Cheekychinchilla's food and stuff

Aww Kelly you sound like you have a had a pretty pants couple of days!! It must by so awful to have a strong fear like that!!! I know your mind is running away with you on what if you will have to lots of test all the time. But like you say try and get the 1st one of the way and then it may be you wont need anymore!!! I am send big virtual hugs ur way!!! :bighug:

Try and enjoy the build up too :character00255: ur holiday huni!!

How pants about the towel it was super cute too!
 
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Tetris said:
Sucks that you'd need potentially so many :/ I always thought that one day when I have kids the pregnancy would kill me because of all the blood work and injections! I really want kids though so will have to put up with it.
I hope the happy pills are great and make it all fun and easy for you- and then maybe after that you'll realise you did it and it was OK! I think after my mouth injection and my hospital blood tests I'd feel less freaked out if I had to get an injection now (I'd probably still have it in my foot though ROFL)

But yes- imagine if you have this thyroid problem and this gets it under control, making you happier, healthier and make your weight loss journey easier! I'm sure whatever the situation that facing this will make you stronger, even if you are batshit hysterical about it on the day!
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I've never really wanted kids, but if I did I'd have to have even more tests compared to a 'normal' person because of my heart condition. If that isn't a reason to adopt, I don't know what is ;)

This would sound weird out of context, but have you ever thought of your bum cheek? For injections I mean? You have to have the contraceptive injection there because the needle is so big because the liquid itself is very thick. Even so, you barely feel it! My Sister hates injections and, like you, missed a lot of vaccinations, but she can cope with the Depo injection because of where it goes and that you don't really feel it. Doesn't help with blood tests, but worth thinking about for injections in the future :)

Mouth injections are odd aren't they? And they feel different. But yeah, I'm not so bad with them any more either. I did have a horrible fear of dentists for a long time, because I have to have different anaesthetic. I'm sure I've jabbered on about this on here before. But, basically, I can't have anaesthetic with adrenaline in because it causes massive panic attacks and it doesn't have an anaesthetic affect. So that's fun when you need a filling and the stupid dentist doesn't believe you :rolleyes: Luckily I have very nice dentists now and ALWAYS get them to check my file if I need work doing ;) x
 
starburst85 said:
Aww Kelly you sound like you have a had a pretty pants couple of days!! It must by so awful to have a strong fear like that!!! I know your mind is running away with you on what if you will have to lots of test all the time. But like you say try and get the 1st one of the way and then it may be you wont need anymore!!! I am send big virtual hugs ur way!!! :bighug:

Try and enjoy the build up too :character00255: ur holiday huni!!

How pants about the towel it was super cute too!
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My dilemma is. If it IS thyroid, which I would actually put money on it being, then I will have to be monitored for the rest of my life. Because they have to measure hormone levels, especially when you first start treatment. So that would never end.
If it isn't thyroid, then I'm back to square one with an A4 paper size list of symptoms and we still wont know what's going on. So I'd imagine they'd want to do more investigations.
Either way, if I start this then I'm stuck with it. If I don't start it I'll probably get worse and even more miserable :(

I'm not even excited about going away now. It just seems like another stress! I love my friend to bits, but I've been left to do absolutely everything to do with the holiday. Even down to me having to buy her backpack while I was in town yesterday because she hadn't gotten round to ordering one :rolleyes: I'm sure once we're on that train and one our way to London I can start to forget everything that's going on. But also worried about the after effects of taking a pretty big, whacking dose of valium the day before I leave :confused:

Believe it or not, I am trying my very best to be brave and positive. Although I doubt very much I'm coming across like that. This is just awful. It's like asking someone with arachnaphobia to have a tarantula crawl across their face or someone scared of clowns be chased by one with a knife. You know? There are plenty of things I'm scared of or dislike (hamsters, ferrets, spiders, etc) but this is a genuine phobia that's around because I had a scary big op when I was a kid. I wish so much that I wasn't like this and that my brain hadn't chosen this route of defence. Meh. Stupid bloody brains ;)

Thank you for the big hug though and the positive, supportive message. Means a lot!xx
 
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Owwww! My shoulder really hurts. Have already taken painkillers, but I think it's a mixture of tension and all the stuff I've done today. I've done big cleans on the bunnies and the chinchilla cage (which is a pain to clean!). Have filled up food tubs and hay bags and written a big 'idiots guide' of how to look after all the animals.
I'm trying so hard not to put too much effort in to thinking about tomorrow and what I'm going to have to do. I still have no idea how I'm going to make myself do this...

Have had a nice shower and my last pre holiday Lush scrub lol. Tried the new Body shop curl cream for my hair and it seems pretty good, so that's coming with me lol. Oh and my gorgeous new Jack Wolfskin bag arrived today :D
All sorted now! Only things to go in my case are really my brush, straighteners, and phone/Nexus charger! Yeah I'm taking my GHD's to the arctic ;)
 
Thursday food: Low syn day today to try and make up for yesterdays ridiculousness and tomorrow's Indian takeaway!!
Green Day, no saved syns.

