Morning!
Woke up and thought I hadn't written anything down in a while so thought I'd better change that.
Well it was end of week 5 for me yesterday. My scales showed me at around -4.25lbs loss on Sunday and then yesterday morning was -2lbs loss thanks to a lovely appearance from AF. Evil. Still, it's weird. I had a perfect 28day cycle last month. My period calculator app told me I'd be due on and I was like PFFT whatever!! Here's me still thinking my messed up cycles are all down to the coil etc and then i have a text book cycle. Weird but strangely nice. I miss the days of no periods mind but cant conceive without cycles right? Still means we have to be careful mind cos I really wanna lose weight before TTC.
I digress. Was still off work yesterday from this horrible flu I've been "dying" from. Spent most of the day in bed and thus my water intake was a bit crap. Weighed just before group and it showed the same as Sunday, so stupid AF is just trying to make me miserable. Not going to let her!
Group was good. Was anxious about a locum counsellor being there but to be fair she wasn't that bad. It was nice because she spoke to us about our normal counsellor and I found that a few people share my opinion of her - a great mix of respect, tiniest amount of intimidation (she really keeps me on the straight and narrow), and love for her. My usual counsellor honestly is the MAIN reason I'm doing so well. She is a mind reader too, she instantly knows when there's something wrong and she has a fantastic way with words. I can honestly, hand on heart, say that when i get to management I will defo be going to classes for the rest of my life because the difference she has made in my life is unreal.
Tonight we did something called ego states. We touched on it last week but I didn't really get it but we used examples so it all made sense. Now before I go off on the explanation I have to tell you that Lighterlife counselling is all about changing the way you think and to train yourself to make the right choices. I'm, not 3st+ overweight because I was born like this, it's MY fault I'm fat. I've made the wrong choices in the past. So anyways, this ego state thing is a tool we need to learn to recognise if we are in the right frame of mind to listen to our choices.
(Sorry in advance to the experienced LLers reading this!)
Three ego states: Parent, Adult, Child.
Parent
There are sub ego states here - nurturing parent and critical parent. In both categories there are helpful and unhelpful ego states. For example:
Unhelpful nurturing parent - "Awww you've done so well, you deserve a treat, go on, have one little cake"
Helpful nurturing parent - "Can I help you to stay on your plan?"
Helpful critical parent - "You really shouldn't do that" or "Don't run out into the road"
Unhelpful Critical parent - "You don't need to lose more weight. You look ill"
Adult
The ego state you SHOULD be in to make your own choices. Here you get all the info you need and assess the situation before you act upon it. Most of us are in our adult ego states when we are in work.
Child
Sub ego states here too
Rebellious Child - "No, I don't want to stick to plan, I'm gunna eat this whole cake to myself"
Adapted Child - "My LLC tells me I have to stick to it, so I'm going to"
Free child - Now this is the ego state we spent most of our childhood in, You know when we ran around the house naked? Or went in paddling pools and splashed everywhere? I don't want to use a dieting example because the whole point of free child is not having a care in the world. My best time of this is when I'm crafting or cleaning to loud music singing my head off.
Ok, now this is all a bit "pfft do you believe in that crap?!" Well, yes, now I do actually. 2 months ago I wouldn't have and obviously I've used dieting examples above but the whole point is that when you have a weight problem it's because of a wrong choice. By recognising that you are in the wrong ego state you can help yourself make better choices. I find I'm often the rebellious child but at least I'm trying to do something about it. I think I must have learnt because I'm very much 100% on this diet.
It's the best £70 a week I've ever spent in my life. Cannot wait to be at goal.
Oooh hello Georgie you sexy gorgeousness
Was just about to text thee - I will anyway xx