AngieBabie
Silver Member
I am so pleased for you! Well done on your weight loss. Thanks for being such an inspiration to me and so many others on this board. Love Angela x
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canireallydothis!!
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That hospital appointment was classic, you must have floated out, well done,and well done on the bras, I went from a 40 ff to a 34e and boy I was chuffed, and when she put me in a bra that fitted I could have cried with happiness!!
You dont half attract the men!! They fall over themselves over you!!
You dont half attract the men!! They fall over themselves over you!!
Karen1972
Gold Member
OMG fancy hearing from eric pmsl!!! And well done you for ending the conversation - bet he's gonna be pining for you after that PLUS he'll be dying to see you now you've lost even more weight!!!!
On 1000cals a day, Zoe will lose LOADS of weight!! How much does she wanna lose?? I really believe that VLCD's are only suited to people who need to lose loads. Maybe she should try slimfast if she fancies the whole meal replacement thing???
You're a great mum btw!
Luv,
On 1000cals a day, Zoe will lose LOADS of weight!! How much does she wanna lose?? I really believe that VLCD's are only suited to people who need to lose loads. Maybe she should try slimfast if she fancies the whole meal replacement thing???
You're a great mum btw!
Luv,
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Good morning!
thanks Pam, he did look quite shocked :giggle:
Hope you're not finding the diet too arduous
Hi Vicky, yep.. was floating for hours after, lol. Surprising the psychological impact a decent bra can have on a gal innit! Hmmm about the men comment - like flies to a bucket of sh*&e...or bees to a honey pot (for the more genteel) .. :crazy: don't want any of the men who are attracted to me any more. Seem to attract all the wrong ones! (well, almost all). Am thinking that I have a neon sign hovering 18 inches above my head (which is only visible to blokes) that says something along the lines of "Desperate and grateful - simply flatter and add water" I seem (historically - since flung back onto the shelf so unceremoniously 2 years ago) to attract those who simply "aren't in a position to/don't want/incapable of" ... actually having a full open and proper relationship with me, so, not going to bother with the buggers anymore. (well, until the next gorgeous, blue-eyed, smooth-talker comes along I expect!) Zoe said to me the other day.. "You're hopeless mum, blue eyes and flattery and you fall for it every time!!".. :giggle: 
She might have a point 
:thinking2: I've decided to NEVER internet date again - despite the fact that I've met a number of very lovely guys in the past.. I'm now of the mindset that if I'm going to be with someone then I'll be with them. So.. not rejoined any sites and won't either! :giveup: (remind me in 3 months that I said all this please )
lol I remember very well why too.. lol...) Zoe's getting into the calorie counting now.. so we'll see how it goes for a week. She is already moaning about salad.. LMAO.. bless her.. she says she wants to lose 50lbs by May- to be honest, the ONLY way she'll do that is to SS! She isn't that overweight (I didn't think) but she won't say what she weighs and I certainly won't push her about it! She's said that when we are the same size she's going to be borrowing my clothes as I've got better taste now (apparantly!) lol
Right, dog got me up early (hence on here now) so off to get dressed and then chuck everything in the car and face another chaotic day!
Taking Zoe to college first (must be mad to do this! I don't like driving her car but might have to again as my mileage is just ridiculous now!), then to work, heavy morning, staff lunch at 12 - so NOT in the mood to see the poison dwarf today so will make excuses and leave at 12.. bra shop.. THEN off to have some pics taken (thought a decent photo might be a nice idea for mum's birthday - the last one of me that she put up on her family photo wall was in 1996 on my wedding day.. so.. time for an update/replacement.) so taking lots of different tops and hair things as no idea what I want to wear etc. Only a waist up shot though as I don't 'do' full length ones (apart from the ones Ailsa takes). Then, later this afternoon/evening I HAVE to do an ad for the music festival as the deadline was last week and I forgot!
:help2: There aren't enough hours in a day!
Cheers Mindless :bliss:
thanks Pam, he did look quite shocked :giggle:aw,bless ya for saying that.
Hope you're not finding the diet too arduous That hospital appointment was classic, you must have floated out, well done,and well done on the bras, I went from a 40 ff to a 34e and boy I was chuffed, and when she put me in a bra that fitted I could have cried with happiness!! You dont half attract the men!! They fall over themselves over you!!
Hi Vicky, yep.. was floating for hours after, lol. Surprising the psychological impact a decent bra can have on a gal innit! Hmmm about the men comment - like flies to a bucket of sh*&e...or bees to a honey pot (for the more genteel) .. :crazy: don't want any of the men who are attracted to me any more. Seem to attract all the wrong ones! (well, almost all). Am thinking that I have a neon sign hovering 18 inches above my head (which is only visible to blokes) that says something along the lines of "Desperate and grateful - simply flatter and add water" I seem (historically - since flung back onto the shelf so unceremoniously 2 years ago) to attract those who simply "aren't in a position to/don't want/incapable of" ... actually having a full open and proper relationship with me, so, not going to bother with the buggers anymore. (well, until the next gorgeous, blue-eyed, smooth-talker comes along I expect!) Zoe said to me the other day.. "You're hopeless mum, blue eyes and flattery and you fall for it every time!!".. :giggle: She might have a point :thinking2: I've decided to NEVER internet date again - despite the fact that I've met a number of very lovely guys in the past.. I'm now of the mindset that if I'm going to be with someone then I'll be with them. So.. not rejoined any sites and won't either! :giveup: (remind me in 3 months that I said all this please ):giggle: I don't care if he does pine.. lol.. he can pine away! (Need to remember, twas I who knocked that one on the head
lol I remember very well why too.. lol...) Zoe's getting into the calorie counting now.. so we'll see how it goes for a week. She is already moaning about salad.. LMAO.. bless her.. she says she wants to lose 50lbs by May- to be honest, the ONLY way she'll do that is to SS! She isn't that overweight (I didn't think) but she won't say what she weighs and I certainly won't push her about it! She's said that when we are the same size she's going to be borrowing my clothes as I've got better taste now (apparantly!) lolRight, dog got me up early (hence on here now) so off to get dressed and then chuck everything in the car and face another chaotic day!
Taking Zoe to college first (must be mad to do this! I don't like driving her car but might have to again as my mileage is just ridiculous now!), then to work, heavy morning, staff lunch at 12 - so NOT in the mood to see the poison dwarf today so will make excuses and leave at 12.. bra shop.. THEN off to have some pics taken (thought a decent photo might be a nice idea for mum's birthday - the last one of me that she put up on her family photo wall was in 1996 on my wedding day.. so.. time for an update/replacement.) so taking lots of different tops and hair things as no idea what I want to wear etc. Only a waist up shot though as I don't 'do' full length ones (apart from the ones Ailsa takes). Then, later this afternoon/evening I HAVE to do an ad for the music festival as the deadline was last week and I forgot!
:help2: There aren't enough hours in a day!
took some of the pressure off him and stepped out of his life.:cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: I think this was one of the toughest and saddest things I have ever done in my entire life.:cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:
Oh Jennie, I have finally been able to get online at home and just caught up on your diary, have been worrying about what could have happened since your text last week. You have been so amazing about this, you are truly a fantastic selfless person.. think everyone can learn a lot from you. I admire what you have done, even though it has been heartbreaking for you, and its good to hear you are still friends and with Mr K and care about him so much. I won't dwell on it anymore on here, it must be hard enough for you as it is. That offer of a drink still stands, let me know if you fancy it...if for nothing else than to kick my ass for being a cheating weak non SS'er for the last 5 weeks!!!!!!!!
(((((Jennie)))))
Kxx
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Thanks, not going to talk about Mr K any more in my diary except to say I do miss him, and we are not in contact any more. Probably best for both of us at the moment but hopefully will be able to resume communications soon as friends. I'm not sure though. The ball is firmly in his court on that one now.
Anyway.. would love to meet up for a drink sometime. This week is manic but next week is looking better. lol We'll sort something out. Glad you are back online now though - missed ya! xx
Anyway.. would love to meet up for a drink sometime. This week is manic but next week is looking better. lol We'll sort something out. Glad you are back online now though - missed ya! xx
pandora
finding my way again !
morning hun, how's you doing, been a quiet recently, hope that doesn't mean you're still low !
how all the job hunting going ?
you know, i think the time will come when the right thing will come thru for you.
