Dairy Of a Lardy kid aged 43 and 3 quarters...

[Lisa-Lisa]

Cough, cough, cough and splutter - was past 5am before I dropped off to sleep this morning, so have had no brekkie and don't think I'll be having lunch :sick: think Tea will be Benalyn and coffee.

Think an appointment with the Doc is in order not feeling too spritely at all today. If I phone today might get one in a weeks time, if Im lucky .....yep my Doctors are that good! :sigh:

Have a good Thursday whatever you're up to people xxx

 

[malamobile]

Hope you're feeling a bit better. Try to force down some food as well as drugs!!

 

[malamobile]

Hey you - hope you're ok? Let me know how you're getting on

 

[Lisa-Lisa]

Ahhhh not been very good these last few weeks health wise without going into too much detail I'm basically teetering on the edge of diabetes, my cholesterol is through the roof quickly followed by my blood pressure. Just got rid of bronchitis and have water on the knee...but apart from that I'm fine lol.

Starting class Friday morning weigh in at 10.30am every Friday doing it through the prescription for fitness from my doctor.

My iPad is off having a small crack in the screen fixed so don't know how to update my stuff on here, should have it back by Friday though so will update then after class weigh in.

Glad to see you're all chugging a long nicely xxx

 

[malamobile]

Ahhhh not been very good these last few weeks health wise without going into too much detail I'm basically teetering on the edge of diabetes, my cholesterol is through the roof quickly followed by my blood pressure. Just got rid of bronchitis and have water on the knee...but apart from that I'm fine lol.

Starting class Friday morning weigh in at 10.30am every Friday doing it through the prescription for fitness from my doctor.

My iPad is off having a small crack in the screen fixed so don't know how to update my stuff on here, should have it back by Friday though so will update then after class weigh in.

Glad to see you're all chugging a long nicely xxx

You poor thing - you've been in the wars. Have been wondering how you were and glad you're back. Glad bronchitis & water on knee have gone and as for the other bits... They're reversible with diet so it's great you're getting the class on prescription. Get your stats posted and get back to it!! Need some help with my snail losses so I keep on the short and narrow - need you to make me chuckle!!! Welcome back - let's sort this!

 

[Lisa-Lisa]

Shall be on it like sh!t on a rocket from Friday.....will get each other there chuck xxx

 

[Lisa-Lisa]

Revving myself up for tomorrow - start new class at 10.30am have been panicking and crapping me self all week about this, I'm not exactly the social butterfly, anxieties about social situations are agonising.

Thankfully this class has been recommended by the practice nurse and its free for 12 weeks as long as I attend class, stay to class and take part in the gentle exercise class afterwards - it's a voucher scheme advocated by my local medical centre. I think I'll feel more comfortable if there are people there who understand anxiety or have suffered from it, I'm not bothered about being the biggest. The nurse I see for my 3 monthly mental health review has known me long enough not to put me into a situation that she knows will accelerate my symptoms, so I trust her recommendation for this class, and its a bonus that the weigh in is fairly early in the day so at least I won't have to starve myself all day before weigh in like I used to do years ago when I attended a 8pm class.

Food shopping tomorrow night - so will have all day to read through all the new books, but I'm only starting the plan Saturday. I'm feeling physically well to a point now so no excuses not to succeed xxx

 

[malamobile]

Revving myself up for tomorrow - start new class at 10.30am have been panicking and crapping me self all week about this, I'm not exactly the social butterfly, anxieties about social situations are agonising.

Thankfully this class has been recommended by the practice nurse and its free for 12 weeks as long as I attend class, stay to class and take part in the gentle exercise class afterwards - it's a voucher scheme advocated by my local medical centre. I think I'll feel more comfortable if there are people there who understand anxiety or have suffered from it, I'm not bothered about being the biggest. The nurse I see for my 3 monthly mental health review has known me long enough not to put me into a situation that she knows will accelerate my symptoms, so I trust her recommendation for this class, and its a bonus that the weigh in is fairly early in the day so at least I won't have to starve myself all day before weigh in like I used to do years ago when I attended a 8pm class.

Food shopping tomorrow night - so will have all day to read through all the new books, but I'm only starting the plan Saturday. I'm feeling physically well to a point now so no excuses not to succeed xxx

You will be fine - honestly. Most people do understand anxiety and feel anxious. Try to do what I never do and talk to people! I'm terrible and will sit silently til I'm made to say something when I blush madly , but when you get to know everyone you will think you we're crazy not to have chatted to them earlier.

When I'm nervous (like travelling 40 mins to a cupcake class where I know noone and have never done anything like it (palpitations, shaking like a leaf)) I always remember the reality which is that it is actually always ok!! Always .

I'm excited for you and know you will do it as you have real reasons to succeed rather than just a 'want'. The reason I'm managing to stick to it is knowing I can't handle the anxiety implications of not. I don't even want a cupcake because I know it'll hurt me, the vicious little bugger!

Write on here if you want support - I will watch out.