Lunch: 2 Linda M Sausages, half tin of bbq beans, cheesy mushroomy scrambled eggs, crispy potatoes, wholemeal toast, and fruity sauce (half HexA1, HexB1, + 1)

Tea: Tomato & Mediterranean Pasta N Sauce, 1 Quorn Apple burger, cheese, salad, teeny bit of dressing & mayo (half HexA1 + 1)

Snack: 2 Alpen Lights, pineapple, grapes, maple syrup, and an Activia (HexB2 + 0.5)

Drinks: Coffee. Coke Zero.

Syns used: 2.5 :)
 
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Omg, Indian take away before a hol, eek :p

Hope your shoulder stops hurting asap, would suck to have an achey shoulder with a backpack on! Sucky that your friend has left you to do everything for the trip (I'm usually that friend, lol :p)

Bum cheek is a good idea for injections, will keep that in mind- thanks! :D but can't imagine a butt-IV LOL
Wow, panic attack at the dentist doesn't sound fun :S some dentists are such ASSH*LES, aren't they!? When I was a kid and had two teeth removed apparently I was screaming and the dentist was like LAUGHING and my mum dragged me out of the chair. I can't remember it but sounds like EVIL DENTIST. Once they injected the wrong side of my mouth for a filling when I was a kid too, that was HORRIBLE because I had to have another one for no reason :mad: twat. But really stupid of your old dentist to not believe you or check your file- sheesh!

Would valium help for tomorrow?? Have never taken it but know it's great for people who are scared of flying to help them get on the plane and be relaxed and such...

I know you're stressed about the trip now, but it'll be great once you're on the way :) it'll be like a great reward for a stressful week!

x
 
Yup, I'm having a couple of friends over, my Mum, and maybe my sister for a pre holiday Indian :) We were going to go out but I rightly predicted that I would be way too stressed, and now with this sh*t on top even more so! They don't know what's going on yet. Hope I don't have to cancel on them.

Hehe, no butt IV's, but definitely good for injection. You'd have to be a contortionist to be able to see them doing it and the muscle is so good there that you barely feel it :)

The dentist who basically sat on my chest telling me I couldn't feel pain :rolleyes: was the dentist I discovered the anaesthetic thing with! I had a lot of dental work done when I was a kid because of the meds I was on for my heart and a rubbish immune system, I had terrible teeth. Even had to spend a night in hospital when I was about 4 to have a lot removed. But up until I was about 18 I had no issues with regular anaesthetic. Then I went to that dentist, coz I hadn't been to my old one for so long they wouldn't let me back :( Had to have a big filling done and that's the first time I ever felt pain when having been anaethetised. I'd had root canal's and all sorts done before then with no problems. So bizarre! She had to put a temp filling in in the end, but I was so scared to go back that I left it that long that eventually half the tooth fell away :( So I registered at a new dentist, told him what had happened and he was just like "Oh yeah, you just need a different anaesthetic, it's fine"!! Nice dentist!! lol

I have Valium for tomorrow. Diazapam is Valium :) He's given me 5mg tablets, but said to take two and see how I go. He eventually went on to say "just dose yourself up" Basically anything to get me through it. Bless him, he's such a nice guy. He's helped me so much over the years! I read some guidelines and stuff for taking it and the NHS says that if you don't have at least 7hrs uninterrupted sleep the night of taking it you can end up with memory loss. Eeeek!! Early ish night for me then!! I had a very low dose valium the first time I had a procedure done at my new dentist, coz I was obv so worked up about trusting a dentist again. Don't remember it having much of an effect, but it was a v low dose one.

I'm an organiser. I always have been. I'd prob be more stressed had I let my friend even book the train tickets. But she's had very little input, hasn't said what she'd like to do or see on our days off, where to eat, etc... So I've spent 18 months planning, booking, buying, etc... It had better be worth it ;) x
 
Ha, I'm a terrible organiser too- once I booked a flight to Paris for the wrong day and got to the airport and they were like "Your flight is tomorrow." but it was for work so I HAD to go that day, so had to pay a bloomin' £70 which I had to pay myself (grrr!)

Jeeze, you are so unlucky with medical stuff :( you seem to have problems with everything! *hug*
Did the Dr not mention the sleeping/valium thing? Sounds a bit sketchy to me if he didn't :S like maybe it's a very rare thing.... quite scary a thought though so hope you get enough sleep!

As for injection in the bum- not sure they'd get to the muscle, there's so much lard there! lol!
 
I really feel for you chum i am sure this the last you need. It may all be worth it though if You get sorted and don't feel so rubbish all the time. I know that's easy for me too say as I don't have a great fear like you. Just remember though you have chums here too vent to about it all. Good Luck for today hope it all goes well!!

Hope the shoulder improves soon or it will be a bit of pain carry the backpack. You chum sounds like she has pushed a bit much onto you lately with you doing all the organising and the running around after her. I have a friend like that too. But just Try and push all your worries aside and really enjoy yourself on your trip. You put so much hard work into organising it so u deserve to enjoy it misses!!

