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FatFairNForty(ish)
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FatFairNForty(ish)
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Right... very late... need to update very quickly... mad weekend... where was I up to with WPML... oh yeah... his birthday.. Friday.. not supposed to see him, got call... would I pop over... so did... several hours later I got home having spent the evening with him. Gave him a few small birthday gifts and confirmed arrangements for Sat eve.
Sat... I passed my CBT!!! There was such a lot to say about this but the upshot is, I have booked my theory test and hope to have my full motobike licence by the end of March (before op in april see...)!
Sat eve, round to WPML for dinner.. he made a scrummy beef curry with rice and chapatis... we washed it down with a bottle of reisling and followed it off with some Ben & Jerry's cherry garcia (low fat) ice cream! No calorie counting! lol Was a lovely evening BUT realised that we do not want/expect the same things from our dates.. so... WPML is another of those 'you're lovely, you're this, you're that... blah de blah de blah... BUT'... kinda guys.. so... least said soonest mended I guess. Will be excellent friends though as he is superb company (and a damn fine chef! lol)...plus he has a bike too of course...
So.. this week... mad busy as ever... off to Sheffield for the evening tomorrow to a club meet! (very excited about that as I love the Sheffield mob)... work wise... heavy heavy week to face... don't care though.. what gets done gets done.. what doesn't doesn't... c'est la vie!
CDC... another cancellation via email but also a new lady starting tomorrow so as one goes another comes... nature of the beast at the moment so it seems... am not sure how much longer I can tolerate all the messing around to be honest... we shall see....
dating..well... back to the non-existent but that's ok as I have plenty to keep me busy! lol
Food wise... back on very strict cal counting as had too much yesterday and today too... and... TOTM arrived last night so that's good... sign that body is settling down still...happy with that...
Right... off to bed now... up again around 7 in the morning so a good solid 5 hours will be ace!
Catch up v soon... chest lots better but still not right...
Sat... I passed my CBT!!! There was such a lot to say about this but the upshot is, I have booked my theory test and hope to have my full motobike licence by the end of March (before op in april see...)!
Sat eve, round to WPML for dinner.. he made a scrummy beef curry with rice and chapatis... we washed it down with a bottle of reisling and followed it off with some Ben & Jerry's cherry garcia (low fat) ice cream! No calorie counting! lol Was a lovely evening BUT realised that we do not want/expect the same things from our dates.. so... WPML is another of those 'you're lovely, you're this, you're that... blah de blah de blah... BUT'... kinda guys.. so... least said soonest mended I guess. Will be excellent friends though as he is superb company (and a damn fine chef! lol)...plus he has a bike too of course...
So.. this week... mad busy as ever... off to Sheffield for the evening tomorrow to a club meet! (very excited about that as I love the Sheffield mob)... work wise... heavy heavy week to face... don't care though.. what gets done gets done.. what doesn't doesn't... c'est la vie!
CDC... another cancellation via email but also a new lady starting tomorrow so as one goes another comes... nature of the beast at the moment so it seems... am not sure how much longer I can tolerate all the messing around to be honest... we shall see....
dating..well... back to the non-existent but that's ok as I have plenty to keep me busy! lol
Food wise... back on very strict cal counting as had too much yesterday and today too... and... TOTM arrived last night so that's good... sign that body is settling down still...happy with that...
Right... off to bed now... up again around 7 in the morning so a good solid 5 hours will be ace!
Catch up v soon... chest lots better but still not right...
FatFairNForty(ish)
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Happy to say that no damage done with the weight and am still at 10st 10lbs today and very happy about that, clearly did some subconcious damage limitation without realising it. Quite liberating to know that I can do that but not complacent enough to think that I can do it all the time.
WPML and I had a chat the other day about things and I may have been wrong about what he was feeling... time will tell, and we sat after the club last night and talked for a while about things. I'm going out with him on Sunday afternoon (and possibly tomorrow evening but that depends on his work and one of his daughters..).
Today I have my first direct access lesson on a 500cc bike and I am very excited!!! It will be ace and the weather is perfect! I told my sis last night about doing this and made her promise not to tell my mother. lol. 44 and still keeping things from mum... still... all she would do is worry and I don't want her to do that.
