From here to inskinnity! My mission to lose 13.5 stone!

[Cheese Thief]

Anyone else suffering with what I call the post-Christmas blues? Despite having a really nice Christmas the 27th is always one of those total bummer days where I feel a little bit sad. Chris was really upset on xmas day as his Dad's MS is getting loads worse and he had to be basically carried into the house for his dinner. That's had a huge effect on him and he's still really down today. It's horrible because there's absolutely nothing we can do to help his Dad. He can hardly walk and despite being Chris's girlfriend for 2.5 years he still can't even remember my name! :sigh: Anyway, it's one of those things I guess, just brings it home how bad it's going to get in the future. All I can do is be there for Chris, but it must be horrific to see your Dad like that...

I've been pretty hungover today, despite the fact last night I only had 2 ciders and an Archers! So most of the day has been spent nursing a horrible headache in bed, did get up for lunch to get a yummy Subway salad. I swear it's the nicest thing I've tasted in days! It's lovely to be back on plan!

Week 20, Day 4 - EE
Breakfast - Hi fi bar
Lunch - subway salad - 6 syns
Tea - roast chicken, parsnips with honey glaze (3 syns) , carrots, peas, stuffing (5 syns) gravy - 8 syns
Snacks - prawns, muller, clementine

Total -14 syns

Still a fairly high syn day, but the first few days back on plan after a break are always fairly 'big' food days while I detox from all the crap! Will definitely be doing Christmas differently next year, I realise now I'd have enjoyed a more SW friendly Christmas a lot more than eating oodles of crap!

Feeling quite worried about WI, I've seen people on here have a 12lb gain after xmas, at least I've got 3 more days of damage limitation!

 

[xmisskx]

aww what a shame about Chris' dad huni...it's tough...my good friend's hubby has lived with it for years and it's truly heartbreaking to see them deteriorate

like you say...you can only be there for him...it's hard tho i can imagine!

as for WI...look back at what you told me when i had the 10lbs on last week - then 6.5 off the next week (and prob 12 back on now right enuf lol) and try to listen to the advice you gave me

i'm getting a bit sick of all the junk now too if i'm honest...not sure when i'm gonna be back on plan but sooner than i had planned at this rate!
it's weird how we think we miss out on things (at times) when really..after a few days of it, it makes us feel sh1t!
i can notice a difference in how i'm feeling, my skin, trouble doing the loo (TMI! lol) not to mention feeling so bloated!

a week of being back on the superfree will work wonders for us x

 

[Tetris]

Sorry to hear that Chris's dad is so unwell awful... Glad you had a great Christmas though!
Hilarious that the subway salad is the nicest thing you've had all week LOL! Just goes to show how lucky that there are yummy healthy foods too eh!? I bloody love Subway salads! Do you have the sweet onion sauce? NOM.

Glad you are feeling so motivated about SW for the new year If you have 4 crazy good on plan days I bet you could even out to a maintain... Maybe... I guess I am in the dark about how many naughties were had though But hey- we call this week a write off and next week when we lose a huge amount to compensate we'll be happy as Larry! The best thing to do is just ignore any negativity on the scales rather than get pushed off the wagon out of demotivation! That's the real killer. 2 lbs on, 5 lbs on - whatever, if it goes on fast it comes off fast - but if we fall off the wagon out of upset that's the scary part!

Glad Chris was excited about Tunisia and you're right- being excited for something REALLY lifts your morals! G showed me an article recently about how the process of booking a hol can massively raise your happiness for the whole pre-hol period out of excitement! I need to stop planning last minute trips and get in on the excitement

x

 

[Cheese Thief]

Miss K - Thanks hun. Completely know where you're coming from with getting sick of the crap. I felt that way after my first day off plan on xmas eve! Had terrible heartburn and IBS too, starting to clear up now I'm back on plan though

Haha and you're right about weigh in, I should listen to my own advice, it's much easier to give it than follow it though!

Soph - I knoww how daft is it that, the bloody salad was the thing I enjoyed most this Christmas! Just shows how much my taste buds have changed! Not so sure about that maintain, but I didn't completely blow it. Amazingly I didn't eat that badly on xmas day itself, but xmas eve and boxing day were pretty bad. Mind you, that's bad by my current standards and not my old ones, we'll see on Tuesday. Shouldn't be too horrific though, I'd be gutted if I got on the scale to a +7 or something, I'm pretty sure that won't happen thanks to getting back on plan on the 27th. Like you say though, if it goes on quick it comes off quick.

Last minute holidays are so exciting too, Paris sounded amazing, I'm such a planning freak though I couldn't imagine doing it myself. I wish I could be a bit more spontaneous sometimes though, must be so nice just to book something and go!

