Need a bit of a rant this morning
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just to get a few things off my chest! Dont know if I'm just being selfish
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as I knew my OH had kids when I got with him but since having my boy I've just found it more difficult.
We have them twice a week, usually a Saturday night and a Wednesday night. Some Saturdays nights OH works in a pub so they are here with just me and in bed before he gets back which is a little pointless if you ask me. They dont seem to know how to entertain themselves and need constant attention which is hard when you have a 7 month old.
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I have suggested that maybe they stay at home if he is not here but they cant cause their mum uses that as her night to go out and he wants them here for the morning when he wakes up. So basically I feel like a glorified babysitter!! This is not every weekend but in my opinion shouldnt happen at all. They come here to visit there dad, not me.
Then on a Wednesday I have to pick them up from school which I dont mind but it interferes with little ones nap time which then leaves him really grumpy for the rest of the evening and having a grumpy baby along with a 6 and 8 year old to entertain and feed is not easy. Then Thursday mornings aswell as having to get little one up and fed, I have to get breakfast and get them ready for school. OH makes comments about how will I cope if I want more children but they would be my children and thats how I'd cope.
I feel really bad for saying that and wonder if it is just me being selfish but I cant help how I feel.
Sorry for the long rant but really needed to get that out as dont feel like I can talk to OH about it as he obviously has different views on the matter to me, and I dont want him to feel like I dont want them here, cause thats not the case at all, but I know thats how he would take it.
On a more positive note, another 100% day yesterday
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and just had a strawberry shake for breakfast. Slim and Save delivery should be coming today so look forward to getting that and my mum is coming over to visit.
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Have also decided that when I lose 2 stone I am gonna treat myself to some new boots! x