Work - I need a new job. I am scouring the paper looking for a 9-5 job in one place. I really need just one job in one place with lots of people and regular hours. OR I need to win the lottery or come into a huge fortune! lol Alternatively I am, once again, seriously considering selling the house and just renting somewhere or getting a very small place for me and Zoe.. but with Sarah out of work and homeless after April... I need to retain somewhere big enough for the 3 of us...*sigh*
Still fighting this chest infection - it has come back with a vengeance. Not good... coughing up stuff thick enough to hang wallpaper! Yukkky! (Sorry - TMI I know!)
Right... better get on... need to do a heap of work and make sure I am ready for my first proper lesson! I have done shedloads of practice theory tests and so far have passed them all but there are definitely some rusty areas of my highway code knowledge! Shocking when you think I've been driving for the last 25 years!!! (I'll be glad to get the theory bit passed!) Theory test is booked for March 10th... 4.30pm Plenty of revision time!
Spoke to my mate from Wales t'other day - she's now lost a whopping 5 stone on Cambridge!! I am so proud of her!!! Can't wait to see her! She's going to come and stay for a long weekend after my op whilst I'm recouperating...
You'll never guess who I bumped into last night at the petrol station.... S !!!! Not sure if you remember him... OMG!! I had to do a double take to make sure it was him... it was!! We chatted... he suggested that I call him next week to arrange to meet up for a coffee... I had to ask him for his number again... he was shocked I'd deleted it! LMFAO So... I took it again... it was surreal... lol
He asked if I was dating anyone... I skirted the issue as really it's none of his business... lol It was weird with a capital W He has put on stacks and stacks of weight... it doesn't suit him at all! He said to me... "still skinny then" and I laughed and said yep!
Not sure whether I will call him or not. Will see how I feel at the end of next week... blimey.. is this me!????
I do like WPML and we did have a very clear talk about some things... hmm... we shall see...
Foodwise - love the weighwatchers crisps etc... dead low in cals... have discovered that if I am to have carbs I should have them no later than mid afternoon otherwise get really sluggish... am loving fruit... especially grapes and pink lady apples... and smoked haddock is my current fave fish... hoping that WPML might cook again soon... lol... he really is an exceptional chef!
Take care all... xx
WPML and I had a chat the other day about things and I may have been wrong about what he was feeling... time will tell, and we sat after the club last night and talked for a while about things. I'm going out with him on Sunday afternoon (and possibly tomorrow evening but that depends on his work and one of his daughters..).
Today I have my first direct access lesson on a 500cc bike and I am very excited!!! It will be ace and the weather is perfect! I told my sis last night about doing this and made her promise not to tell my mother. lol. 44 and still keeping things from mum... still... all she would do is worry and I don't want her to do that.
Work - I need a new job. I am scouring the paper looking for a 9-5 job in one place. I really need just one job in one place with lots of people and regular hours. OR I need to win the lottery or come into a huge fortune! lol Alternatively I am, once again, seriously considering selling the house and just renting somewhere or getting a very small place for me and Zoe.. but with Sarah out of work and homeless after April... I need to retain somewhere big enough for the 3 of us...*sigh*
Still fighting this chest infection - it has come back with a vengeance. Not good... coughing up stuff thick enough to hang wallpaper! Yukkky! (Sorry - TMI I know!)
Right... better get on... need to do a heap of work and make sure I am ready for my first proper lesson! I have done shedloads of practice theory tests and so far have passed them all but there are definitely some rusty areas of my highway code knowledge! Shocking when you think I've been driving for the last 25 years!!! (I'll be glad to get the theory bit passed!) Theory test is booked for March 10th... 4.30pm Plenty of revision time!
Spoke to my mate from Wales t'other day - she's now lost a whopping 5 stone on Cambridge!! I am so proud of her!!! Can't wait to see her! She's going to come and stay for a long weekend after my op whilst I'm recouperating...
