WARNING.........long rambling post coming up !!
Ooooh, Brazen Bess, now there's something to live up to!!
It's really good to read about your journey Gail, you always inspire me not to give up, even though I fear that it doesn't always look that way it is true....x:sigh:
Thanks Bess for your kind words. I'm glad I can help. I know things are difficult but I'm so pleased that you are fitting SW into your life. I know that means that your losses are slow, but on the plus side, you haven't gained and you are continuing to lose albeit very slowly. Don't give up but enjoy your food. If so, it doesn't matter how long it takes, it will be a sustainable loss. If you aren't enjoying your food (and the other stuff) then it's time to have another look, maybe choose some new recipes etc. I totally admire your determination and your ability to keep at it despite maybe not having the quick results that you might have wanted. Good on you
So, my rambling post (again
)......
I have been thinking over the last few days (and spoke to skinny Dawn about it today on the phone). Life is settling down into a slimmer me. I can't believe it really but I can't remember quite as vividly the negative feelings that I had about being overweight (when I looked back - I never really admitted it when I was so overweight) which worries me a bit because that seems to be my main motivator at the moment.
Although I feel great, I am more motivated to stay on this plan by not wanting to go back where I came from so I worry that if I don't remember that as much, I might not be as strict. So (when I get round to it) I am going to cut and paste the posts from here into a kind of diary (my posts plus a few of the lovely ones from others who have helped and supported me) so that I can look back on it. Hopefully it will help me remember how I felt when I was positive (like now
) and when I wasn't so positive and help me to find that again at those times. Because I certainly remember a few times when I was either finding things difficult or simply just 'didn't feel like it'.
I find it difficult to believe that people look up to me here and yet in some ways I just love the fact that I feel so positive. For really the first time in my life, I am feeling that I might actually get to a goal, that I might actually have a 'normal' BMI. I have never even been close. And I am also starting to look ahead to how I might deal with the maintenance part of this journey (I'm happy to give out my advice on that (Dawn !!) even though I'm still nowhere near !!!!). I never ever thought that might be a problem of mine because I just didn't think I'd ever get there.
I wish I could capture what it is that made the change. What made me look forward to a meal of baked potato, salad and something else rather than avoiding that so that I was so hungry that I had no choice but to grab something less suitable, what made me wonder round M&S today and only pick up a few chocolatey/sweet things (along with lots of fruit) but not eat them all at once. I don't think I'll ever know that but I wish I did because then I could really help others to make that switch.
I have Minimins to thank for some of that. When I started this (and it was actually working to my amazement) I never really thought that I'd actually get to a target, I just thought that losing a bit of weight would make me feel better. Mini's (and some of the people here who have inspired my journey) has shown me that I could be one of those people. Obviously my slightly obsessive personality has also helped me (!) but I just feel so lucky. I wish I had done it earlier but I don't have regrets - it probably wasn't the right time for me. If I had found SW earlier, I'm not sure that I could have stuck to green and red all the time. EE has helped me to eat 'normally'.
I have learnt that I could so easily go back to how I used to eat and probably will always be that way but I honestly feel that this could be my way of life. I'm not SW perfect but that's good - I enjoy my food, I enjoy eating out, I enjoy cinnamon buns (!!!) but I can still lose weight. Gosh, how lucky am I
So, thanks everyone again. I am going to have a good loss tomorrow (definitely more than the 2 lb target that I set) and quite possibly lose all of the remaining holiday weight (which would take me to my lowest this time round). So then onwards and downwards, into the 11's, past my lowest ever weight as an adult and towards the 6 stone loss and beyond. I love SW and how it has made me feel. Yaaaaaaay.
Thanks everyone. You are amazing
Gail xxxx