How's Zoe getting on with the healthy eating plan, hope she's doing well, ( good practice for when you reintroduce food too )
xx
how all the job hunting going ?
you know, i think the time will come when the right thing will come thru for you.
How's Zoe getting on with the healthy eating plan, hope she's doing well, ( good practice for when you reintroduce food too
)xx
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Right - 10 mins max to get this done!
Yesterday was a crazy day.
Took Zoe to college then got here by 8.30 and steamed into flat out mode all morning - loads to do for this horrid meeting tonight. Still more to be done though!
Finished on time (almost) with a list of stuff to face today too - and headed to the bra shop. I love that shop! Mandy (the owner) was there and was lovely to me (as ever). She fitted me for a new bra too (38 FF for one style and 38G for another!). I went for the 38G in a plunge bra!!! (I've NEVER worn a plunge bra before!!!) I love it! lol I can't believe the change to my shape (again!).. lol.. I took in a couple of tops with me and put them on with my new bra and I love em!! So, I KNOW what I'll be wearing to Brum! lol
Off from the bra shop to pick up Zoe and then drop her off at her fellas.. then into the butchers for some chicken and lamb steaks.. quick chat about stuff in there - he is really nice - and bought some parsnips and got a recipe from him for parsnip curry soup! (apparantly a weightwatchers recipe).. so decided to make that in the afternoon for Zoe's tea). Then it was off to the Co-Op for more salad stuff and prawns (for my AAM)... I know they aren't on the list, I think Ailsa said its coz of their cholesterol levels but I could have got that wrong.. either way, I adore prawns and decided to have some with salad for my meal in the evening. Whilst queing up in the Co-Op I saw my friend's dad Alan and waved a hello - he turned around to look behind him.. lol.. I had to walk up to him and say that it WAS him I was waving to! He hadn't recognised me. We chatted and then I paid for my shopping.
On the way home I nipped into dr to make appt for Zoe. (I nearly always get the times wrong and hate making appts for her, but, I said I would if I remembered! lol). That done I called in at the chemist next door as they often have some bargains which I snap up and store for Christmas presents.
Assistant in there is a lady from church but I haven't seen her in a while.. lol.. I said hi and she just stood open-mouthed, lol. She's just come back from Barbados (her daughter got married there).. and looked very very well. She was a bit surprised at how much I'd lost since I last saw her, but it was nice. We had a chinwag about the diet being healthy (seems to be everyone's chief concern) and she seemed appeased. lol
As I drove home I had to stop on the main (and busy) road as there was a little terrier running across the road and all the traffic wasn't sure what to do. It was clear that the dog's owner was nowhere in sight and the poor little thing would've been lucky to survive if it carried on zig-zagging across the road (it's the main run from the A45 into town).
I called out to a pedestrian to catch the dog and hand it to me. He did (how obedient - lol) and I took the dog round to a few nearby houses in the hope that someone would recognise it. No luck. It was a friendly little thing - a girl - very waggy and a nightmare in the car... lol.. kept jumping on my lap as I was driving and trying to lick my face!
In the end I took her to the vets and asked their advice - and got her scanned for a microchip - no chip. I do wish dog owners would do this.. it is painless and cheap and means that dogs can be returned often within minutes! Anyway... lovely little lilavc collar but lost her tag.. so no way of identifying her.. so,, they called the dog warden and they came and took her away. I really hope the owners call the dog warden and check if anyone found her.. I felt bad because I know there is a chance they may not think to do that, but, not as bad as if I drove along there today and saw her corpse laying on the verge! So - that was most of my afternoon gone.. and.. whilst at vets they told me there was half price dog vaccinations (yesterday last day!) so I rushed home to get Brandy (my dog, not a medicianl beverage ) and went right back down there with him!
He was NOT impressed. He thought we were going for a walk.. he hates the vets.. I think they (animals) can smell previous animals and the treatments.. know what I mean?
Anyway.. not only did he have an injection, but also, in trying to cheer him up they got him so excited that he jumped up on me and tore my top! They also, though, had to check his anal glands... I'll say nothing more than this.. ky jelly, gloves, very upset dog, very smelly room, nauseaus owner and very strong veterinary nurse!!
Brandy was NOT impressed! He forgave me when we got home and I gave him a treat They did say I need to walk him every day as his heart murmer is getting worse and regular exercise will be good for him.. so.. as of today (Thursday) I will have to fit in a 15-20 minute walk with him every day! (will do me good too!)
Home again - made the soup.. R rang me in a dreadful state! He'd been drinking and was very emotional. I let him talk awhile and then said I would call him later.
Finished making the soup (smelt divine) and then made my dinner! Zoe got home and we chatted whilst the soup bubbled away. We sat down to eat and the phone went again - it was R.. could I go over there. I polished off my meal and left.
He is in such a mess! He and his ex had met up at lunchtime to discuss practicalities about her things that were still in his house, the possibility of her buying the house, and general end of relationship stuff. It all had turned very nasty, and in the end she accused him of having several affairs during their 2 years together. I can understand why she might think that but it isn't the case I'm sure. I tried to explain her viewpoint to him. (As a woman I can see how she added 2 + 2 and got 7!) As a result of what effectively turned into a verbal attack in the pub at lunchtime, she arrived unannounced at the house with friend and large van and promptly unceremoniously cleared the place of all her things. It was very distressing for them all I think.
R was drinking the entire time - she has told him that if anyone asks her she will tell them they split up because of his drinking and sleeping around. He is appalled and incredibly hurt and angry. (ref the sleeping around).
R was married for 30 years before he was widowed. In all that time he was faithful. He was with his exgirlfriend for 2 years and totally faithful to her too. (This is what he says and I have no reason to doubt this is the truth). However, he did say that on one occassion when they had fallen out he had rung one of her friends up and had said if he wasn't with her (the girlfriend) then he could fancy her (the mate). This mate has now told his exgirlfriend, and on this basis, his exgirlfriend has accused him of sleeping with every female friend he has.
What's added fuel to the fire is that he met up with me and we went to his local for the evening and the gossipmongors in there can't do their maths either!!
I have loads of male friends...(always have had) it doesn't mean I've slept with ANY of them!!!!
BUT, I can see her point of view and feel very sad for her (and for him). He also met up with a friend who is significantly younger (he is 51 she is 28) but who is the daughter of family friends and is the same age as one of his sons.. and his ex has accused him of, well.. you can imagine!! So.. it was most unpleasant for both of them.
By the time I got there last night the house looked empty.. as if he had just moved in and he was in a terribly state. We sat in his kitchen and talked for hours... he really needs to grieve for his wife.. and stop drinking! I was pretty straight with him about it all... told him I think she (ex) was right that he has a problem with alcohol even though it wasn't the reason they split up.. but he will need to do something about it.. he didn't argue. I also told him that I think he needs to greive still for his lovely wife. (not as bluntly as that, it was all done gently and as a friend would).
Bless him, he just feels so angry because of the accusations levied at him.. BUT.. I hope now he can understand how SHE feels too (I can!)... so.. I told him he needed to get to bed and sleep off the booze and look at everything in a sober light in the morning. He sort of agreed and we talked some more before I got all mumsy and told him to go to bed and call me today (Thursday).. lol.. oh.. I took him some soup too as he hadn't eaten and I made heaps of the stuff!
He rang a moment ago to say he is booking a ticket to go and visit family and friends abroad for a while and thanked me for going over. I feel sorry for him but also know that he (and his ex) have lots of emotions to deal with before either of them are going to feel any better about things... he is a lovely man, but very mixed up right now and the wine doesn't help matters any!! I can't do anything to help her out, but if I could I would, it's the first time she has experienced rejection in her life (she is 57) and I know how she feels. It is soul-destroying. I understand how she is thinking and why and feel so desperately sorry for her.
Ahh relationships - can be such a blessing and such a curse too.
