Making my way back to work now after 3 days with my friend and her kids in Wales. Had a fab time, I stuck to plan despite enormous amounts of junk in the house, she didn't sabotage me and I even went running round the fields for ten minutes with the four year old as part of a 30 minute walk last night and surprised myself with how much I could do.
Today is a travel day and I'm shattered before i start so will go easy on myself - I had a bar at 7am and will probably get salad for lunch then a shake for tea, with possibly some ham for supper once I finish work at 11pm.
My hormones went skewiff this week for the first time since being a bit wobbly at the start of the diet - not impressed with that! Wonder whether it's because I'm accessing some deep fat stores somewhere with icky hormones inside, or whether it is just job stress.
Didn't manage to get a 'during' photo with the kids. I was able to look in the full length mirror and be appalled at how fat I still am. This phase is a bit depressing - I have done SO well so far, and I look much better than I did at the start but it's not yet enough. It is probably part brain-trick too, once you decide to do something about lard it becomes much more obvious and repulsive than when you chose to ignore (much more of) it and stay fat. I have had partners at this weight before so I can't look as horrible as I think, and I have to keep pushing away those self confidence demons.
End of June now - only a maximum of 5 more months on the diet, 2st 10 til I'm 'normal' and 3st 11 left to lose overall - totally doable.
I have bought some vibram five fingers 'barefoot' shoes to hopefully make weight bearing exercise less damaging to my duff foot (full of metalwork). I enjoyed my run last night and it would be nice to do something like that every so often if I can find a park to run on grass.