hey all!
did well again today - very pleased. and managed to completely ignore the bakery aisle n morrisons!! it didt even cross my mind - i guess the cbt stuff in that book is helping
i ate today -
Bfast - bagel and cream cheese (light philli) - approx 350/400
Snack - mullerlight - 100
Lunch - wrap with 3 bacon medallions (only 30 cals each!!!) - 360
Snack - special k bliss bar - 100
Dinner - peanut butter sandwich and special k bar - 500
Snack - 9 micados - 100
so roughly 1560 - very pleased , and i did my hour long zumba class
sweated it up and am sore now - so know its paying off! i bought a ten class pass for it as well and am just gonna keep it aside for weeks that im skint so i dont use not being able to afford it as an excuse to be lazy!
thanks for that post littlemiss, i love hearing other people's stories. i dont know when my weight went up - i used to be pretty slim, but i think when i settled with my now ex - i let it go!
its only really after my frist son was born i remember really hurting about my weight but i had been fairly overweight for a while before that
. i managed to lose about 4 stone after having him, but i was suffering for it. i was bingeing and purging and believe i had developed bulimia as i would binge and purge daily , sometimes more than once in a day and restricting stupidly - like 800 cals a day plus doing the curves workout very vigourously 5 times a week and workout dvds at home. i was diagnosed with deprssion and my anti depressants took away all the bad bits of that, but also sapped my energy and as a result i still binged but didnt do anything to get the calories away and regained all the weight and when my 2nd son ws born i eighted about 17 stone. it was then i knew i had to change it.
i want to live as long as i can, see my boys weddings, know my granchildren years down te line, and my oldest sons illness just makes me have those feeling so much more strongl. i want to have the energy to play with them in the park and run around daft with them. i also dont want to be the fat mum in stained joggy bottoms embarassing them at the gate. i want them to be proud of me and show me off as their pretty, healthy mummy.
on the vanity note i am desperate to be able to look good in fashionable clothes, to be able to buy stuff from cheap shops but make it look good. i want to know that one day someone will find me attracticve enough to fall in love with me. i dont want to be alone forever. i want to feel people looking at me when i get dressed up. i want to give men knock backs. i want the confidence in myself that if someone
doesapproach me, i wont be scared theyre doing it for a laugh.
sorry for the novel, this site really helps u key into stuff i think. everyone is so open and honest - i love it
xxx much love to you all xxx