Heyy guys!
Thought it was time I posted again after getting a lovely message on FB from Sophie this morning to check that I'm okay.
Truth is I'm struggling, though I guess that is pretty obvious. I've had some off plan days and some on plan days but I feel like I've lost a lot of my mojo with the plan. I absolutely love SW when I'm sticking to it 100% and honestly think its a brilliant eating plan. Its just my head that hasn't been in the right place. I've been following SW pretty much 100% since last August and over these last 3 weeks I've felt completely exhausted with weight loss and thinking about food. I've felt really deprived and just haven't been enjoying my food as much. So I've had a bit of a break, eaten some naughty food without going off the rails completely and now I feel ready to get back on track again. At first I enjoyed the break, but now I don't feel as fresh and energised as I did before. I miss SW.
It's never easy getting back on plan so I know I need to make sure I've got everything in place so I don't fail. I desperately want to be at target for this time next year, which means losing half a stone a month EVERY month for the next year. I know I can do it if I work hard, but at the same time I need to make SW a priority again and really embrace the plan if I'm to stand any chance of success.
With that in mind I've made the decision to rejoin group! I'm fine at doing SW on my own when I'm in the zone and everything is easy, but sometimes life isn't like that and I really think I need the support of group, as well as this site, in order to keep me on track.
I've got an anniversary weekend in York to look forward to this weekend, which will involve being off plan, but I've found a Thursday evening group that I'm going to join next week. Now I've sorted my work shifts for when I'm at uni it means I've finally found a group I'll be able to stay at until I get to goal. So no more messing around swapping groups all the time, which is why I left in the first place!
I'm also going to make a big list of yummy and healthy SW meals that I want to try and re-read my books in time for Thur. Then I can start afresh from next Fri morning. I'm not going to be going mental eating cr*p in the mean time though, apart from some extra treats this weekend I really want to stay on plan for the rest of the week.
I know I'll see a gain on Thur. I normally weigh first thing in a morning before food, so even if in reality I'd STS I'd be looking at a 6-7lb gain by the evening as I drink loads throughout the day. So yeah Thur isn't going to be pretty and I'm expecting to be in the 18's again. But that said, I know I'll have any gain off in a few weeks. The main thing for me is that I've got the support in place and the right attitude to get myself to goal this next year.
I think I'm going to rejoin as a complete new member next week. I want the new member talk and the blank page in my book to start from scratch again. I know this will surprise some people, but I really want a fresh start.
Anyway sorry for the long post, but basically I'm baaacccckkkk!
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Not going to be formally logging my food with syns etc until next Fri when I officially restart, but this is what today looks like:
Thur 31st July
Breakfast - Nutrigrain
Lunch - Spag bol
Snack - Caramel shape yoghurt
Tea - Chicken subway salad
Supper - Grapes