I cant wait for weigh in tomorrow, this is the lowest I have been for years, I darent think about the long term I am finding it a bit scary. I dont know how I will feel when I am slim again. For the last 10 or so years I have dieted and had very limited success. This just seems too easy. I am a bit hormonal I think TOTM is looming for next week. But today I was thinking how weird its going to be when I am at my goal.
I never felt I was slim when I was 3 stone lighter, so I dont really know what its like to be slimmer.
I dont have a good figure when I am fat, some people can carry it off, but I cant, and I'm not bothered if I feel fat when I am 3 stone lighter, I will look at pictures of how I am now and remind myself.
I dont know what is wrong with me today, i'm just being silly, but I wonder what it will be like when I dont need to be slim anymore. I just want nice clothes and to look nice, I dont feel fat if I am honest but I am, so I am losing weight because no matter how comfortable I am with myself, I want to be the right weight for my height and be healthy, I dont want to go to the Gp for a reason and them to blame it on me being over weight, when I know fine its because of something else.
I suppose its just the not knowing, and having struggled for so long, what will I do with out my fat lol, dont get me wrong though I am so glad its working and I am looking forward to buying something and wearing it and not thinking, it didnt look like that on the model.
Also I think I cant quite believe it is working, I am seeing numbers on the scales that I have not seen for years when it starts hitting those 180s I will cry with happiness.
Sorry I am rambling on, I had to write it somewhere, just because I was getting a bit upset. gah, just a bit weird today is all
xxx