You'll never guess who I bumped into last night at the petrol station.... S !!!! Not sure if you remember him... OMG!! I had to do a double take to make sure it was him... it was!! We chatted... he suggested that I call him next week to arrange to meet up for a coffee... I had to ask him for his number again... he was shocked I'd deleted it! LMFAO So... I took it again... it was surreal... lol
He asked if I was dating anyone... I skirted the issue as really it's none of his business... lol It was weird with a capital W He has put on stacks and stacks of weight... it doesn't suit him at all! He said to me... "still skinny then" and I laughed and said yep!
Not sure whether I will call him or not. Will see how I feel at the end of next week... blimey.. is this me!????
I do like WPML and we did have a very clear talk about some things... hmm... we shall see...
Foodwise - love the weighwatchers crisps etc... dead low in cals... have discovered that if I am to have carbs I should have them no later than mid afternoon otherwise get really sluggish... am loving fruit... especially grapes and pink lady apples... and smoked haddock is my current fave fish... hoping that WPML might cook again soon... lol... he really is an exceptional chef!
Take care all... xx
FatFairNForty(ish)
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terrible day today...up all night because elbow hurt do at 4am when fainted with pain, got Zoe to take me to hosp on advice of Dr. Got there 5.30am, treated for elbow - xray etc... I've got tennis elbow.. but then, they gave me codiene and unfortunately I had a severe reaction to it, ended up in recuss on oxygen and ecg etc.. very very scary... just got home snd going to bed... discharged from hosp at around 4pm with strict instructions to rest and have someone with me for next 24 hours and if feel pains or light headedness to go straight back...
not how I thought today would be,,,,
not how I thought today would be,,,,
westiegirl
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Please make sure that you take doctor's orders!
Take care of yourself coz I love ya loads xxx
Take care of yourself coz I love ya loads xxx
FatFairNForty(ish)
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Thank you....
Well, I got very low last night and although I had told Zoe to go out, I rang her to ask her to come home as I was worried about being home on my own... she had been drinking by the time I rang her so there was little point in her coming back.. so in the end I got one of my friends to take me over to WPML house and I stayed there the night. He took the mickey mercilessly but in a lovely way and made sure I was alright. As soon as my head hit the pillow I was out for the count.
This morning he brought me home just in time for PQM to call and ask if I still wanted to go to Northampton to one of the bike shops to look at helmets etc... well.. you know me... I couldn't refuse and went... it wasn't just with him, it was with his 2 children too.
It was a bit odd walking around together but only because I felt that people would assume we were a family. His daughter and I get on great and we oohed and ahhed at the lush leathers and then went looking at clothes.... I am shattered though... really really tired...
Lucy is picking me up in an hours time to go to a martyn joseph gig in Bedford so I'm going to have a sleep on the sofa for that hour... although I need to get changed...
It is sort of resting for me because I'm not doing washing, cleaning, cooking (OMG I had KFC for lunch and I feel lousy for it!! so NO more food for the rest of the day!!! I had a salsa twist thing and salad... I should have declined the offer but to be honest I am so tired and needed to have food so I did. I think that from the morning it will be back to 1200 cals a day to make sure I keep at 10st 10 right up to the 7th April...
Why the 7th April? Because, when I got home today I opened my post and there was a letter telling me that I am to have my op on Monday 7th April!!!!!
So.. elbow still incredibly painful, eyes feel like full of sand and grit as so tired, belly still having a few spasms from yesterday but almost nothing now... and I have an hour in which to snooze.
It will be a lovely evening though as we are taking it easy and his gigs are always great.
I'll take my camera and see if I can get Lucy to take a photo of me with him again... this will complete my gallery of pics with him I reckon...
Right... am off now... the sofa and my eyelids await!
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Well, I got very low last night and although I had told Zoe to go out, I rang her to ask her to come home as I was worried about being home on my own... she had been drinking by the time I rang her so there was little point in her coming back.. so in the end I got one of my friends to take me over to WPML house and I stayed there the night. He took the mickey mercilessly but in a lovely way and made sure I was alright. As soon as my head hit the pillow I was out for the count.
