Hello everyone! Been soooo busy at work and then totally exhausted in the evenings and going to bed!
Had a good week -ish-last week, kept going to bed hungry though which was a pain. Think it must be not drinking enough. Had another tough weekend too, my friends and I had one of our 'sleepovers' that we used to have when we were at school - involving copious amounts of alcohol, pizza and garlic bread, cake and dvd. Only thing I had in common was the dvd!! Sat and sniffed the pizza and bread though which was yum! BUT had the worst reaction from one of my 'friends' about the diet. Sat down straight away when I got there to my friends saying how well I looked, how they couldn't do it blah blah blah. Then one 'friend' decided to let rip at me and say how my body must be screwed up so much as my metabolism wont know whats hit it etc etc and it will all go back on again after...she wouldnt let up..how much is it costing me, why cant i exercise like normal people, why cant I eat some veg.... I nearly cried. Thought it was a bit harsh. She went out the room though and my other friends got up and gave me a hug and said how awful that must have been and how dreadful she is. So hardly spoke to her for the rest of the evening. She offered me a big fry up the next morning too. I ignored her. Cow.
The next day I had to resist a bbq again, which looked yummy.
Today, I have been in hospital having my denervation on my back - bit nasty, involving large needles and electricity on my nerves. Am in lots of pain now on the sofa, and actually more hungry than ever. Suddenly dawned on me this morning that they might not let me have it seeing as I hadn't eaten for 4 weeks, but they were fine. Got all the nurses talking about how hard it must be and how their diets never work and how impressed they were with my loss!! Doctor said though that lots of his clients did it and were up and down with their weight straight after coming off...thanks mate.
Couldnt eat or drink though until about 1.30 today - TOTALLY starving and have been all day. Squashed 3 meals into about 4 hours now!! I am considering moving up to ss+ soon. On my scales Ive hit the 21 pounds now (we shall see what I lose this week at weigh in on weds) but I am desperate to eat but not whats on the list!! If my weight loss slows down, I dont think I want to eat chicken and fish and salad for it to slow down, if that makes sense? Would rather get to goal then do it. Either another half stone or stone. Not sure. Might look too small if I lose a stone. Then again, might not! Best go til later - trying to get up of sofa to bath my daughter. Am desperate for a curry!!!x