Well I had a brill time shopping and seeing my friend. I was in SUCH a good mood until I looked on Facebook.
Long story short, my older sister Emma (34) moved into my house when I was travelling. Consequently when I got back I had no room I was FORCED to move out which really annoyed/upset me. She's 34 and a mother of 2. She's always scrounged off rich boyfriends because she is a complete gold digger so she doesn't have her own house. When her last relationship ended (surprise, surprise) she should have bought her own place. Instead she decided to move into MY room and start an affair with a (rich of course) MARRIED man. So you get the kind of idea what type of person she is.
Meanwhile, my other sister Tracey (36) was adopted when she was 6 and Emma was 4 before i was born. Emma has made absolutely no attempt to find Tracey and it was ME who found her, me who reunited the family and Emma who tried to take all the credit until I made sure I rectified that. Tracey asked us both to be bridesmaids at her wedding next year.
Now I have a dilemma, of course I said yes why wouldn't I? But I feel like the outcast as those two are full sisters whereas I am only half plus there is an 11/13 year age gap between me and them, and only 2 between them so they are bound to be closer.
Anyway.
Me and Emma had a blazing row on my birthday. Caused by her. Me and my mum were having a bit of a do and Emma decided to stick her 2 pence worth in and start calling me lazy, slating what I was wearing and basically just being cruel with what she was saying. In the past she has told me to "lose weight fat *****" she is a size 8 after all so she is well known for being a vindictive *****. The only thing I said to her was that she was pathetic. But who wouldn't agree there? So she blocked me on Facebook, big whoop, but the proceeds to MAKE UP (this is no word of a lie) the reason for blocking me being because I apparently wrote a lovely status about her saying she thinks she is gorgeous when she isn't. This is 100000% not true!! Which makes me even angrier.
So obviously she is saying all this to Tracey who is soaking it all up yet when I try to tell her my side she tells me she isn't getting involved. That was, until she changed her mind today.
I got home to a Facebook message telling me she's decided to not have me as a bridesmaid at her wedding because Emma has said she will not go to the wedding if I am there. What an evil *****! Apparently Tracey would have "slapped me silly" if she would have been there and I have to apologise to Emma if I want to go to the wedding. Ha! She's got more chance of me growing a d*ck and beard and renaming myself Barry.
Im absolutely RAGING!! I don't even care that she doesn't want me as a bridesmaid, to be honest I wasn't keen on the idea in the first place but for her to have the cheek to get involved without hearing the truth about the situation and making out that I am in the wrong when I'm not is an absolute piss take. Now Im not the type of person to not apologise when I know I'm wrong, in fact I'm the complete opposite. I don't like aggro, I don't like falling out with people and I know when I'm the one who has to put things right but this is not one of those times!!
im just so angry and I know this is a massive essay and it probably doesn't even make sense but its helping writing it all down.
One thing is for certain. It's made me a million times more determined to get to a size 8 and get this job with Emirates. They can enjoy the wedding. It's about as exciting as their pointless lives will get. I'm going to make the most of mine and instead of justifying either of them with a reply let alone an apology Im going to do well for myself and that will be a bigger F you to them than anything else.
xx
I already have a few goal dresses that I bought years ago but I'm sure one more wont hurt