This morning he brought me home just in time for PQM to call and ask if I still wanted to go to Northampton to one of the bike shops to look at helmets etc... well.. you know me... I couldn't refuse and went... it wasn't just with him, it was with his 2 children too.
It was a bit odd walking around together but only because I felt that people would assume we were a family. His daughter and I get on great and we oohed and ahhed at the lush leathers and then went looking at clothes.... I am shattered though... really really tired...
Lucy is picking me up in an hours time to go to a martyn joseph gig in Bedford so I'm going to have a sleep on the sofa for that hour... although I need to get changed...
It is sort of resting for me because I'm not doing washing, cleaning, cooking (OMG I had KFC for lunch and I feel lousy for it!! so NO more food for the rest of the day!!! I had a salsa twist thing and salad... I should have declined the offer but to be honest I am so tired and needed to have food so I did. I think that from the morning it will be back to 1200 cals a day to make sure I keep at 10st 10 right up to the 7th April...
Why the 7th April? Because, when I got home today I opened my post and there was a letter telling me that I am to have my op on Monday 7th April!!!!!
So.. elbow still incredibly painful, eyes feel like full of sand and grit as so tired, belly still having a few spasms from yesterday but almost nothing now... and I have an hour in which to snooze.
It will be a lovely evening though as we are taking it easy and his gigs are always great.
I'll take my camera and see if I can get Lucy to take a photo of me with him again... this will complete my gallery of pics with him I reckon...
Right... am off now... the sofa and my eyelids await!
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Summerskye
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I hope you have a fantastic evening at the gig tonight, although I'm sorry to hear you're still not feeling too good :hug99:
It's wonderful news about getting the op date though - athough I guess that means you won't be making the Brum meet now after all .. or will you?
Lots of love, as ever!
It's wonderful news about getting the op date though - athough I guess that means you won't be making the Brum meet now after all .. or will you?
Lots of love, as ever!
FatFairNForty(ish)
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I hope you have a fantastic evening at the gig tonight, although I'm sorry to hear you're still not feeling too good :hug99:
It's wonderful news about getting the op date though - athough I guess that means you won't be making the Brum meet now after all .. or will you?
Lots of love, as ever!
Thanks Sharon... I had a lovely evening and yes, sadly the op date means that Brum is out of the question now as I will only be a fortnight post op so absolutely no chance.
I know, I know... and you're right.
The rest of the weekend was um, busy... Saturday night I went to the gig, but before it we went to a Chinese Rest.. first time in 18 months for me.. it was an all you can eat job too.. I only went up once for each course but boy did I suffer for it yesterday!
The gig was fantastic and Martyn Joseph was as fantastic as always.. at the end we went to chat with him and he said some lovely things and gave me a very big hug. (Although minding the arm - which I took out of my sling - can't have a sling in a photo with the lush Mr MJ!!) lol
I was dead on my feet though and as soon as I got home I was out for the count.
I had arranged with WPML for him to come and pick me up in the morning and I was to spend the morning at his place meeting his mates who had come to stay Saturday eve... and then the plan was to go out on his bike and have another picnic like t'other week... well, it kind of worked out that way. lol
I was very tired and my arm was (and is) pretty painful... so when he picked me up I did just sit around chatting to his mates. They were a couple of really nice chaps who had come up from Fleet. Very interesting, had good conversations with them.
Thankfully the electrician, who had come to work on the house, finished nice and promptly and by midday the friends were gone and we were heading out on the bike!! No picnic packed though as I had neither time, energy, nor ability to go and get food etc... so I simply had my normal breakfast at home first thing, then an apple and yogurt before heading out. I had a spicy tomato soup in my jacket pocket though.. and some options sachets too... very handy on a bike!
I forgot to say though, I was mortified on Sunday morning when I weighed myself... on Thursday morning I was 10st 10... on Sunday I was 11st 3 !!! WTF!!! I hope it was just because of all the carbs I had eaten as I never normally have hardly any.. plus I knew I had eaten too much of the wrong kind of food Friday and Saturday but was truly horrified. I vowed that Sunday would be back to normal.