So jealous of the pre holiday Indain!!
 
Oh my! Good luck, good luck! *hug*
 
I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm also still pretty high, but I did it. I think the high dose valium and my own resolve was a good combination. I didn't cry, I didn't freak out, vomit, faint, or really do anything. I felt a bit nauseous but most had giggle fits :rolleyes: The nurse said I was really really good. She looked very shocked when my Sister said how much valium I'd taken, poor thing must have though I was going to go wild. To be honest, I thought I WAS going to go wild. I have in the past and I get so embarrassed, but it really isn't something I can control. My veins were flat coz of my various conditions, as well as sedation slowing your heart rate/blood pressure, so she did have to try both arms. I felt it, but it wasn't as painful as my contraceptive injection (which you can barely feel anyway), and tbh I'm so friggin' high she could have done anything to me lol.

So yeah, I feel like a Super Hero and valium is aaaaawwwweeesssssoooommmmeeee :D
 
Woohoo! Flying high as a superhero and facing your greatest fear! I'm so asking for valium when I need a blood test LOL. Amazing stuff, well done!!
 
Tetris said:
Ha, I'm a terrible organiser too- once I booked a flight to Paris for the wrong day and got to the airport and they were like "Your flight is tomorrow." but it was for work so I HAD to go that day, so had to pay a bloomin' £70 which I had to pay myself (grrr!)

Jeeze, you are so unlucky with medical stuff :( you seem to have problems with everything! *hug*
Did the Dr not mention the sleeping/valium thing? Sounds a bit sketchy to me if he didn't :S like maybe it's a very rare thing.... quite scary a thought though so hope you get enough sleep!

As for injection in the bum- not sure they'd get to the muscle, there's so much lard there! lol!
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Oh God, the wrong day?! What are you like?! I'm a natural born organiser, my Mum is too, so I am good with organisation/bossiness! ;) Just would have been nice if she'd had a little input, but never mind. I'll just have to drag her round what I want to see ;)

Dr didn't mention any side effects. Tbf, he knows how sensible I am with stuff and that I only take things when absolutely necessary. So the side effects aren't really important. I'll just make sure I get to bed at a decent time. Going to aim to be up around 8am tomorrow, so in bed by 11 (if I last that long) is a good time to aim for. Luckily I planned ahead (organiser ;)) and did all the major stuff I needed to do yesterday, so really all I have to do today is get a shower, eat, and sleep :) x
 
starburst85 said:
I really feel for you chum i am sure this the last you need. It may all be worth it though if You get sorted and don't feel so rubbish all the time. I know that's easy for me too say as I don't have a great fear like you. Just remember though you have chums here too vent to about it all. Good Luck for today hope it all goes well!!

Hope the shoulder improves soon or it will be a bit of pain carry the backpack. You chum sounds like she has pushed a bit much onto you lately with you doing all the organising and the running around after her. I have a friend like that too. But just Try and push all your worries aside and really enjoy yourself on your trip. You put so much hard work into organising it so u deserve to enjoy it misses!!

So jealous of the pre holiday Indain!!
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Thanks dude! The rational bit of me has been saying what you have all along. I wont to feel better and not be so bloody tired and miserable and the looooong list of other symptoms. So it is time to do something. It's just starting a very long journey that's filled with scary stuff. But it is started now and I survived and the valium made it not so bad :)

Urgh my shoulder pain is annoying. I get back/neck/shoulder pain thanks to a big bunched up bit of scar tissue on my chest from my heart op. I also carry tension and stress in my shoulders, just to add to it lol!
I'm planning on booking a Lush Spa treatment for when I get back from my holiday. I asked friends for Lush vouchers for Christmas so I could put it towards a treatment :) Looking forward to that!

Im hoping the closer we get to Kiruna the further away both of our problems will be. Me and my friend have had such a rough time. Think we deserve this :)
 
I am off to bed guys. Had an eventful day, still feeling some effects of the valium, might have had a couple of beers, and I really, really need to make sure I sleep tonight. Don't want to risk, however small a chance, of having memory loss tomorrow! I don't think I'll get the chance to check in while I'm away, but I'll try.
Thank you all so much for your support over these crazy few months, particularly this week.
Lots of love and be prepared to be inundated with photo's when I get back ;)
Kelly.xx
 
Lots of husky pictures please! :-D


Have an amazing time. I hope they manage to sort out the thyroid stuff - sadly I know quite a few people on here that have had mega slow losses on various diets yet get negative or borderline results on the thyroid tests so can't get anything done about it :-(

Not saying that that will be the case here just that a lot of people pin their hopes on that being the solution and are disappointed.

Massive well done on facing your fears - I've had depression and panic attacks etc in the past and know how difficult it is. Often the idea of it is so much worse than the reality - we get ourselves so worked up about it that we are a crying wreck then discover its not actually that bad. Valium would help too lol but still really brave! Xx
 
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