Emma1904
Working on it
Thank you ladies, it is really upsetting and I feel like I have to say goodbye to her all over again :cry:family and family representation is very important to my lot, we were always bought up in a close knit environment where outside appearances were kept up and we dealt with all problems as family problems and they were very 'in-house' if you understand what I mean so even if I didn't want to go I would have to :cry:
Unfotunately today I have been having a 'bad day' as my doctor puts it, I couldn't even make it outside to pick my little boy up today, stood at the front door and just couldn't step out of it (I'm a recovering agoraphobic) I've spent my whole day on the sofa under a blanket sleeping on and off and having the TV on, not even really watching it at all. Until my OH and son got home I had only managed to have one pack, a cup of tea and a glass of water and that was all in the morning, she made me a pack when she came in and is now making me my last pack as I type and I'm back on track for my water. I'm hoping that this is not the begining of a long bout of depression this time, I can go for months and be perfectly fine and then it comes from nowhere and sometimes completely debilitates me :cry:
I have my fingers crossed that I will wake up tomorrow and at last be able to go outside alone, if I can't my brother is going to have to come and coax me out and stick to me like glue, when it kicks in I onl ever feel safe with people that I know xxx
Unfotunately today I have been having a 'bad day' as my doctor puts it, I couldn't even make it outside to pick my little boy up today, stood at the front door and just couldn't step out of it (I'm a recovering agoraphobic) I've spent my whole day on the sofa under a blanket sleeping on and off and having the TV on, not even really watching it at all. Until my OH and son got home I had only managed to have one pack, a cup of tea and a glass of water and that was all in the morning, she made me a pack when she came in and is now making me my last pack as I type and I'm back on track for my water. I'm hoping that this is not the begining of a long bout of depression this time, I can go for months and be perfectly fine and then it comes from nowhere and sometimes completely debilitates me :cry:
I have my fingers crossed that I will wake up tomorrow and at last be able to go outside alone, if I can't my brother is going to have to come and coax me out and stick to me like glue, when it kicks in I onl ever feel safe with people that I know xxx