Hey everyone!
And esp Mrs Parisienne - lovely to see you
I'm still sick. Yesterday was awful, I was still in bed at 3pm. I'm really not sleeping very well and my Fitbit is reliably informing me of just how bad it is! I was in bed Fri night for just over 11hrs and got 5.5hrs sleep. Last night I managed a whopping big 3.5hrs. I'm so exhausted.
I made myself get up today so that I could spend the say with Mum and Rachelle, but my god it was hard.
My food has still been really bad. Although on Sat I only had one meal (Indian takeaway tho at 11:30pm!!), a smooshed up fruit bar, and a cookie.
Today has been all over the place as well.
And I know I have been here many times before and I no doubt will be here many times again lol. But I need to draw a line. I've had enough of eating rubbish, I've been off-plan over a week now, and it's obviously not doing any good. I don't know why I keep doing this to myself. The odd meal or day off plan isn't so harmful, but I wish I could stop it rolling in to more days. Especially when I'm not well, because it really doesn't help and makes me feel so much worse about myself.
So, from tomorrow, I will be trying my hardest.
Things will always get in the way - I already have a meal out planned this week. And not very far away is Easter, then Rachelle's birthday, and then I'll be going away. But I really need to work on not letting these things ruin my, usually, brilliant eating habits. I don't know what's gotten in to me these last couple of years, I used to be SO good at SW! And I know I have a lot working against me and a lot to think about, but I just need to get back to it and sort myself out
God knows how much I will have put on this week. I might hop on the scales at work tomorrow to give me an idea, although I know it will be more sensible to wait until the weekend when I will have hopefully had several good days.
I would really like to get back in to a bit of a routine with walking the dogs. Actually, routine might be the wrong word, but you know what I mean. I need to make more of an effort and make use of this Fitbit
And get Pinta out again and working with her - no training again this week with work and not being well and I'm working a late tomorrow and this coming weekend, so another week off. And some nice relaxing walks with Dave
I need a big kick up the bum. And also to get rid of this cold!!!
Sophie I've just come back from York, I'm going to Oslo in April (by myself, because I'm insane!), and Tenerife in Oct. Got a few good things going on this year!! Have also not long completed a weekend dog behaviour/Tellington Ttouch course and I'm signed up for a TTouch workshop in June and a Scentworks (teaching dogs how to hunt for scents for fun) weekend in Oct. And probably other things in between lol. I think it's more than about time I start doing stuff again and living a bit more. F*ck the ME
So you lot, I will be back tomorrow armed with some good food and hopefully a crap load of enthusiasm. maybe I should get on the scales and give myself a damn good shock eh?!!
I can do this, right?!! Time is ticking on and my weight is slowly creeping up. Time to make a change for the better
xx