Ella Belle's SF Diary

[Atomic pink]

Glad your mum was ok. I too have rather neglected the house work in preference of the gym over the last few weeks. I realised that on friday night when I realised we were going to have guests (my mum) on the saturday and actually looked at how unorganised the place looks. I just find with working full time I have the time and energy to exercise or clean. Not both.
Are you making a meat or vegi mousakka? Both lovely but I would say make sure you cook the aubergine through properly as its horribly if its undercooked.

 

[icklerockchick]

Well done on the run, learning to run is something I'm hoping to do once my ankle injury is all better as it was only when I was in the cast I realised its a bit rediculous that I can't run! A jog for the bus is about as far as I ever attempted before lol!!

I find jillian gets a bit annoying so once I know vaguely what they are going to be doing I just mute her and put my music on :-D x

 

[Becktoria79]

Atomic I'm so pleased you struggle to do the gym and have a tidy home! I am exactly the same and I feel very guilty about the state of the house. I think the guilt about the house outweighs the gym guilt as its more visible and when the house is a mess I feel chaotic and disorganised! I am in no way a clean freak, I'm incredibly messy, but I can't do both things without one falling to the wayside and that's usually the gym! X

 

[emmaedes]

Morning hun,

have to say well done on your race!! you are so great at exercising! i really need to kick myself up the butt!!! BIGTIME lol!! also your food is looking really good and yummy!!

sorry to hear about your mum but glad she is all ok!! worrying when things like that happen isnt it!

xxxx

 

[Ella Belle]

Thanks Em

I haven't really been around for a few days. I'm feeling a bit down about the diet thing and it's stupid as it's all because I allowed myself go out for lunch on Sunday. I didn't even have anything bad, just veg, chicken and potatoes but there was some gravy and stuffing on the chicken. Even with that I'd say the most pp I used would have been 3 but it made me feel down as it wasn't what I had planned to eat that day, I wasn't mentally prepared for it. I know it sounds stupid. Anyway, yesterday I was on a course and even though I brought my own lunch I actually couldn't eat it as we were all made to sit for a big meal at lunch. Again, this really pissed me off. I had very very little and again it was only really gravy that I had to point but it really upset me or something. It was weird. It must be feeling out of control. Anyway, I was so pissed off that later with tea I had 3 gingernut biscuits. Again only 3 points and not obscene but I got really annoyed with myself on the drive home. In theory I am still under my pp weekly allowance having only used 29 so far but I just feel heavier. I actually cried last night...so so so stupid. I need to get a grip, there will be plenty of times when I won't be in control of the food so I will have to learn to live with it. The thing is I think if I'd planned on having what I had both days I wouldn't have been upset at all. I weigh in tonight. I still hope to have a lost a lb anyway but I was hoping for 2 or 3. I think it would have been fine if this had happened at the start of the week, I would have dealt with it but I feel a little helpless for my wi now. Anyway, god, I shouldn't be whinging so much.

So, moving on..tomorrow is a new week and new start. My sister is home in the morning It's been 13months since I've seen her, I absolutely can't wait. I'll be a blubbering mess in the airport but I'll be so happy (for about an hour or so then we'll start to fight - that's just our way ).

I have only 8days of Shred left..woohooo! I have to say I am looking forward to a bit of a break from Jillian. I think I'll take a week off from the DVD's and during that week I'll just do the running so it'll give my body a bit of a break. But then I'm planning to do Jillian's Ripped in 30 DVD's. I might actually count pp during that week too, just to have a real break from everything. Having said that I'm not sure what I'd eat differently.

Back to work now..fingers crossed for a lb off this evening

 

[emmaedes]

Thanks Em

I haven't really been around for a few days. I'm feeling a bit down about the diet thing and it's stupid as it's all because I allowed myself go out for lunch on Sunday. I didn't even have anything bad, just veg, chicken and potatoes but there was some gravy and stuffing on the chicken. Even with that I'd say the most pp I used would have been 3 but it made me feel down as it wasn't what I had planned to eat that day, I wasn't mentally prepared for it. I know it sounds stupid. Anyway, yesterday I was on a course and even though I brought my own lunch I actually couldn't eat it as we were all made to sit for a big meal at lunch. Again, this really pissed me off. I had very very little and again it was only really gravy that I had to point but it really upset me or something. It was weird. It must be feeling out of control. Anyway, I was so pissed off that later with tea I had 3 gingernut biscuits. Again only 3 points and not obscene but I got really annoyed with myself on the drive home. In theory I am still under my pp weekly allowance having only used 29 so far but I just feel heavier. I actually cried last night...so so so stupid. I need to get a grip, there will be plenty of times when I won't be in control of the food so I will have to learn to live with it. The thing is I think if I'd planned on having what I had both days I wouldn't have been upset at all. I weigh in tonight. I still hope to have a lost a lb anyway but I was hoping for 2 or 3. I think it would have been fine if this had happened at the start of the week, I would have dealt with it but I feel a little helpless for my wi now. Anyway, god, I shouldn't be whinging so much.

So, moving on..tomorrow is a new week and new start. My sister is home in the morning It's been 13months since I've seen her, I absolutely can't wait. I'll be a blubbering mess in the airport but I'll be so happy (for about an hour or so then we'll start to fight - that's just our way ).

I have only 8days of Shred left..woohooo! I have to say I am looking forward to a bit of a break from Jillian. I think I'll take a week off from the DVD's and during that week I'll just do the running so it'll give my body a bit of a break. But then I'm planning to do Jillian's Ripped in 30 DVD's. I might actually count pp during that week too, just to have a real break from everything. Having said that I'm not sure what I'd eat differently.