So.. up early this morning, lovely shower (it was the water being off that made me think it was broken)... new plunging bra on (woohooo) lol.. and Zoe at college, me at work, busy busy busy... and then another mad afternoon dashing around! lol Meeting here tonight at church again (quarterly one) not looking forward to it but it will be over by the morning so going to get it into perspective!
Then tomorrow (almost weekend) heavy morning and then lovely afternoon of lunch (water) with a friend at local wine bar, afternoon in hairdressers, evening at a gig, then home to crash out! Saturday - think I will spend the day doing house stuff.. then in evening going to pub quiz pub (got text from one of the ladies who goes there on Sundays asking if I fancied going as there was live music!) so really looking forward to that! Sunday - who can tell! lol Church and then music fest meeting and pub quiz in evening! Then we're head first into another week!! lol So.. in amongst all that I need to find time to walk the dog, sleep, eat, do housework, find another job (jobs paper today)... etc etc!
So, nothing different here!!
Yesterday was a crazy day.
Took Zoe to college then got here by 8.30 and steamed into flat out mode all morning - loads to do for this horrid meeting tonight. Still more to be done though!
Finished on time (almost) with a list of stuff to face today too - and headed to the bra shop. I love that shop! Mandy (the owner) was there and was lovely to me (as ever). She fitted me for a new bra too (38 FF for one style and 38G for another!). I went for the 38G in a plunge bra!!! (I've NEVER worn a plunge bra before!!!) I love it! lol I can't believe the change to my shape (again!).. lol.. I took in a couple of tops with me and put them on with my new bra and I love em!! So, I KNOW what I'll be wearing to Brum!
lolOff from the bra shop to pick up Zoe and then drop her off at her fellas.. then into the butchers for some chicken and lamb steaks.. quick chat about stuff in there - he is really nice - and bought some parsnips and got a recipe from him for parsnip curry soup! (apparantly a weightwatchers recipe).. so decided to make that in the afternoon for Zoe's tea). Then it was off to the Co-Op for more salad stuff and prawns (for my AAM)... I know they aren't on the list, I think Ailsa said its coz of their cholesterol levels but I could have got that wrong.. either way, I adore prawns and decided to have some with salad for my meal in the evening. Whilst queing up in the Co-Op I saw my friend's dad Alan and waved a hello - he turned around to look behind him.. lol.. I had to walk up to him and say that it WAS him I was waving to! He hadn't recognised me. We chatted and then I paid for my shopping.
On the way home I nipped into dr to make appt for Zoe. (I nearly always get the times wrong and hate making appts for her, but, I said I would if I remembered! lol). That done I called in at the chemist next door as they often have some bargains which I snap up and store for Christmas presents.
Assistant in there is a lady from church but I haven't seen her in a while.. lol.. I said hi and she just stood open-mouthed, lol. She's just come back from Barbados (her daughter got married there).. and looked very very well. She was a bit surprised at how much I'd lost since I last saw her, but it was nice. We had a chinwag about the diet being healthy (seems to be everyone's chief concern) and she seemed appeased. lol
As I drove home I had to stop on the main (and busy) road as there was a little terrier running across the road and all the traffic wasn't sure what to do. It was clear that the dog's owner was nowhere in sight and the poor little thing would've been lucky to survive if it carried on zig-zagging across the road (it's the main run from the A45 into town).
I called out to a pedestrian to catch the dog and hand it to me. He did (how obedient - lol) and I took the dog round to a few nearby houses in the hope that someone would recognise it. No luck. It was a friendly little thing - a girl - very waggy and a nightmare in the car... lol.. kept jumping on my lap as I was driving and trying to lick my face!
In the end I took her to the vets and asked their advice - and got her scanned for a microchip - no chip. I do wish dog owners would do this.. it is painless and cheap and means that dogs can be returned often within minutes! Anyway... lovely little lilavc collar but lost her tag.. so no way of identifying her.. so,, they called the dog warden and they came and took her away. I really hope the owners call the dog warden and check if anyone found her.. I felt bad because I know there is a chance they may not think to do that, but, not as bad as if I drove along there today and saw her corpse laying on the verge! So - that was most of my afternoon gone.. and.. whilst at vets they told me there was half price dog vaccinations (yesterday last day!) so I rushed home to get Brandy (my dog, not a medicianl beverage
) and went right back down there with him!He was NOT impressed. He thought we were going for a walk.. he hates the vets.. I think they (animals) can smell previous animals and the treatments.. know what I mean?
Anyway.. not only did he have an injection, but also, in trying to cheer him up they got him so excited that he jumped up on me and tore my top! They also, though, had to check his anal glands... I'll say nothing more than this.. ky jelly, gloves, very upset dog, very smelly room, nauseaus owner and very strong veterinary nurse!!
Brandy was NOT impressed! He forgave me when we got home and I gave him a treat
They did say I need to walk him every day as his heart murmer is getting worse and regular exercise will be good for him.. so.. as of today (Thursday) I will have to fit in a 15-20 minute walk with him every day! (will do me good too!)Home again - made the soup.. R rang me in a dreadful state! He'd been drinking and was very emotional. I let him talk awhile and then said I would call him later.
Finished making the soup (smelt divine) and then made my dinner! Zoe got home and we chatted whilst the soup bubbled away. We sat down to eat and the phone went again - it was R.. could I go over there. I polished off my meal and left.
He is in such a mess! He and his ex had met up at lunchtime to discuss practicalities about her things that were still in his house, the possibility of her buying the house, and general end of relationship stuff. It all had turned very nasty, and in the end she accused him of having several affairs during their 2 years together. I can understand why she might think that but it isn't the case I'm sure. I tried to explain her viewpoint to him. (As a woman I can see how she added 2 + 2 and got 7!) As a result of what effectively turned into a verbal attack in the pub at lunchtime, she arrived unannounced at the house with friend and large van and promptly unceremoniously cleared the place of all her things. It was very distressing for them all I think.
R was drinking the entire time - she has told him that if anyone asks her she will tell them they split up because of his drinking and sleeping around. He is appalled and incredibly hurt and angry. (ref the sleeping around).
R was married for 30 years before he was widowed. In all that time he was faithful. He was with his exgirlfriend for 2 years and totally faithful to her too. (This is what he says and I have no reason to doubt this is the truth). However, he did say that on one occassion when they had fallen out he had rung one of her friends up and had said if he wasn't with her (the girlfriend) then he could fancy her (the mate). This mate has now told his exgirlfriend, and on this basis, his exgirlfriend has accused him of sleeping with every female friend he has.
What's added fuel to the fire is that he met up with me and we went to his local for the evening and the gossipmongors in there can't do their maths either!!
I have loads of male friends...(always have had) it doesn't mean I've slept with ANY of them!!!!
BUT, I can see her point of view and feel very sad for her (and for him). He also met up with a friend who is significantly younger (he is 51 she is 28) but who is the daughter of family friends and is the same age as one of his sons.. and his ex has accused him of, well.. you can imagine!! So.. it was most unpleasant for both of them.
By the time I got there last night the house looked empty.. as if he had just moved in and he was in a terribly state. We sat in his kitchen and talked for hours... he really needs to grieve for his wife.. and stop drinking! I was pretty straight with him about it all... told him I think she (ex) was right that he has a problem with alcohol even though it wasn't the reason they split up.. but he will need to do something about it.. he didn't argue. I also told him that I think he needs to greive still for his lovely wife. (not as bluntly as that, it was all done gently and as a friend would).
Bless him, he just feels so angry because of the accusations levied at him.. BUT.. I hope now he can understand how SHE feels too (I can!)... so.. I told him he needed to get to bed and sleep off the booze and look at everything in a sober light in the morning. He sort of agreed and we talked some more before I got all mumsy and told him to go to bed and call me today (Thursday).. lol.. oh.. I took him some soup too as he hadn't eaten and I made heaps of the stuff!
He rang a moment ago to say he is booking a ticket to go and visit family and friends abroad for a while and thanked me for going over. I feel sorry for him but also know that he (and his ex) have lots of emotions to deal with before either of them are going to feel any better about things... he is a lovely man, but very mixed up right now and the wine doesn't help matters any!! I can't do anything to help her out, but if I could I would, it's the first time she has experienced rejection in her life (she is 57) and I know how she feels. It is soul-destroying. I understand how she is thinking and why and feel so desperately sorry for her.
