It's just more complicated by the fact if everything was purely platonic with this guy OH probably wouldn't bat an eye... But a few months ago on a night out we were both wrecked and admitted there was feelings between us, I've known him about 4 years and it was just such a stupid thing to do... From there we just started to talk a lot more, we txted every day and fb'd a lot... I had a party back in May, I got beyond drunk and got a little too flirty, played a bit of footsy and got way too snuggley... Both our OH's were there, his was already paranoid, he'd completely lied about talking to meand it was all bad... Fast forward a couple of weeks and I went to Download, we met up with the couple in question and everything was starting to settle down, at this time me and OH were having a rough ride of it... His best friend is a girl and I can't always deal with it, she's so pretty, like a little pixie and I just think her and OH are much better suited, he insists it's nothing like that and he loves her like a sister... But I was feeling so crap I messaged the other guy just saykng I missed talking to him, I was lonely and drunk and stupid... Anyhoo, after we got back me and the other guy started chatting again... I asked him if his OH knew, mine did, he said yeah so I presumed it was all ok... What I didn't know was his OH didn't know but had read everything we'd ever sent, I don't delete any messages, so if it come to it my OH could read it too... It all ended it late June, early July time... Other guy kinda sent a bit of a goodbye note, that we couldn't talk anymore, he said it wasn't fair that he thought of me as more than a friend... I honeztly didn't know how to deal with it so I ignored it... The following week I went to a party, this guy's OH was there, she was a bit off with me but I didn't read anything into it, until she mentioned that she and her OH had broken up, they were on a break, trying to be friends and then would see what happens, I don't badmouth but I don't want you to think I split up Romeo and Juliet... They were not very compatible, wanted different things, it was inevitable it was gonna end, I just didn't like it having anything to do with me... Enter more stupid drunk behaviour, I messaged him to see if he was ok... She read it and flipped, quite understandably, we had a nasty argument and I haven't seen her since, we txt a bit, but it'll never be the same... A few days later my OH went through my fb and read everything, I was never hoding anything... You'd laugh if you read the conversations, it was very boring everyday stuff, work, stresses but I can see how we were forming a bond... But me and OH got through it again, he believed me when I said I felt misled, I though the guy's OH knew everything... So that was the end of it, I've had a few tears over it all, we did so much as couples, we'd double date and go away together, we shared a lot of mutual friends which I lost through it all... So seeing him Friday night was just a punch in the stomach... It hit me really hard but not in a good way... He requested me on fb but through his work which I accepted, because I do need to tell him I'm done... That's what me and OH fought over... OH thinks he's sly... I think it's ok now... OH can understand, I think, why I wanted my goodbye message...
If you read all this, well done *big hugs* My head is wrecked...
I had Dominos for tea :-(
x x
I'm all about the Turkish Delight... I <3 it a little too much!!