So.. it was... kind of.. but still well below the 1900 calories I usually take in... I had the shredded wheat (252), apple (60) and yogurt (94).. then we stopped at Grafham Water - stunning!! ... had a rice krispie bar (118 )... and diet coke... next stop was Rutland Water... also stunning... but it was VERY cold and windy... not ideal biking weather but still fabulous! At Rutland I had 2 ginger biscuits (45 cals each!) and my spicy tom soup (137) and an options (34)... I warmed up (gosh my hands and feet never seem to be warm these days!).. and then we headed back to his place. Got there around 6pm and decided it would be a good idea to have some food.... so... we popped out to his local co-op and I got some chicken tikka pieces (210) and snack a jacks (115) and more muller light (97) . That made 1200 approx PLUS I had some salad (no dressing)... 2 spoons of mango chutney (100) and some balti mix (150)... and I was stuffed! lol BUT I washed it down with a glass of Reisling... it was yummy... so that adds another 200 roughly... making a total of about 1700 which isn't enough to reduce weight at all!!!
Anyway... we sat and ate (having got changed back out of the leathers etc... and he asked me to stay... so I did. I slept like a log. The alarm woke us at 6am and I didn't want to move... apart from anything else, it hurts to move!!
Anyway... got ready and had a sausage for breakfast... I reckon that's about 150 calories and when I got in I weighed out some grapes (ready for today) and had my 2 shredded wheat breakfast again... have run out of coke zero which is a sod as I can't drive so can't go shopping as it's not too far to walk there but walking back carrying heavy stuff is a no no... I only have one arm to carry with at the moment!!
I can feel a Tesco online shop coming on! Although I hate them as they tend to give you the fruit and veg that's on the turn so to speak...
Anyway.. am not at work, so working from home, as I can't fricking drive!
It's only the first working day like it and I'm already pacing the floor... can't begin to imagine what I'm going to be like after the op!!! Argh!!!
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FatFairNForty(ish)
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Nightmare... am hating not being able to drive and it was ok getting a lift to work and back today but typing with one hand is painfully slow and if I try with two then my arm hurts even more!
I'm taking things easy this afternoon and evening (at last!!) and have baked some flapjacks (no mean feat!) and the house smells divine because of them (they are cooling down on the wire tray at the moment).
With my weight scare I am happy to say that with strict calorie counting I have already dropped 2 lbs and hopefully tomorrow will be back down in the 10s. I am not happy about that gain at all but I was telling someone about it yesterday and they reassured me that it will be primarily fluids... I know they are probably right but I still am determined to not have another weekend like it!
I just read the pre-op letter from the hospital and it asks about dietary requirements so I'm going to tell them... no carbs or fat thank you very much! I may well just take in a mountain of fruit with me in the form of grapes and apples and some snackajacks... I want to keep up my 'grazing' habit... also will stipulate skimmed milk only (Lordy be, they are going to hate me!) and I'll take in my shredded wheat and sweetners... lol... I can see I will be taking a small bag for nighties etc... and a suitcase full of food and drink! (ie... Options, fruit, snackajacks, shredded wheat, sweetner, chewing gum, coke zero, ... ... perhaps the odd jar of pickles... and um... muller lights... ) Hmm... I will have to have a hard think about this! How on earth I'm going to survive without my choc mint muffin of an evening is anyone's guess!!!
I have a feeling that food won't be uppermost in my mind anyway... not for the first few days at least... still... it will be good to go in prepared! I will take pen and paper too so that I can keep a journal... shame that hospitals aren't safe (with respect to property) otherwise I'd be tempted to ask to borrow a laptop... lol I think perhaps I shall be doing some catching up on sleep!!
I must confess I am nervous... it is only 5 weeks away and I have loads to sort out at home and at work too plus I REALLY want to pass my bike test.. so... lots of challenges ahead. BUT I KNOW I have to ease up a bit, recharge my batteries... get healthy (I still have a rotten chesty cough/cold) and need sleep.
I did well last night.. was asleep before 11pm! unheard of!! I aim to do the same tonight.
Tomorrow is bike club night... we have some racing riders coming in to talk... that will be ace!! (hence the flapjacks!)... I'm going to get a lift though as I think it wise to rest my arm as much as I can.