Ahh relationships - can be such a blessing and such a curse too.
So.. up early this morning, lovely shower (it was the water being off that made me think it was broken)... new plunging bra on (woohooo) lol.. and Zoe at college, me at work, busy busy busy... and then another mad afternoon dashing around! lol Meeting here tonight at church again (quarterly one) not looking forward to it but it will be over by the morning so going to get it into perspective!
Then tomorrow (almost weekend) heavy morning and then lovely afternoon of lunch (water) with a friend at local wine bar, afternoon in hairdressers, evening at a gig, then home to crash out! Saturday - think I will spend the day doing house stuff.. then in evening going to pub quiz pub (got text from one of the ladies who goes there on Sundays asking if I fancied going as there was live music!) so really looking forward to that! Sunday - who can tell! lol Church and then music fest meeting and pub quiz in evening! Then we're head first into another week!! lol So.. in amongst all that I need to find time to walk the dog, sleep, eat, do housework, find another job (jobs paper today)... etc etc!
So, nothing different here!!
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
morning hun, how's you doing, been a quiet recently, hope that doesn't mean you're still low !
how all the job hunting going ?
you know, i think the time will come when the right thing will come thru for you.
How's Zoe getting on with the healthy eating plan, hope she's doing well, ( good practice for when you reintroduce food too
xx
Morning - was just writing my novel for the day!
Feeling more upbeat thanks (will pm you). Job hunting still not going well.. but am being positive.. I hope you are right. Zoe's doing great, really into calorie counting and watching fats and carbs too! I think I can already see a difference! It's great practice for me! She's sticking to 1000cals a day and last night weighed out her cereal and measured her milk for this morning and made herself a ham salad pitta pocket for her lunch with a pot of low fat custard and an apple.
She says she feels better today too, not as tired as usual so that's good! We're going to Asda when I pick her up from college this afternoon and getting some diet Dr Pepper - although I've told her to limit it. Will also try and find a good calorie counting book - I threw all mine out years ago! We've had some lovely chats in the car on the journies to college and back.
Sarah rang me again last night bless her, she's lost her discount card for the buses and is in panic mode as she has her ticket to come home at the end of the month but without the discount card they won't let her travel! Ahhh, kids! lolololWe'll sort it out I'm sure. I can't wait to see her again! Although she will be using the place as a hostel... lol.. she's off to visit friends and go to gigs.. (that's my gal!
) lolLove the sound of your new outfit and boots!!!
xxx
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Just here for a mo - in between coming home from work, doing some washing, planning the festival programme and emailing to beg a bit of extra time for the ad which should have been in last week!!!
Almost ready for meeting tonight although have a nagging feeling I've forgotten to do something in prep for it.. but.. as I can't think what at the moment I'm not worrying about it. Will be heading back to work in about an hour! Nightmare!
Zoe made some chelsea buns at college today and brought home a dozen.. so.. 5 are in the freezer for me to give to mum and sister when we meet up for a birthday lunch for mum a week tomorrow (must book table!! ).. and the rest she took to her boyfriends so no temptation there! They looked and smelt gorgeous though!!
I just had my salad AAM and want more so am having some Spicy tom soup (pack 2 of the day).
Spoke to mum this afternoon - she had her first weigh-in back at WW and has lost an impressive 5.5lbs on her first week back!:clap: This is brilliant and I know will motivate her. She's very good though - when she diets she never wavers.. not even a flicker! So, when she goes on hols with sis in September she will be a lot happier again (I think she only has about another 20lbs to lose). But she lost loads with WW before so clearly the diet works for her and that's wonderful!
Sis rang and told her that SHE has lost weight too whilst away! :giggle: So that's good too! lol We will ALL look different when we meet up next Friday! Sis will black as coal too - she tans so much better than me and mum.. lol.. I resemble a plucked raw chicken at this time of year .. lol.. Can't wait for some sunshine.. and for my holiday in June! Had a rethink about the bikini thing.. and then argued in my head again about it.. so.. might wait a while before buying one.. lol.. still.. I won't know anyone out there.. and I will be on my hols..:devilangel:
Just had text from mate Lisa - she's heading over for a chat! Have warned her that I'm off out in less than an hour and cooking Zoe's tea (ham and cheese 2 egg omlette)... so she'll have to cope with that! Can't turn away a mate who wants to talk though...atback: :hug99:
Almost ready for meeting tonight although have a nagging feeling I've forgotten to do something in prep for it.. but.. as I can't think what at the moment I'm not worrying about it. Will be heading back to work in about an hour! Nightmare! Zoe made some chelsea buns at college today and brought home a dozen.. so.. 5 are in the freezer for me to give to mum and sister when we meet up for a birthday lunch for mum a week tomorrow (must book table!!
).. and the rest she took to her boyfriends so no temptation there! They looked and smelt gorgeous though!!I just had my salad AAM and want more so am having some Spicy tom soup (pack 2 of the day).
Spoke to mum this afternoon - she had her first weigh-in back at WW and has lost an impressive 5.5lbs on her first week back!:clap: This is brilliant and I know will motivate her. She's very good though - when she diets she never wavers.. not even a flicker! So, when she goes on hols with sis in September she will be a lot happier again (I think she only has about another 20lbs to lose). But she lost loads with WW before so clearly the diet works for her and that's wonderful!
Sis rang and told her that SHE has lost weight too whilst away! :giggle: So that's good too! lol We will ALL look different when we meet up next Friday! Sis will black as coal too - she tans so much better than me and mum.. lol.. I resemble a plucked raw chicken at this time of year
.. lol.. Can't wait for some sunshine.. and for my holiday in June! Had a rethink about the bikini thing.. and then argued in my head again about it.. so.. might wait a while before buying one.. lol.. still.. I won't know anyone out there.. and I will be on my hols..:devilangel:Just had text from mate Lisa - she's heading over for a chat! Have warned her that I'm off out in less than an hour and cooking Zoe's tea (ham and cheese 2 egg omlette)... so she'll have to cope with that! Can't turn away a mate who wants to talk though...
atback: :hug99:
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
'morning all
busy day ahead - trying to do festival stuff now before going to work! eek! then it's non-stop until tomorrow!
Yesterday evening wasn't too bad. Mate came over and we had a chinwag about her man (his name is the same as Mr K's).. seems odd hearing her talking about him coz.. well.. anyway. She chatted, I cooked. Stuck a load of washing in the machine and had a soup. Crammed everything into my briefcase and dashed off to the meeting. Got there in time and thankful that I'd spent so much time preparing in the afternoon.
Meeting was deadly boring until I got some texts from one of my bezzzzie mates lol I had phone on vibrate so no-one knew I was getting texts. lol hee hee.. anyway.. meeting droned on until after 10.30 and by the time I packed it all up I didn't get in until almost midnight and was really hungry.
Zoe was up and waiting for her fella to come home from work to stay here. I told her I was hungry and that I had decided to have a second AAM and then not to have one today (Friday).. she tried to stop me.
I prepared it all and as I was preparing it I had an internal battle with CB about it all... in the end I compromised. I prepared the meal and then had 2 forkfuls (pickled beetroot and salad) and put cling film over the whole thing and shoved it in the fridge and went to bed! Between the three of us (me, Zoe and CB) it was agreed this was the safest option!
I took the jobs paper to bed with me and have marked a few possibilities. Nothing that leaps off the page though.