X

 

[Lisa-Lisa]

That's what I'm rubbish at - talking to strangers, making general chit-chat and I HATE the bit where the consultant talks about your week in front of everyone, I'd rather way my own hair. I stutter and blush and squirm - people obviously think I'm an idiot because I always end up the one out of the group who sits there at the end of the row of chairs with no one sitting near me and no one talking to me. Ironically the people I tend to gravitate towards only stay to class a few times and then stop. I need to stop thinking so much, and just try but I either come across as over eager and over-bearing or ignorant, defensive and snobby - but I'm gonna have to get over it and get on it xxx

 

[Lisa-Lisa]

I meant eat not way lol xx

 

[malamobile]

I'm just the same and everyone thinks I really confident. Ask the consultant to not ask you stuff if it makes you uncomfy. The only reason the regulars leave new people is cause they get cliquey but last time I tried to make an effort and everyone was not interested so I just thought 'f&£* you all' and sat and read the mag ( or whatever). Usually though people are friendly but they're shy too! In a couple of groups I've met friends ive gone out with outside group - and one who left years ago I'm still friends with on Facebook and who still supports (she lost 7.5 stone last year) so even if nervous go with an open mind and you might met someone lovely !! Exercise class sounds good.

 

[malamobile]

Ps ugh chit chat I hate that I just want the juicy details straight off!! ie oh sod where you work tell me about your personal dramas!

 

[Lisa-Lisa]

I'm my own worst enemy I over think things. I'm gonna go with the flow and sod um all. My daughter in law said she'd come with me to keep me company and my daughter said she'd come with me in half term, but I said no, I've gotta get a grip..

Do you think it would be ok to start the plan on Saturday after the initial weigh in tomorrow? don't think it will make much difference do you? It's just gonna be a struggle to accommodate it tomorrow coz really need to do a food shop tomorrow night xx

 

[malamobile]

I'm my own worst enemy I over think things. I'm gonna go with the flow and sod um all. My daughter in law said she'd come with me to keep me company and my daughter said she'd come with me in half term, but I said no, I've gotta get a grip..

Do you think it would be ok to start the plan on Saturday after the initial weigh in tomorrow? don't think it will make much difference do you? It's just gonna be a struggle to accommodate it tomorrow coz really need to do a food shop tomorrow night xx

I'd say do your best tomorrow - so be as sw friendly as poss but yes do your shop and have sat as your start date as long as you bear in mind that you will only have 6 loss days instead of 7 but no it's not going to make a huge difference - just don't have post weigh Friday as a last hurrah as you may find that pushes your weight up before you've even started!!

 

[malamobile]

Well my sweet how'd it go!?

 

[Lisa-Lisa]

Well my sweet how'd it go!?

Well!....

I must have chosen the busiest group in the North-West.
I got there dead on 10.30am and it was packed!, there must of been about 50 people there and that's without exaggeration. I felt really daunted.

I didn't know where to sit I felt seriously out of my comfort zone and when I had to keep repeating myself to the consultant when filling out the forms, it took me all my effort not to turn on my heel and walk out. But once things settled down it was ok actually. Lots of them stayed to the meeting too, i would say around 40 of them.

Anyway I started talking to a lady who lives about a quarter of a mile up the road from me and passes my house to get to class. She joined today to and is also doing the voucher scheme.

The extra easy was pushed faaaar too much and even the food diary forms are now all geared towards extra easy. The consultant has asked us to follow extra easy for at least 4 weeks and fill in a diary for that time, I nodded, dumbing myself down and decided not to say that I know the plan upside down and back to front. I will give extra easy a go it won't do any harm I suppose and I should be making an effort to eat more fish. Although the emphasis is still on the third super free (which is what puts me off EE) the consultant said I you would rather have a superfree fruit salad for pudding instead of a super free salad or extra super free veg with your meal then that's fine. She's also told me to cut my syns to 10 a day which I'm not happy with one bit to be honest. I'm 7 and a half stones over weight and I struggle with 15 syns so cutting them back to 10 WILL make it seem like a diet. She also said that I can't save my syns up for a weekend treat or a drink etc I have to use them daily. Now I know it's her job to guide me and what she is saying will probably give me wonderful balanced weight loss....BUT I like to save my syns, I like a few big treats instead of many little ones. So I have decided if it ain't broke why fix it etc....I'm sticking to my 15 syns a day and I may save a few up for bigger treats....I know if I try and do it the other way I will fail within days...full stop! I'm flexible on trying the EE but not on messing around with syns. So Im starting the plan with gusto and trepidation tomorrow after I've done a food shop tonight. The consultant said it wouldn't affect my loss at all as long as I don't go mad today. So I've had a tuna and onion baked potato and salad for lunch and Im planning SW wedges and mushy peas and a Quorn burger for dinner, but I have a few brandies and diet pepsi's planned this evening with hubbs we are celebrating his 50th birthday from last Sunday when I was too ill to do anything but lay down and sleep.