Right.. I'm going to surf a bit, catch up with some CDC work, probably do a stock take as been lax on that score... plus... WPML is out of the country on business today and he might pop in on way home from airport so I will need to polish the living room... (his house is a home but not quite as messy as mine!!).. lol
I am so sad to be missing the Brum meet... but hopefully I will get chance to get along to another one when recovered.. I'm going to have to ring my neice and tell her I can't drive to Sunderland this weekend for the christening of her children... no way my arm will tolerate up to 10 hours of driving in one day...and nor will my body at the moment! I can hear the fall out from my sis and mother as I type..... oh dear.... ah well.... it's not like I planned this!
Oh... and PQM is doing my head in!! He doesn't know about WPML and has invited me to Sunday lunch with him and his kids and our mutual friends from the pub!!! Ya think he may have realised I have a new beau?????? Hmmm... I wonder..... still.... I have a feeling that 'too late' may be the cry!
We'll see....
I'm taking things easy this afternoon and evening (at last!!) and have baked some flapjacks (no mean feat!) and the house smells divine because of them (they are cooling down on the wire tray at the moment).
With my weight scare I am happy to say that with strict calorie counting I have already dropped 2 lbs and hopefully tomorrow will be back down in the 10s. I am not happy about that gain at all but I was telling someone about it yesterday and they reassured me that it will be primarily fluids... I know they are probably right but I still am determined to not have another weekend like it!
I just read the pre-op letter from the hospital and it asks about dietary requirements so I'm going to tell them... no carbs or fat thank you very much! I may well just take in a mountain of fruit with me in the form of grapes and apples and some snackajacks... I want to keep up my 'grazing' habit... also will stipulate skimmed milk only (Lordy be, they are going to hate me!) and I'll take in my shredded wheat and sweetners... lol... I can see I will be taking a small bag for nighties etc... and a suitcase full of food and drink! (ie... Options, fruit, snackajacks, shredded wheat, sweetner, chewing gum, coke zero, ... ... perhaps the odd jar of pickles... and um... muller lights... ) Hmm... I will have to have a hard think about this! How on earth I'm going to survive without my choc mint muffin of an evening is anyone's guess!!!
I have a feeling that food won't be uppermost in my mind anyway... not for the first few days at least... still... it will be good to go in prepared! I will take pen and paper too so that I can keep a journal... shame that hospitals aren't safe (with respect to property) otherwise I'd be tempted to ask to borrow a laptop... lol I think perhaps I shall be doing some catching up on sleep!!
I must confess I am nervous... it is only 5 weeks away and I have loads to sort out at home and at work too plus I REALLY want to pass my bike test.. so... lots of challenges ahead. BUT I KNOW I have to ease up a bit, recharge my batteries... get healthy (I still have a rotten chesty cough/cold) and need sleep.
I did well last night.. was asleep before 11pm! unheard of!! I aim to do the same tonight.
Tomorrow is bike club night... we have some racing riders coming in to talk... that will be ace!! (hence the flapjacks!)... I'm going to get a lift though as I think it wise to rest my arm as much as I can.
Right.. I'm going to surf a bit, catch up with some CDC work, probably do a stock take as been lax on that score... plus... WPML is out of the country on business today and he might pop in on way home from airport so I will need to polish the living room... (his house is a home but not quite as messy as mine!!).. lol
I am so sad to be missing the Brum meet... but hopefully I will get chance to get along to another one when recovered.. I'm going to have to ring my neice and tell her I can't drive to Sunderland this weekend for the christening of her children... no way my arm will tolerate up to 10 hours of driving in one day...and nor will my body at the moment! I can hear the fall out from my sis and mother as I type..... oh dear.... ah well.... it's not like I planned this!
Oh... and PQM is doing my head in!! He doesn't know about WPML and has invited me to Sunday lunch with him and his kids and our mutual friends from the pub!!! Ya think he may have realised I have a new beau?????? Hmmm... I wonder..... still.... I have a feeling that 'too late' may be the cry!
We'll see....
