Hiya Mumma
Well done on your looses to date, I've been plodding in and out of this place the past 5 years, if its one thing that can distract an effort its family, friends and stress. I was very happy and loosing back in 2011/12 and exercising regular riding my bike.
I think I had found my higher self - something very hard to connect with but bliss once you do i was the happiest id ever been.
Sadly my life changed dramatically when i got involved with a very controlling person, along side aiding the caring of my Granddaughter ( so i was mentally exhausted) but that's all a very long scary story which knocked me way of my axis.
3 years on I managed to get out of that situation but by then my Mum needed looking after and i'm still a large support to my granddaughter. So in the middle is me trying hard to clear a path of my own. once you start caring for others is extremely hard. We carry lots of worry's and stress especially for our loved ones and all this can distract our minds.
I had an awakening a few weeks back i couldn't find my GD on holiday and the worst thoughts flooded through my mind i went into panic and found i couldn't run anywhere to even see what direction she may of taken and it was something i feel very responsible for and I'm quiet disgusted it hasn't been enough to kick start me again ( as I'm writing this the cogs are turning thou) I've never felt a panic like it and a sheer feeling of helplessness mixed with let down for the littleone.
Your fall in the garden i can relate to, I'm a photographer and when I squatt i topple backwards , a sure sign things are not as they should be. I've also had a weak ankle for years and when i'm heavier i go over on it. This weight has basically shut down my life and the aches and pains are joining it, at 50 i expected to be in a bit better shape.
So My basic situation is i need to exercise as i do nothing and the same as you Im now addicted to sugar through chocolate, biscuits and coffee. I need to desperately get off a the Coffee addiction.
I never use to have one addiction and was proud of it. I want my pure Blood back, I want the oxygen in my veins again and the smile and the excitement and energy that it brings to life with its choices of movement and clothes and comfort.
Im not on any kind of diet i cant follow a script, money and time & patience i have little of
, its just the "no you cant eat that" diet. Also a Firm believer of we all know what is not healthy to eat so irradiating it should be enough with added exercise. Soooo Lets see how that works out again then LOL
Also like you i couldn't of done my loss without Minimins but sadly many that i was connected with have gone and communication can be slow if at all and in the past I've left due to no conversation although i can babble on ( can you tell) so im more than happy to hook up and i'm a Monday wiegher too
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