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Ah, speaking of holidays that reminds me, it turns out we can't swap the Scotland holiday from Feb to Jan (so it doesn't clash with my training), so we're changing it to December next year instead! I'm kinda glad in a way as it'll be really Christmassy on 18th Dec and I really want to get my head down with uni work and SW atm. Its nice to know nothing can knock me off plan now 'til May! That shows how dedicated I'm feeling, I want this weight loss more than holidays at the moment!

I just can't wait to get into the 19's now, is a huge deal for me and I know at that weight I'll look and feel loads better. Of course it's still a horrible weight, but psychologically will give me a huge boost going forward. If I have an EPIC weight loss month in Jan (3lbs a week) I might even make it by the 31st, of course that'd be some serious weight loss of 12lbs (plus any xmas gain), either way, by the end of Feb that bad boy is mine!

Got an email from my C today letting me know I've got SOTW for last week with my 3lb loss! It was a drop in session last week between 9-3 so didn't find out on the day. It's given me a much needed boost after xmas, though I hope I'm not gainer of the week on Tue!

I'll update food later but so far had a hi-fi bar and feta salad. Got some Clementine's that need eating up later and a banana. Chris is cooking a lemon chicken thingy for tea, nearly had a heart attack when I saw the jar has 23.5 syns in - now he's going to do half of it rather than the whole thing so it's only 6 syns.

 

[Cheese Thief]

Week 20, Day 5 - EE

Breakfast - Christmas pudding hi-fi bar - hexb
Lunch - Feta (hexa) salad with olives (1.5 syns), onions, tomatoes and ff dressing - 1.5 syns
Tea - Uncle Ben's Lemon and ginger chicken (6 syns) and rice - 6 syns
Supper - Muller, banana, 1 x choc - 2 syns
Total - 9.5 syns

 

[Rae Rae]

Evening, sounds like you had a fab xmas but sorry to hear about chris's dad, must be so hard on him.
I got weighed this mornin, 3.75 on. I'm ok with that as only technically had sun and fri 100% on plan. I know it'll b off soon enough as it hopefully should b water weight.

Enjoy your night xx

 

[Cheese Thief]

Thanks Rae. You'll get that 3.75 off in no time hunny, the main thing is you had a good Christmas!

Enjoy your night too, I'm having a chilled one tonight watching the Downton Abbey Xmas show and reading diaries!

 

[Rae Rae]

Thanks bev, wish I had longer between xmas and weigh in but never mind, 100% now. Just had mushy pea curry for tea, had a bit of a kick.

I've never watched downton, I've heard good things tho xx

 

[Cheese Thief]

Holy crap!!! I'm getting married!!! :O

Let me try and explain. Me and Chris aren't the most conventional of couples, so this wasnt your usual mushy romantic moment. We dont do proposals or engagements for one, but I've pretty much known I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him since we got together 2.5 years ago. He was my best friend for 18 months before that and I knew he was the something special. He's incredibly kind, caring and has a really sick sense of humour I can't help but laugh at, however inappropriate it might be. All in all he's the kind of person I couldn't imagine life without. Absolutely love this boy to bits. Sorry, this is getting mushy.. You get the idea, excuse this loved up fool!

Anyway, we've spoke about marriage before and always knew it was on the cards, but due to uni etc and me having this romantic notion i wanted to get married in New Zealand, we knew it was something we couldn't afford just yet. Then at the beginning of the month I went to Prague and completely fell in love with the place. In particular the beautiful old town square with the stunning astronomical clock. At the time I never really considered it as a wedding venue, until today when I saw a picture online of a newly married couple emerging from the town hall. About that point it hit me like a lightening bolt, why not get married in Prague?! Chris has been 6 times and completely loves it, I fell in love with it in December. Why wait years till we can afford to travel to a place we've never been to, when we can get married in a city we love. At this point it was still very much a pipe dream, but when I told Chris he loved the idea. One thing led to another and we've decided on august 2015, just before my 30th! I'll be at target by then hopefully and should be on holiday from uni. It's perfect. What's even more perfect is that weddings at the old town hall that i love are within our budget. It's amazing, really thought it would be incredibly expensive to get married in such a beautiful place!

Wow, what a night! Not even told the parents yet, I just can't sleep so had to tell you guys. After being engaged for 5 years in the past I dont believe in engagements. Neither does he. We want to keep the whole thing a huge surprise except for parents and best friends (and my diary readers so shhh! ) then after surprising the hell out of people have a huge party when we get home with friends and fam. Of course none of this is all ironed out yet, it only 'happened' 6 hours ago but we've spoke about it enough over time to know what we both want.