I fell into a deep sleep only to be awoken at 3am by Sarah - howling and sobbing ... I thought something awful had happened!!! She had watched a film called 'He Cried' or something (sorry,. memory foggy about name of the damn thing) and it was about a father and daughter and it made her miss her dad. She was sobbing so much... she told me how she missed him and how she had tried calling her friends and they were all asleep (I gently reminded her that it was in fact the middle of the night and that I too had been asleep ) ... but that I didn't mind.. she cried and we talked.. we talked about her dad... about how much we both think about him and how much we both miss him... we talked about how hard it is to be without a dad.. (hers died when she was 8 and mine died when I was 21)... I told her that he would be bursting with pride right now and would've been bragging to anyone who would listen, about how well his princess was doing.. (he used to call her his princess - and I think that is one of the meanings of her name which is probably why he chose it)... I have no idea what time we finally said our I love yous and goodnight.. but my eyelids confirm it may not have been that long ago , lol. As we were talking someone knocked on her door, one of her friends in the same flat had heard her crying (I'm not surprised she was in a terrible state).. and had come to see if she was ok.. so she told me to go back to sleep (lol, thanks sweetheart ).. lol and we said goodbye. We agreed that if she is going to watch any sad films she is to do so in the daylight hours! lol Also suggested she might like to watch some funny films too! lololol We were giggling at one point and by the end of the call she was calmer and I was happier to hear her so.
I feel for her.. I know she misses him dreadfully - and I said that losing Tim (ex hub) too hadn't helped how she felt.. she told me in no uncertain terms that he had NEVER been her dad. The thing is.. I know that was pure emotion as she loved him very very much too.. so all of it combined... and this bloomin film... too much for her. I'm so glad she rang. (Not sure my brain is though.. lol).
Right, got to do this ad now. Got an hour if I'm to get to work in time!. Have a lovely day all and a great weekend too! xx
busy day ahead - trying to do festival stuff now before going to work! eek! then it's non-stop until tomorrow!
Yesterday evening wasn't too bad. Mate came over and we had a chinwag about her man (his name is the same as Mr K's).. seems odd hearing her talking about him coz.. well.. anyway. She chatted, I cooked. Stuck a load of washing in the machine and had a soup. Crammed everything into my briefcase and dashed off to the meeting. Got there in time and thankful that I'd spent so much time preparing in the afternoon.
Meeting was deadly boring until I got some texts from one of my bezzzzie mates
lol I had phone on vibrate so no-one knew I was getting texts. lol hee hee.. anyway.. meeting droned on until after 10.30 and by the time I packed it all up I didn't get in until almost midnight and was really hungry.Zoe was up and waiting for her fella to come home from work to stay here. I told her I was hungry and that I had decided to have a second AAM and then not to have one today (Friday).. she tried to stop me.
I prepared it all and as I was preparing it I had an internal battle with CB about it all... in the end I compromised. I prepared the meal and then had 2 forkfuls (pickled beetroot and salad) and put cling film over the whole thing and shoved it in the fridge and went to bed! Between the three of us (me, Zoe and CB) it was agreed this was the safest option!
I took the jobs paper to bed with me and have marked a few possibilities. Nothing that leaps off the page though.
I fell into a deep sleep only to be awoken at 3am by Sarah - howling and sobbing ... I thought something awful had happened!!! She had watched a film called 'He Cried' or something (sorry,. memory foggy about name of the damn thing) and it was about a father and daughter and it made her miss her dad. She was sobbing so much... she told me how she missed him and how she had tried calling her friends and they were all asleep (I gently reminded her that it was in fact the middle of the night and that I too had been asleep
) ... but that I didn't mind.. she cried and we talked.. we talked about her dad... about how much we both think about him and how much we both miss him... we talked about how hard it is to be without a dad.. (hers died when she was 8 and mine died when I was 21)... I told her that he would be bursting with pride right now and would've been bragging to anyone who would listen, about how well his princess was doing.. (he used to call her his princess - and I think that is one of the meanings of her name which is probably why he chose it)... I have no idea what time we finally said our I love yous and goodnight.. but my eyelids confirm it may not have been that long ago , lol. As we were talking someone knocked on her door, one of her friends in the same flat had heard her crying (I'm not surprised she was in a terrible state).. and had come to see if she was ok.. so she told me to go back to sleep (lol, thanks sweetheart ).. lol and we said goodbye. We agreed that if she is going to watch any sad films she is to do so in the daylight hours! lol Also suggested she might like to watch some funny films too! lololol We were giggling at one point and by the end of the call she was calmer and I was happier to hear her so. I feel for her.. I know she misses him dreadfully - and I said that losing Tim (ex hub) too hadn't helped how she felt.. she told me in no uncertain terms that he had NEVER been her dad. The thing is.. I know that was pure emotion as she loved him very very much too.. so all of it combined... and this bloomin film... too much for her. I'm so glad she rang. (Not sure my brain is though.. lol).
Right, got to do this ad now. Got an hour if I'm to get to work in time!. Have a lovely day all and a great weekend too! xx
Karen1972
Gold Member
Hey JenAww poor Sarah! It's strange how we get a sudden attack of greif isn't it?? I lost my beautiful nan 7 years ago (she was like my mum) and i can suddenly burst into tears when reminded of her! I miss her soooo much!I hope your day is a good one and you manage to get everything done! You are such a busy bee! Well done on restricting the AAM scenario - very proud of you!! I don't think i could cope with AAM's!Take care
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Aww, Karen.. Thanks sweetheart.
It's so hard to lose someone who means so much.
I think when Sarah comes home at the end of the month I'll see if we can get out the old photo albums and the couple of home videos that he's in and sit with a box of tissues and have a good old reminisce. Will see how she feels about that at the time. Might do us good to talk about him and about how she feels. This is such a key time in her life as she tries to find her way in the world.. :sigh:
pandora
finding my way again !
hi hun,
what a lovely mum you are, sitting & chatting to Sarah at some awful hour in the night, my sleeps too important i'd would have said call back in the morning
hope your chat helped her, nice idea about the photo's & videos tho.
hope you're well, congrats on resisting extra AAM, thats the start of a slippery slope you DO NOT want to get onto.
xx
what a lovely mum you are, sitting & chatting to Sarah at some awful hour in the night, my sleeps too important i'd would have said call back in the morning
hope your chat helped her, nice idea about the photo's & videos tho.
hope you're well, congrats on resisting extra AAM, thats the start of a slippery slope you DO NOT want to get onto.
xx
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Hi Cheryl - afraid I've not been great with my AAM at all! So - quitting it a day early and SSing again as of tomorrow.
I've had prawns every single night and a mountain of rabbit food and pickles.. I ate so much today that I thought I was going to burst! I know the approximate calorific value of the food I ate (250 cals) because the bag of salad was labelled, as were the prawns and the fat free thousand island dressing! I don't feel guilty but I do feel a bit cross with myself for not sticking to it rigidly. Still, it's done , it's eaten, digested and being processed (I can feel AND hear it!).. so.. on with the packs (1 down 2 to go for the rest of the day - so will have another muffin and a soup) and that's my lot! Tomorrow is a new day and totally back to SSing.
Yesterday was chaotic - got to work, worked flat out all morning (didn't get the ad done) had to cancel lunch date with friend so I could do the ad, rushed home (via Asda - oooh.. must tell you (sorry I know I digress) but I bought 2 size 18 bikinis for my Tobago trip, I decided that I will wear them to sunbathe in as a) I won't know another living soul there but my sis and b) I want as close to an all over tan as I can get and c) I haven't worn one since I was a fat 10yr old so I may as well wear one as a lumpy fat 43 yr old! lol I look horrific in it but I don't care - sarong over the top til get to sunbathing position then not moving.. lol) . ... where was I ? Oh yes... rushed home did the ad and sent that off (hopefully in time and ok!).
Then it was off to the hairdressers (not been for 8 weeks as forgot the last appointment!)... LOVE what they've done to my hair! Very sad to hear my hairdresser's sister (young girl of only 23) had died in January Was at the salon from 3.30pm - 7.20pm! (takes over 2 hours to put all the foils in to begin with!) had to meet Lucy at 7.30 so was a tad late - got there just before the whole thing started..I had a lovely evening - it was in a small village near here called Ringstead and there was a duet called Bayeau Seco performing. Cajun music mainly - they were brilliant and I had a great evening there. Lucy looked incredible - she'd had her hair done too and looked amazing. She was wearing a gorgeous deep chocolate brown blouse and jeans and just looked fantastic. Her hair was the loveliest I've seen it in ages too. Really trendy style - made her look even younger than usual!