Back to work now..fingers crossed for a lb off this evening

hey hun,

dont be silly apologising for yourself!! no need! i understand 100% where you are coming from, i think because you are so focused and happy with the diet when its "taken away" it feels like you have cheated yourself but like you said, if you knew about these lunches and dinners and planned it then you would have been fine its because it wasnt planned but its still very much "on plan"! honestly hun dont give yourself such a hard time, you are doing amazing with your food and exercise!!! your an inspiration to me! i need to really up my exercise but im such a lazy cow i dont do it! whereas i see you exercising everyday!! you are doing amazing!!

like you said WI tonight and then tomo clean slate - even though you havent ruined this slate at all ! i hope you enjoy time with your sister too!! me and my sister are the same! she lives away from us too! dont let this get you down get exercising and get your endorphines going

xxxx

 

[icklerockchick]

Sorry to hear you are finding it tough. Hopefully a good result at weigh in will cheer you up.

Maybe you could try being a bit more lenient. You do a lot of exercise and don't use many weeklies. I think allowing yourself snacks, treats, meals out etc is crucial in keeping you on track. As otherwise it can be easy to get a bit obsessive over points and numbers rather than just focusing on making good choices and it being something that you can stick to long term.

Hope this comes across as how it's intended - just that by not depriving yourself perhaps then you wouldn't be upset about a few points of gravy or the control element that people crave. X

 

[bulldogdaisy]

Good luck for wi tonight,don't be too hard on yourself,you haven't gone mad or anything like that,I do understand were you are coming from but being hard on yourself won't do you any favours in the long run! Just remember how well you have done and how far you've come lately! Have a lovely time with your sister :0)

 

[sarah88]

Good luck for Wi! I wouldn't worry, although ur meals weren't on track they were still within ur pp! There will b some weeks where u need to use more weeklies than others but that's all part of ww fitting in with u and ur life!

Have fun with ur sis! Me and my Sis don't tlk but that's not something I wanna bore everyone about!

 

[Atomic pink]

I really don't think you should be beating yourself up about the two meals this week that didn't go to your original plan. I can understand feeling frustrated about not having control of meals - I feel rather like that about my two work lunches when on development day and training this week, but I think you have to adjust your thinking to accomodate things like these. You are still on plan. You made good choices. Personally I would be inclined to be a little less strict with myself if I was you in order to make sure the changes you are making are sustainable (and enjoyable!) for the long term.

Anyway fingers crossed that you get a good result at weigh in.

 

[Ella Belle]

Thank you girls, I think life has just got on top of me this week and I got a bit too emotional.

Anyway, so when I weighed the scales said 12st 2lbs!! That means a loss of 3lbs! I'm delighted, over the moon. I'm hitting a hard stage of my diet, obviously given the last few days, I need to learn to make it more live-able but my 3lb loss really encourages me positively. I'm going to do a PP week after this one for a change.

Anyway, thank you all so much for your support, it really does help x

 

[sarah88]

Omg well done ur doing so well at the mo! Hue much more do u have to loose?

 

[icklerockchick]

Congrats on the loss x

 

[Ella Belle]

I've still a really long way to go Sarah, I'm hoping I'll have it off by Christmas all going well

 

[bulldogdaisy]

Brilliant loss :0) well done!

 

[Becktoria79]

Excellent loss Ella! Well done! X

 

[emmaedes]

Well done honey!! Just what you needed to give yourself a boost! Xxxx

 

[Ella Belle]

Didn't have time to post yesterday evening

Week 5 Day 1

B - yogurt & mango, satsuma
S - satsuma
L - tuna salad, pitta, satsuma
S - satsuma, grapes
D - cauliflower, sauce(egg & fromage frais), sugar snap peas, pork
S - one chip & 1 tsp of green curry sauce (????3pp)

No exercise

I collected my sister yesterday morning, it was so amazingly cool to see her, I cried of course as always I was really tired though after being up so early (don't know how you do it Atomic) and as a result I couldn't do any exercise in the evening at all. There wasn't time though either as everyone was understandable running around like crazy and it was all a bit hectic. My sister met OH for the first time, they got on really well, as I knew they would, she won't stop going on about how happy she is for me..big sisters are so embarrassing I ate way too much last night, for one thing I was in my Mam's house and I used a much bigger plate for my dinner without thinking, it was only later that I realised that maybe I was a bit too full. Also, because I was so tired I was eating without thinking about it. I was still pretty good. I opted to make my own and not have the carbonara pasta on offer or have a take away like OH..though I did have one of his chips which I've counted as 3pp but that's just exaggerating a little bit I'd say.

Anyway, so tonight I've to continue with my Shred and do a 4mile jog. I had intended to do it outside but I am still unbelievable tired (I think I could need to vitamin boost) so I'll hit the treadmill instead I think.

Right...hopefully I'll be posting later to say I've done my exercise and I've had a yummy bowl of veg soup for my tea

 

[bulldogdaisy]

Sounds like you had a lovely time with your sister,that's good that she and your OH got on really well :0) don't worry bout too much food yesterday,only one day and am sure it wasn't too bad :0) hope all goes well with your exercises today!

 

[Atomic pink]

Great news on the loss and I reckon 3PP is a HUGE overestimation for 1 chip and 1tsp of curry sauce! Glad seeing your sister went so well, as an only child I am always quite intrigued at people's relationships with their siblings because I don't have any reference points. I suspect my nearest point of reference was my relationship with our old english sheepdog when I was a kid!

Totally fine to have a day off from the exercise (as a wise person side on someone else's diary recently...), especially if you are feeling tired. I really do think that we should try and do exercise when we actually want to do it rather than seeing it as a chore that must be done, I don't think its as likely to keep it up long term otherwise.

Food sounding really nice as always.