 

[Lisa-Lisa]

Ive managed to rustle up 2 Quorn sausages with some nice fat SW wedges cauliflower, carrots and gravy for tea and even chopped up some fruit for after with a muller light that's been hiding in the freezer pretending to be ice-cream

This lifestyle online access you get with group membership is very motivating - Im really impressed that I can do an online diary and journal and there's all kinds of graphs to spurr you on - me thinks I might neglect my minimins diary from time to time because of this but I think I'm going to like the journey is time.

Hope you're all having a Good Friday xxx

 

[malamobile]

Ive managed to rustle up 2 Quorn sausages with some nice fat SW wedges cauliflower, carrots and gravy for tea and even chopped up some fruit for after with a muller light that's been hiding in the freezer pretending to be ice-cream

This lifestyle online access you get with group membership is very motivating - Im really impressed that I can do an online diary and journal and there's all kinds of graphs to spurr you on - me thinks I might neglect my minimins diary from time to time because of this but I think I'm going to like the journey is time.

Hope you're all having a Good Friday xxx

You're on it baby!! Wooooohoooo!! This is the start of a real change - I can just sense it!! Sod the 10 syn thing. She just wants you to lose big in the first weeks - what you need is a diet that you can stick to. If it takes one month longer because you had 15 syns a day or you stockpiled them ( i used to always do this for weekend booze & lost lots) then so be it but you will be at goal rather than losing gaining losing gaining because you feel deprived.

You did the group too - and chitchatted. We can do it if we try- you may have felt like hot footing it but you didn't - you did it. I think since I first read you on here you're so determined in so many more ways. I've become more outspoken & less feeble! It's the diet- I feel in control & that's a rare feeling! I had a mid week weigh in and for once its looking good . Enjoy your brandy & your celebration - have big fun ...& tomorrow is a new dawn.

You know what we are going to be HOT 40+Ers!!

 

[Lisa-Lisa]

You're on it baby!! Wooooohoooo!! This is the start of a real change - I can just sense it!! Sod the 10 syn thing. She just wants you to lose big in the first weeks - what you need is a diet that you can stick to. If it takes one month longer because you had 15 syns a day or you stockpiled them ( i used to always do this for weekend booze & lost lots) then so be it but you will be at goal rather than losing gaining losing gaining because you feel deprived.

You did the group too - and chitchatted. We can do it if we try- you may have felt like hot footing it but you didn't - you did it. I think since I first read you on here you're so determined in so many more ways. I've become more outspoken & less feeble! It's the diet- I feel in control & that's a rare feeling! I had a mid week weigh in and for once its looking good . Enjoy your brandy & your celebration - have big fun ...& tomorrow is a new dawn.

You know what we are going to be HOT 40+Ers!!

YOU! my lovely online friend are absolutely wonderful! and the only reason really that I log onto minimins!!... You really do get me! It's a nice feeling xxx

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Ive not had the brandy but opted for a nice bottle of wine instead I've also decided not to follow EE after going shopping tonight when my freezer is still full to bursting with Quorn products and I actually like having 2 A choices and 2 B choices on my green days instead of 1 A choice and 1 B choice on EE - I mean after your brekkie toast and egg what you suppose to do...scoff ham all day lol . I do like my bread but don't want to use syns on them which bread wise is what I would have to do on EE and anyway the way I eat on a green day is pretty much how I would eat typically.

So I'm gonna turn up to weigh in next Friday not having followed any of her recommendations of going EE at 10 syns aday :sign0151:

what a webel!!

xxx

 

[malamobile]

YOU! my lovely online friend are absolutely wonderful! and the only reason really that I log onto minimins!!... You really do get me! It's a nice feeling xxx

:heartpump:
:bighug: :heartpump:

Ive not had the brandy but opted for a nice bottle of wine instead I've also decided not to follow EE after going shopping tonight when my freezer is still full to bursting with Quorn products and I actually like having 2 A choices and 2 B choices on my green days instead of 1 A choice and 1 B choice on EE - I mean after your brekkie toast and egg what you suppose to do...scoff ham all day lol . I do like my bread but don't want to use syns on them which bread wise is what I would have to do on EE and anyway the way I eat on a green day is pretty much how I would eat typically.

So I'm gonna turn up to weigh in next Friday not having followed any of her recommendations of going EE at 10 syns aday :sign0151:

what a webel!!

xxx

Ah you made me all teary when I read this!! It's so lovely. It's funny writing online- sometimes you find someone who just is on the right wavelength - when you disappeared I must admit I was concerned for you, yes, but more (selfishly of course!) thought 'noooo where has she gone??!!' - you were missed and i was sad BUT NO! - you're back in the game and we are going to goddamn crack this - we will sort our heads and our bodies this time, no more pi$$!ng about, self sabotage or excuses.

As for green, well I have always done green and the first time lost 3 st5lbs in 5 months - and I massed the syns up, so it does work. I may lose slow, but I'm still on it & haven't gained. On nearly every post people are gaining at the moment but I want to avoid that and doing green having the hexs and syns etc helps. Still got to post up recipes for you. Was there anything in particular you wanted?

Ugh got a cold and now got to tidy house ( I am messiest person ever) before 11 before friend & son come to stay the night. Dunc has sloped off to play golf grrrrrr!

Happy first day of weight loss!