Thank you Bobbi. I'm really sorry about your mother.
I know exactly how you feel about swimming, and how much we miss out because of body issues. I am sure you will get into those swimsuits and look and feel great. It's years since I last swam. I haven't worn a swimsuit or even a sleeveless top for years. I avoid social situations because I am so fat. Didn't go to a family wedding, saying I couldn't get the time off work to fly over which was a lie. It was because I was so huge and I couldn't bear to go clothes shopping because I looked so hideous in everything. I really wanted to go to the wedding, but my size was just too much of an issue for me.
Although I adore fruit, vegetables and healthy food I console myself with food. I eat too much, even of the healthy food. I am not that keen on junk food, snacks, nor do I drink much, it's anything sweet that has been my downfall. I have a healthy grocery list, but I buy stuff that is bad for me because they are on special offer - 2 for the price of one, half price, marked down etc. It's ridiculous, almost as if I think that if they are cheaper they won't have the same effect on my weight as if they were full price. I have eaten whatever I've bought in the supermarket carpark (sometimes this has been quite a bit) or as I drive home and then hide the evidence, putting the packaging in the supermarket's or my neighbour's bins! It's pathetic. I'm ashamed with myself and I always hate myself afterwards. However, after my sister I don't even feel tempted. I just don't want to go any further down the path to getting all the health problems she had.
Looking slimmer and fitting into smaller clothes is a wonderful bonus, but my major incentive is to continue to have good health, and be able to do more both physically, like not get so puffed out, and of course socially. I want to be able to do more and live longer and be there for the people who are important to me, the same as you. :grouphugg:
You're an inspiration, both in your weight loss so far and the fact you bought those swimsuits. I'm glad you are going swimming with your children. Don't wait until you reach goal. Your children will love to have you in the water with you. Posture has a lot to do with how you look, so walk tall and get into the pool. :character00180:
I'm going to get back on the wii fit now. It was an early Christmas present and it's been fantastic in getting me exercising on wet, cold days. This morning I finally worked out how to complete the whole of the cycling expert course, so I want to better my time/distance. It's more satisfying than any "treat" I used to stuff myself with, and I don't need to keep it secret.
will be good if it is - maybe that's being too optimistic but ill aim for that anyway. If I could get 2 stone off with this delivery then I'll switch to Atkins or SW for ever after that - hmmm must look up re-feeding so you don't gain again. 
