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[cokes]

It's nice to know that someone else gets this Leanne. more proof to me that too many carbs are bad for me.

Well in 2 weeks off plan MiL has put on 5lbs. I seriously thought it would be more as from what she's said shes had a proper carbfest. I'm glad for her that its not more to undo though. She had headaches when she was here so nasty critters working their way out of her. She'll be back to where she was in no time.

I think someone may have slipped me some cranky juice or something as I'm getting so irratated by people at the minute. I never used to say boo to a goose, but now people are really peeing me off and I'm getting alot more vocal about it. Mainly just about people being inconsiderate or rude. Like when a new checkout opens up as people are queuing, assistant says "who's next?" and I'm front of the queue. Some woman who hadn't even been queuing hurried to try to get in front of me when I'd been waiting 10 minutes! I went in front of her and said "actually I was next" giving her the most evil stare I could. She went a wonderful shade of purple, cheeky cow. Somepeople are just so inconsiderate and hardly anyone stands up to them, well I'm taking a stand! I'm sick of the bad manners and delusional beliefs that people have that they in some way are more important than the rest of us. So anyone in the cramlington area watch out if you are ill mannered in front of me, you may just get more than you bargined for!

 

[ladyfelsham]

Lmao cranky juice - like it, think I'm on a regular supply myself.

And good for you for telling that woman to queue properly, people are so rude, you have to stand up for yourself

 

[cokes]

Exactly! I'll not be a walk over any more. Cranky juice is great.

My poor feet are covered in eczema and after walking this afternoon and tonight are so red and itchy. I have made them bleed. Only thing for it is to sit with my feet up to let them cool before creaming them. So gonna watch Hall Pass tonight and see if thats any good. Hope I can ignore my itchy feet throughout the film :sigh:

 

[cokes]

Hall Pass was quite funny.

I can't believe the rain this morning, peeing down. Might wait a while til the doggies get restless before taking them out. They are asleep right now anyway

 

[ladyfelsham]

Glad the movie was good, but awful news about your feet, lovie - I get eczema on one boob (usually from shower gels) and it can be excrutiatingly itchy, hope the cream settled them down.

 

[cokes]

They still feel dry and sore but the heat is out of them now so better in that respect. Mine seems to get worse when the weather yoyo's in temperature and it was quite warm here yesterday. I'm gonna have to start getting regular with putting the cream on as it seems to be starting up my legs too

 

[Jim]

I have odd bouts of eczema on my lower legs as well rachel, I think it is the heat that causes mine, i tend to put my feet in a bowl of icy water and that seems to help

 

[Quak]

Afternoon Rach, well done on standing up for yourself!!!

 

[Kat1e]

Hiya rachel. Hope you get a rain free walk

 

[cokes]

Managed to get on the walks between showers.

Today I'm . I feel I have held my tongue, as I always do during a visit from my sister, while listening to all of her problems and been talked over whenever I try to say anything, which has always been the case. My family are wondering why I don't go as often to see them, well 1. I don't have a car, 2. trying to make my money last, 3. each of them has a car and could equally have come to see me before now. Then apparantly she is upset because I haven't messaged her on facebook, well last time I checked it was a two way thing. So apparently she feels abandoned. F*ing drama queen. Lives at home pays no board, ok she's out of work, but it's her choice to have her debt as she calls it (her car). Moans about all of her debts, well try having a mortgage and house bills to go on top of that and maybe you might get the pressure that I'm under sis?. She has no idea what problems are and all of a sudden it is somehow my responsibility to make everything better for my family when they show me very little concern or respect. I don't think so. I got upset after that initially but now I'm just plain angry. who the f do they think they are? People might think I'm being harsh but Ive tried and tried with these people for 29 years and it nearly killed me. I don't feel the need to take any more, so I refuse to feel guilty if they happen to be upset but maybe I'm upset over all they've done to me over the years and now it's time to move on.

Sorry for the rant guys. Just needed somewhere to write it down and get it out. Just feel so angry. I need a blooming drink of the strongest thing I can find. :sigh: all I have is coffee!!!!!!!!

 

[Kat1e]

Rant away my dear
Hope the coffee was very strong
Xxx

 

[Leanne1]

Well done for getting that off your chest! I wish everyone could find places where they feel safe enough to let it all out.
How are the feet now?

 

[ladyfelsham]

Hiya Rachel - good for you for saying how you feel, daft to keep it inside.

I don't know many people who get on with their family but there seems to be some unwritten rule that we all have to pretend everything is fine!

Hard to advise - sometimes it's easier to keep schtuum and keep things simple - but don't let them walk all over you either!

 

[cokes]

Well done for getting that off your chest! I wish everyone could find places where they feel safe enough to let it all out.
How are the feet now?

The feet are alot better thanks to the cooler weather today. Hope you are getting along fine.

I am sorry for ranting. I have been ranting at my hubby too since he walked in the door. He feels I am best to let a bit of distance occur between us, he can't stand being around my family for too long. He says I am nothing like them and I love him for that I suppose I just felt safe ranting on here as njone of them have even realised I am dieting. You can tell I've lost weight, everyone says that apart from them as they are far too involved in their own stuff to even notice me.

Susie I have sat and just listened for years and nodded at what they have said even when they are being absurd. I have come to realise that they actually know nothing about me now, and to be honest I think I want to keep it that way. I'm not saying I'm cutting them out entirely, just backing out of the room in a calm fashion, the way you would with a psycho with a gun in his hand, lol. Think I just need a time out.

I do feel better for having ranted for about 4 hours . I just get so wound up, especially when I get told I am abandoning them when I pretty much fended for myself as a kid and spent my teen/adult years trying to help them and they wouldn't listen. They still don't listen and never will. I have to accept that now. I can't keep trying to help them out, I have given them the tools and still they do nothing.

Just kind of thought it's a bit like weightloss in a way, we all know the eat right move more rule but sometimes it just isn't that simple and we need to be motivated to get going. Maybe that's it, but now I have my motivation in the diet and life and I will not go back. There's a big world out there filled with lovely things and pretty clothes and as long as I don't eat all of the lovely things I'll be able to wear all of the pretty clothes

Thanks for listening guys :heartpump: x

 

[Quak]

I feel your pain Rach, truly I do. Different circumstances but same need to rant. I am staying as far away from mine as possible, having to sit and make small talk on saturday was torture.

Truly well done for your attitude, have to say it is their loss xxxxxx

 

[tazbabe]

rant away dear!
we're good listeners, we all do it here at some point!

ooh poor feet, sounds sore. i too have eczema on my legs, its horid at times, isn't it?

 

[Dietkitty]

Glad you've got that all out. I dont see my family regularly and feel I've carved out my own path in life and I'm happy with that.

 

[Jim]

Morning Rachel, ah the joys of families. I get on fine with my brother, but then we only meet every 3 months or so, I can't stand my sister and the feeling is mutual I suspect

 

[ladyfelsham]

I cut off all contact with my dad last year and am much happier for it

 

[cokes]

Mornin all, thanks for the support. I am just praying that my mo0ther doesn't decide to call in today as my sister will have went home in a strop and of course it will all be my fault. Anyway. Im off out soon to get weighed today as start of the Bootcamp that Jools set up.

I woke up with a stinking headache and still have it. I don't know if it's the stress of the family or if I manged to knock myself out of K somewhere and I'm getting back in. I can't imagine how I could be out of K, I've been good this week I'm sure. Anyway scales will tell all soon. Will report back later.

And thank you all again :grouphugg: