet me, odd that, but I have a feeling he has a tale to tell! So... I shall look forward to that!
Mum's tests were all clear, she doesn't have Angina (thank you Lord!)... but the scare has pushed her to take some action in getting help to care overnight for my stepdad. I'm so glad.
Right - 27 minutes to go now... lol... better send a couple of emails.. that way it at least LOOKS like I've done SOMETHING today! Mind you - we did have a staff meeting from 9 - 10.30... lol
Hey ho... will catch up a bit later - only caught up with one diary thus far!!!
Off to Bournemouth at the weekend to see Pandora with Westiegirl - so looking forward to that!
Got the offer of Zoe's best mate to stay and look after the dog! Undecided, but do think it best if she does otherwise neighbour will pop in and leave lights and telly on all night to fool him into thinking it isn't night time but I'm not happy at the thought of him being alone all night... even though I know she would see to him at 10pm and again at 7am....
Hmm... difficult really. AM going to book him into kennels for August Bank Holiday as have several options of things to do then and know it will involve nights away.. (free!)... so.. must remember to make that call today!
23 mins to go now... lol... right.. am off! See you all later... please keep sending the positive SSing vibes! This is tough!
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