I caught up with some friends I haven't seen in a few weeks and they were lovely and complimentary.. which was nice. The music was brilliant and I left feeling great and chipper.
This morning I had some photos taken (I need to choose the best as a present for my mum). All above the waist shots as NOT happy with full length ones at all! lol I'm going to ask Zoe which she thinks is best and that'll be the one I get printed out and put in a frame. Then I took a friend to a very special churchyard to show them the snowdrops, sadly it was too late and all but a few had died.. so.. will have to wait another year and go next Feb to see them all again.
Then it was home to pick up Zoe and we did a bit of shopping at Asda as she has worked out recipes for her diet (she's lost 6lbs this week!!). So, we did that , got home, unpacked it all and then she went to work and I went to see another friend of mine who is going to help me do the admin for the festival this year and we had a natter and then some more friends arrived and we then ALL nattered..
lol.. Finally I got home, did a bit of housework and have hopped on here.
Oh, AND I got a call from the catering company who originally said I was over-qualified to work for them! I have an interview Monday afternoon with them! lol Transpires that they hired someone who wasn't any good. I had rung and chased it up the other week so he decided to call me! So.. you never know.. it is part time too (afternoons 1-6pm) so would suit me down to the ground! (If I like the job and they like me ) AND I could start immediately!!! (in theory anyway!) So that could be a real bonus!
What else is there to share... oh yes.. rang my friends in Wales and have arranged to go there to visit over Easter- I'm going to check if there is a pub quiz on Easter Sunday - if so I'll come home that afternoon - lol - if not I'll stay away! lol
Wasn't going to tell my mate about the weight loss to date but once we were nattering I couldn't help myself! lol She was wonderful.. "so happy for you, can't wait to see you even more now, will have to tell me all about it.. well done... so proud of you.. really really pleased" I can't wait to see her! (and her children and hubby).. we 'clicked' the very first moment we met and have been firm friends ever since and I think that's been.. um... well, over 10 years! lol
So.. got to go and iron the red top Zoe says I have to wear tonight.. lol.. and then get her contact lense stuff out of her room (she just texted to ask me to drop it at her boyfriends as she forgot to pack it - she's staying there tonight and working in the morning).. lol.. so.. best get a shake on! Live music at the pub tonight, so am looking forward to that very much.. not only that, but I have never been in there on a Saturday night before so not really sure what to expect. Hope the top is ok for a saturday night in a pub (I wore it on my first date with Mr K and he said lots of nice things so I'll wear it and think of that )
Going to have a lazy morning tomorrow.. will do the festival programme and mail that over to Bob then chill out.. might take dog around the lakes.. and in the evening its madness again! Meeting at 7 then pub at 8.30 for my beloved pub quiz.. lol
Hope all are having a lovely weekend, and, if not , that it improves beyond measure! xxxx
I've had prawns every single night and a mountain of rabbit food and pickles.. I ate so much today that I thought I was going to burst! I know the approximate calorific value of the food I ate (250 cals) because the bag of salad was labelled, as were the prawns and the fat free thousand island dressing! I don't feel guilty but I do feel a bit cross with myself for not sticking to it rigidly. Still, it's done , it's eaten, digested and being processed (I can feel AND hear it!).. so.. on with the packs (1 down 2 to go for the rest of the day - so will have another muffin and a soup) and that's my lot! Tomorrow is a new day and totally back to SSing.
Yesterday was chaotic - got to work, worked flat out all morning (didn't get the ad done) had to cancel lunch date with friend so I could do the ad, rushed home (via Asda - oooh.. must tell you (sorry I know I digress) but I bought 2 size 18 bikinis for my Tobago trip, I decided that I will wear them to sunbathe in as a) I won't know another living soul there but my sis and b) I want as close to an all over tan as I can get and c) I haven't worn one since I was a fat 10yr old so I may as well wear one as a lumpy fat 43 yr old! lol I look horrific in it but I don't care - sarong over the top til get to sunbathing position then not moving.. lol) . ... where was I ? Oh yes... rushed home did the ad and sent that off (hopefully in time and ok!).
Then it was off to the hairdressers (not been for 8 weeks as forgot the last appointment!)... LOVE what they've done to my hair! Very sad to hear my hairdresser's sister (young girl of only 23) had died in January
Was at the salon from 3.30pm - 7.20pm! (takes over 2 hours to put all the foils in to begin with!) had to meet Lucy at 7.30 so was a tad late - got there just before the whole thing started..I had a lovely evening - it was in a small village near here called Ringstead and there was a duet called Bayeau Seco performing. Cajun music mainly - they were brilliant and I had a great evening there. Lucy looked incredible - she'd had her hair done too and looked amazing. She was wearing a gorgeous deep chocolate brown blouse and jeans and just looked fantastic. Her hair was the loveliest I've seen it in ages too. Really trendy style - made her look even younger than usual!I caught up with some friends I haven't seen in a few weeks and they were lovely and complimentary.. which was nice. The music was brilliant and I left feeling great and chipper.
This morning I had some photos taken (I need to choose the best as a present for my mum). All above the waist shots as NOT happy with full length ones at all! lol I'm going to ask Zoe which she thinks is best and that'll be the one I get printed out and put in a frame. Then I took a friend to a very special churchyard to show them the snowdrops, sadly it was too late and all but a few had died.. so.. will have to wait another year and go next Feb to see them all again.
Then it was home to pick up Zoe and we did a bit of shopping at Asda as she has worked out recipes for her diet (she's lost 6lbs this week!!). So, we did that , got home, unpacked it all and then she went to work and I went to see another friend of mine who is going to help me do the admin for the festival this year and we had a natter and then some more friends arrived and we then ALL nattered..
lol.. Finally I got home, did a bit of housework and have hopped on here. Oh, AND I got a call from the catering company who originally said I was over-qualified to work for them! I have an interview Monday afternoon with them! lol Transpires that they hired someone who wasn't any good. I had rung and chased it up the other week so he decided to call me! So.. you never know.. it is part time too (afternoons 1-6pm) so would suit me down to the ground! (If I like the job and they like me
) AND I could start immediately!!! (in theory anyway!) So that could be a real bonus!What else is there to share... oh yes.. rang my friends in Wales and have arranged to go there to visit over Easter- I'm going to check if there is a pub quiz on Easter Sunday - if so I'll come home that afternoon - lol - if not I'll stay away! lol
Wasn't going to tell my mate about the weight loss to date but once we were nattering I couldn't help myself! lol She was wonderful.. "so happy for you, can't wait to see you even more now, will have to tell me all about it.. well done... so proud of you.. really really pleased"
I can't wait to see her! (and her children and hubby).. we 'clicked' the very first moment we met and have been firm friends ever since and I think that's been.. um... well, over 10 years! lol So.. got to go and iron the red top Zoe says I have to wear tonight.. lol.. and then get her contact lense stuff out of her room (she just texted to ask me to drop it at her boyfriends as she forgot to pack it - she's staying there tonight and working in the morning).. lol.. so.. best get a shake on! Live music at the pub tonight, so am looking forward to that very much.. not only that, but I have never been in there on a Saturday night before so not really sure what to expect. Hope the top is ok for a saturday night in a pub (I wore it on my first date with Mr K and he said lots of nice things so I'll wear it and think of that
) Going to have a lazy morning tomorrow.. will do the festival programme and mail that over to Bob then chill out.. might take dog around the lakes.. and in the evening its madness again! Meeting at 7 then pub at 8.30 for my beloved pub quiz.. lol
Hope all are having a lovely weekend, and, if not , that it improves beyond measure!
xxxx
pandora
finding my way again !
you may have had a tad more AAM than allowed,but the thing is you have recognised this fact & are taking possitive measures to rectify the situation, well done hun.
fab news on Zoe loosing 6lbs this week, bet that has really boosted her drive to continue & she must be proud of herself for doing it.
glad you are managing to keep busy, can't wait to see your new hair do, or will it be changed by Brum - getting excited now, going to be driving as the trains = nightmare !!!
c u soon hun
xx
fab news on Zoe loosing 6lbs this week, bet that has really boosted her drive to continue & she must be proud of herself for doing it.
glad you are managing to keep busy, can't wait to see your new hair do, or will it be changed by Brum - getting excited now, going to be driving as the trains = nightmare !!!
c u soon hun
xx
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Sunday March 4th
Last night in the pub was a really good evening! I picked up Trudy and her fella and the place was pretty busy. I recognised some of the people in there (bar staff and one or 2 regulars). I was glad I wore the top, it felt good (even though the shoulders slide off now and again and I haven't got a red bra any more so MUST order one!) the singer was brilliant - his name was Joe something.. he was excellent, apart from the times when he singled me out to serenade me! You know, I didn't think I blushed.. but I have to tell you.. you couldn't distinguish face from top !!! (That was blushing incident number 1) Trudy and her fella had arranged for one of their friends to come along too (hmmm.. am going to have a word with her about this! lol) ...a pleasant enough young man called Dave. Not sure what their plans were on that front but we all had a nice evening. PQM turned up around 10.30pm too and joined us. That was nice although litlle uncomfortable (for me, not sure about him). He looked good in a 'Vintage Rock' t-shirt. He chatted to Trudy most of the time. I was tongue-tied and pathetically introvert!!! (What the hell is happening to me!!!!)
