Aww you guys are so lovely, I was actually sitting here crying just now!! It's just so great to be part of this forum where people know exactly what it's like- people who know all the emotions that are attached to this weight loss journey lark! It's quite a complex old thing really isn't it! I just get so angry with the types that think its straight forward and say just eat less! Usually the people who have never had a weight/food relationship problem! It's quite frightening how quickly the weight can go back on and how easily we can slip back to old ways! What I'm pleased about though is that I'm learning the knack of nipping it in the bud and correcting the damage after these 'episodes'! It's just annoying how it sometimes takes time to get back into the swing of it! But what's annoying is that apart from Saturday night where I estimated I had about 40 syns, I actually had a really 'on plan' week, so that's where the real disappointment lies! And knowing that I was 8lb less than this before Christmas! That is hard to swallow but maybe I'm just being too hard on myself! I think I'm going to have to learn some new strategies as I get closer to target and also when I get there! I already know I'm going to have to keep going to class as part of my life just like my mother in law still goes to AA meetings each week and its 28 years since she had a drink! It's all the same principle! Curbing addiction! I know I'll always have food issues but hopefully I'll be able to control them! The way I acted over Christmas taught me that I haven't changed my ways for good as I thought I had! It made me aware that that excessive, compulsive, illogical maniac part of me is always present, but just needs to be kept hidden and only brought out on very special occasions!!!xxxxxxxxxxx
This week I feel like going mainly vegetarian, and just eating as many veg as I can- 2/3 superfree where poss! I am also aware that exercise isn't my forte! I love it when I'm in the swing of it, but I get OUT of the swing of it far too easily and it takes me ages to get back into it!! I have my new Davina Body Buff DVD and I'm going to go for it this afternoon and do it a further 2 times this week before next Monday!