Wow!! Feeling shell shocked still at the moment. What a fantastic reason to lose weight for...20 months to get the body of my life in time for an amazing wedding dress, bring it on! I'm determined never to be a fat bride, can't believe how exciting this all is!! Don't worry though I won't go all bridezilla. I want a marriage, not a wedding, but it'd be great to look my best for it all the same x

 

[xmisskx]

Awwww congratulations to you both toots

What great news!!x

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[WelshJojo]

Hi Bev, I'm Jo! I found your diary a few days ago and have just finished reading it all and what a post to join in on - congrats on setting a date for your wedding. I've played about with sw and various other diets for years but it really hit me this Christmas that I must do things differently if I want long term success! Reading your diary has really inspired me to crack on with it all properly, and I will hopefully start using my diary again over next couple of days. Keep up the good work xx

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[willfitskinnyjeans]

Your pics are amazing how much have you lost?

from fat to skinny jeans

 

[Rae Rae]

Absolutely made up for you, sounds like it'll be romantic. That gives u plenty of time to crack on with sw and choise a beautiful dress

Congratulations xx

 

[Tetris]

OMG CONGRATULATIONS!!! You must be absolutely buzzing and in Prague- wow!!!!
I'm so hapoy for you girl! I get suxh a great energy off Chris from what you have said about him and pics and bits on facebook- you guys seem so made for each other!
And what a fantastic motivation for your weight loss journey x

 

[bloodcoveredprincess]

Delighted for you both darling xx :love047:

 

[emma_88]

Wow check you out being back on plan already, bet you feel good for it though eh? All this naughty synful food has left me feeling terrible. Blerghh!

Huge congratulations on the wedding planning, really made up for you. Prague will be amazing!

When do you weigh in next? (Sorry if you've mentioned it already, I musta missed it)

 

[MrsGinger]

Woohoo congratulations! Being married is ace! xx

 

[Cheese Thief]

MissK - Thanks! I'm absolutely buzzing today, still can't quite believe it!

Tigger - Thanks and glad you've enjoyed reading. Good luck with your new healthy eating plan, whatever you choose. I can only really speak for myself but I absolutely love SW so its definitely worth considering imo!

Willfitskinnyjeans - Aww thanks hun, lost 3st 12.5lbs so far, got a looong way to go yet but I'm determined I'll do it!

Rae - Thanks hun, and EXACTLY, it's just the motivation I need to really get cracking this year. Won't be able to even think about my wedding dress 'til I'm near target so the sooner that happens the better!

Soph - Aww bless ya, I knowww, I'm buzzing too, even 24 hour on! Although I knew it was going to happen eventually its so awesome it'll be in 2015 rather than having to wait 'til after uni. I have this stupid paranoia/fear/sheer terror about being 30, so now I'll actually be looking forward to it rather than dreading it for ridiculous reasons! And I'm going to find the most AMAZING dress ever for when I'm a skinny minnie. Makes me even more determined to get to target as soon as poss!

Princess - Thanks hunny! I keep saying it but I still can't quite believe it!

Em - Cheers hun! Though that back on plan thing might have been a bit premature after today, but nevermind! Getting weighed on Tuesday this week still, thankfully my C kept the same days which works out quite well! Kinda wishing I'd booked a week off to give me some extra time to shed the pounds!

MrsGinger - Thanks, I honestly can't wait! The only reason we're leaving it to 2015 is that I want to be a skinnie minnie in my dress! If that isn't determination I don't know what is! lol x
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Had an awesome day today visiting family and telling them the good news, everyone seems really happy so that's great! Took my parents to the cinema to see the second Hobbit movie in 3D, which they really enjoyed.

Funny day today food wise. Impromptu off plan day due to the whole getting 'engaged' thing! I've just made a list of things I've eaten and it's not been tooo bad though:

Chewy delight (hexb)
Jacket potato, cheese (hexa) and baked beans
2 x chocs - 4 syns
minced pie - 11 syns
tuna, tomato, onion, cucumber salad with ff dressing
small goats cheese and caramalised onion tart (all pastry trimmed off) - 10 syns? (and I imagine that's on the high end, only 3 bites once the crust was taken off)
total syns guesstimate - 25

Still isn't great but I don't care too much right now, back on plan as per usual tomorrow, no excuses! Aiming for a suuper light day ahead of WI on Tue but I'm seriously expecting a gain this week so getting myself mentally prepared for it! I'll be okay with anything 2lbs or under, but I'll be a bit miffed if I'm back into the 21's. Either way it'll be off next week!

 

[WelshJojo]

Thanks, just realised I probably didn't word my post very well I meant I was getting back to doing sw! I started yesterday x

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[SammieAnn87]

hi bev,

poppin by to subscribe.. jus been havin a read and weldone u are doin fab!!

xxxxx

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