I must have drunk about 6 pints of water throughout the evening.. and.. to get to the loos you had to walk past the singer.. so I hung on 'til he was between songs... and when I came out.. I loitered in the corridor waiting for him to start another one.. one of the regulars spotted me and must've tipped him the wink because he started singing and then came and got me!!!! (This was blushing incident number 2).
Number 3 was the worst though.. it was right near the end... and he started to sing some really slushy song (I was so mortified I can't even recall what it was).. and he came into the bar and took my hand and led me to the bit where he was and danced and sang to me (whilst telling everyone to come up and join us). I was so very embarassed. Seriously. I couldn't look at him.. lol.. in the end he realised that I was genuinely uncomfortable and led me back to my seat. Well, my table (Trudy, her fella, Dave and PQM) all took the mickey mercilessly for the next 10 minutes!
Thankfully there were loads more songs and we just all sang along heartily to them! Loads of laughter (best medicine) and no voice this morning - both signs of a great night!
We (Trudy, her fella and me) left together.. I didn't feel comfortable staying on without them - and I dropped them home. What a lovely couple. I think I may have found another pair of lovely friends
I can't wait for tonight (although I have a feeling there will be more mickey taking about the dancing bit!!) but that's ok.. lol.. I can take it!
When I got home I checked the phone to see if mum had rung me (again).. nope! But R had and hadn't left a message. When we spoke yesterday he said he wasn't feeling too well, hope he's feeling better today. I think it's the booze meself. (I know, it could be anything!!)
The one thing last night showed me though, is that I have definitely not got the confidence I used to have.. not when I am on 'home turf' so to speak - know what I mean? The old me (pre-dumped times) would've been up there giving it large, singing with him and probably being a bit loud and larey.. but now.. I was embarassed and uncomfortable at the attention (whilst secretly, for the odd moment or 2 enjoying it!). How does that work! I both liked and hated it all at the same time. Talk about confusing!!!! Perhaps if I'd had a drink it would've been different - but one glass of wine at the moment and I think I'd have been humiliating myself!! (can't handle the stuff any more! lol that's what over a decade of no alcohol does to me!! - oh, except for a minor drinking session on the QE2 last summer when I had far too many cocktails and ended up singing karoake in the onboard 'pub'!)
When we were in Brum I had a blast at Flares.. loads of confidence and dancing and singing.. but in my local pub!? Nuh-uhhh... I don't get it?
I was at my happiest last night when me and Trudy were chatting and laughing.. anything that involved members of the opposite sex had me in a total tail spin. I completely lost the ability to converse with them! It's pathetic - I've never had that problem before.. and now... well... I dunno.. I never thought that losing some weight could make me feel so different in so many situations.. but I guess it's all a part of the greater learning curve that's going on in my head and my life. When I was at my heaviest I was (ironically) at my most extrovert!! How can that be right??
I think too that I have totally lost the ability to 'read' men as I have always seen myself as, and been treated as, 'one of the lads'. Things have changed. I'm not sure that is how I'm viewed any more.. seriously odd feeling. It feels very very weird. I'm not altogether sure I like it. (don't get me wrong - I'm not going to stop doing the diet because of it - I just have to sit and think hard about how things have and continue to change).
Lazy (ish) day ahead. Festival programme to do then might take the dog for a stroll around the lakes (weather permitting). Going to chill out this afternoon in front of telly or play some of my old vinyls and sort out all those old clothes that are piled up on Sarah's bed. Really looking forward to this evening.. I can relax at the pub quiz.. weird innit.. same pub, same people, different feeling and attitude.
Might put some loud 'boppy' music on and run the vac around.. and maybe wash the windows too... well... I did get them cleaned on Friday and so it ALL must be on the inside! lol
SSing with a vengeance today. Already had 3 pints of water and only been up an hour.. lol.. thank the Lord for plumbing!!
Last night in the pub was a really good evening! I picked up Trudy and her fella and the place was pretty busy. I recognised some of the people in there (bar staff and one or 2 regulars). I was glad I wore the top, it felt good (even though the shoulders slide off now and again and I haven't got a red bra any more so MUST order one!) the singer was brilliant - his name was Joe something.. he was excellent, apart from the times when he singled me out to serenade me! You know, I didn't think I blushed.. but I have to tell you.. you couldn't distinguish face from top !!! (That was blushing incident number 1) Trudy and her fella had arranged for one of their friends to come along too (hmmm.. am going to have a word with her about this! lol) ...a pleasant enough young man called Dave. Not sure what their plans were on that front but we all had a nice evening. PQM turned up around 10.30pm too and joined us. That was nice although litlle uncomfortable (for me, not sure about him). He looked good in a 'Vintage Rock' t-shirt. He chatted to Trudy most of the time. I was tongue-tied and pathetically introvert!!! (What the hell is happening to me!!!!)
I must have drunk about 6 pints of water throughout the evening.. and.. to get to the loos you had to walk past the singer.. so I hung on 'til he was between songs... and when I came out.. I loitered in the corridor waiting for him to start another one.. one of the regulars spotted me and must've tipped him the wink because he started singing and then came and got me!!!! (This was blushing incident number 2).
Number 3 was the worst though.. it was right near the end... and he started to sing some really slushy song (I was so mortified I can't even recall what it was).. and he came into the bar and took my hand and led me to the bit where he was and danced and sang to me (whilst telling everyone to come up and join us). I was so very embarassed. Seriously. I couldn't look at him.. lol.. in the end he realised that I was genuinely uncomfortable and led me back to my seat. Well, my table (Trudy, her fella, Dave and PQM) all took the mickey mercilessly for the next 10 minutes!
Thankfully there were loads more songs and we just all sang along heartily to them! Loads of laughter (best medicine) and no voice this morning - both signs of a great night!
We (Trudy, her fella and me) left together.. I didn't feel comfortable staying on without them - and I dropped them home. What a lovely couple. I think I may have found another pair of lovely friends
I can't wait for tonight (although I have a feeling there will be more mickey taking about the dancing bit!!) but that's ok.. lol.. I can take it!
When I got home I checked the phone to see if mum had rung me (again).. nope! But R had and hadn't left a message. When we spoke yesterday he said he wasn't feeling too well, hope he's feeling better today. I think it's the booze meself. (I know, it could be anything!!)
The one thing last night showed me though, is that I have definitely not got the confidence I used to have.. not when I am on 'home turf' so to speak - know what I mean? The old me (pre-dumped times) would've been up there giving it large, singing with him and probably being a bit loud and larey.. but now.. I was embarassed and uncomfortable at the attention (whilst secretly, for the odd moment or 2 enjoying it!). How does that work! I both liked and hated it all at the same time. Talk about confusing!!!! Perhaps if I'd had a drink it would've been different - but one glass of wine at the moment and I think I'd have been humiliating myself!! (can't handle the stuff any more! lol that's what over a decade of no alcohol does to me!! - oh, except for a minor drinking session on the QE2 last summer when I had far too many cocktails and ended up singing karoake in the onboard 'pub'!)
When we were in Brum I had a blast at Flares.. loads of confidence and dancing and singing.. but in my local pub!? Nuh-uhhh... I don't get it?
I was at my happiest last night when me and Trudy were chatting and laughing.. anything that involved members of the opposite sex had me in a total tail spin. I completely lost the ability to converse with them! It's pathetic - I've never had that problem before.. and now... well... I dunno.. I never thought that losing some weight could make me feel so different in so many situations.. but I guess it's all a part of the greater learning curve that's going on in my head and my life. When I was at my heaviest I was (ironically) at my most extrovert!! How can that be right??
I think too that I have totally lost the ability to 'read' men as I have always seen myself as, and been treated as, 'one of the lads'. Things have changed. I'm not sure that is how I'm viewed any more.. seriously odd feeling. It feels very very weird. I'm not altogether sure I like it. (don't get me wrong - I'm not going to stop doing the diet because of it - I just have to sit and think hard about how things have and continue to change).
Lazy (ish) day ahead. Festival programme to do then might take the dog for a stroll around the lakes (weather permitting). Going to chill out this afternoon in front of telly or play some of my old vinyls and sort out all those old clothes that are piled up on Sarah's bed. Really looking forward to this evening.. I can relax at the pub quiz.. weird innit.. same pub, same people, different feeling and attitude.
Might put some loud 'boppy' music on and run the vac around.. and maybe wash the windows too... well... I did get them cleaned on Friday and so it ALL must be on the inside! lol
SSing with a vengeance today. Already had 3 pints of water and only been up an hour.. lol.. thank the Lord for plumbing!!
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cah-ching
Gold Member
Morning FFnF,
Red MUsT be your colour! Although you also look divine in jade. Also you've been to the hairdressers so obviously you were looking fantastic.
As for the confidence thing? It's a lot easier to exude confidence in surroundings you are unfamiliar with and which is unfamiliar with you. However on home-turf ... everyone knows you and there is always that fear of looking stupid/doing something you'll later regret, I suppose. I read on these pages that confidence grows with weight loss. You are in a transition at the moment; you are in the medium of your weight loss you aren't the weighty person you were (well done!) thus you haven't your fat coat to hide behind; yet you aren't at goal either; thus you are in an awkward space - I hope I'm making sense. I think you have charm and passion and all that will come back over the next 5 months without the 'having to make up for the fact I'm obese' tag that accompanied your confidence many moons ago.
As for reading men ..... LOL. They are hard, however I am now subscribing to the ethos that:
1) go with your gut instinct - it's never let me down, I've just chosen to ignore it.
2) you'll know when a man likes you, he will make himself easy to read. He wont want to make the mistake of confusing you if he wants you.
Have a good day. May be one Sunday I can come to church with you?
C-C xxx
Red MUsT be your colour!
Although you also look divine in jade. Also you've been to the hairdressers so obviously you were looking fantastic.As for the confidence thing? It's a lot easier to exude confidence in surroundings you are unfamiliar with and which is unfamiliar with you. However on home-turf ... everyone knows you and there is always that fear of looking stupid/doing something you'll later regret, I suppose. I read on these pages that confidence grows with weight loss. You are in a transition at the moment; you are in the medium of your weight loss you aren't the weighty person you were (well done!) thus you haven't your fat coat to hide behind; yet you aren't at goal either; thus you are in an awkward space - I hope I'm making sense. I think you have charm and passion and all that will come back over the next 5 months without the 'having to make up for the fact I'm obese' tag that accompanied your confidence many moons ago.
As for reading men ..... LOL. They are hard, however I am now subscribing to the ethos that:
1) go with your gut instinct - it's never let me down, I've just chosen to ignore it.
2) you'll know when a man likes you, he will make himself easy to read. He wont want to make the mistake of confusing you if he wants you.
Have a good day. May be one Sunday I can come to church with you?
C-C xxx
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Rings and things...
Sunday afternoon ...
Still not done the programme and procrastinating desperately.. lol.. I went and cleaned my bathroom from top to bottom. Also - as a result of nearly losing my favourite ring off my hand today I thought I would go and look in my jewellry box and see if any of my old rings fit now.
I was so shocked to find that my wedding and engagement rings from back when I was 17 now fit better than they ever did all those years ago!! So my friend who commented on the size of my hands the other night was very observant!
I will admit to swallowing hard as I tried them all on.. I have (as you may know) 2 wedding rings and 2 engagement rings.. and no husband. So.. the rings fitted.. in fact the second set (from 11 years ago) are too big and fall off. The first set (engagement ring from 1980 & wedding ring from 1986) fitted so lovely. I am tempted to wear them again (on right hand of course) but then.. I don't really want to as they bring back lots of different memories.. so.. back in the box they went. All the rings fit me now.. including a sygnet (sp) ring I bought myself when I was 16.. little silver thing in the shape of a heart with the initial 'J' engraved on it. I might clean it and wear that.. or.. after my father died, my mother gave me her engagement ring (stunning 2 diamond twist) and I've never been able to wear it as my fingers were too fat.. and that fits so perfectly now.. I am tempted, but I know its value and would worry about damaging it.. so am going to wear it on special occasions instead now of it sitting in a box (where it has sat for 22 years!). lol
So.. a strange feeling - wearing all the rings I have collected over the years - predominantly amethyst and gold - and revisiting the memories of their purchase/receipt. Funny thing memory... Still... all nice ones really so not too bad. Will ask the girls if they want my wedding ring sets .. can't imagine they will want the bands but the engagement rings are lovely. One is a sapphire and diamond trio.. the other is a gorgeous oval amethyst and diamong. Very pretty rings. Love them still. Never thought the old ones would fit ever again. Just goes to show how wrong I can be.. lol Anyway, sorry, droned on again but hey... it spent another 10 minutes NOT working on the programme.. lol.
Am going to do it right now though! (after unloading washing machine, hand washing bras and um... well.. anything else ! lol)
Sunday afternoon ...
Still not done the programme and procrastinating desperately.. lol.. I went and cleaned my bathroom from top to bottom. Also - as a result of nearly losing my favourite ring off my hand today I thought I would go and look in my jewellry box and see if any of my old rings fit now.
I was so shocked to find that my wedding and engagement rings from back when I was 17 now fit better than they ever did all those years ago!! So my friend who commented on the size of my hands the other night was very observant!
I will admit to swallowing hard as I tried them all on.. I have (as you may know) 2 wedding rings and 2 engagement rings.. and no husband. So.. the rings fitted.. in fact the second set (from 11 years ago) are too big and fall off. The first set (engagement ring from 1980 & wedding ring from 1986) fitted so lovely. I am tempted to wear them again (on right hand of course) but then.. I don't really want to as they bring back lots of different memories.. so.. back in the box they went. All the rings fit me now.. including a sygnet (sp) ring I bought myself when I was 16.. little silver thing in the shape of a heart with the initial 'J' engraved on it. I might clean it and wear that.. or.. after my father died, my mother gave me her engagement ring (stunning 2 diamond twist) and I've never been able to wear it as my fingers were too fat.. and that fits so perfectly now.. I am tempted, but I know its value and would worry about damaging it.. so am going to wear it on special occasions instead now of it sitting in a box (where it has sat for 22 years!). lol
So.. a strange feeling - wearing all the rings I have collected over the years - predominantly amethyst and gold - and revisiting the memories of their purchase/receipt. Funny thing memory...
Still... all nice ones really so not too bad. Will ask the girls if they want my wedding ring sets .. can't imagine they will want the bands but the engagement rings are lovely. One is a sapphire and diamond trio.. the other is a gorgeous oval amethyst and diamong. Very pretty rings. Love them still. Never thought the old ones would fit ever again. Just goes to show how wrong I can be.. lol Anyway, sorry, droned on again but hey... it spent another 10 minutes NOT working on the programme.. lol.Am going to do it right now though! (after unloading washing machine, hand washing bras and um... well.. anything else ! lol)
georgiasmum
Regular Member
I have really enjoyed reading your thread. You will get therein the end. I'm glad the rings fit!
