Abyss
Schwing !
Hello all, I think i'm really really ready to get back onto doing Lighterlife again after a lapse.
It's taken a whole month to get back into the right frame of mind and i'm so terrified of failing again. I can accept this as an option.
The first week of my lapse I skipped going to my WI because i was so scared of the scales ... Big mistake as I ended up lapsing even further the week after. Contacted my LC and explained my absence - she said it was perfectly fine and at least i'd nipped it in the bud. I asked if i could be weighed the next week as my confidence was still a little shakey, i'm completely regretting this decision now as in my mind I feel like this could have ended two weeks ago now. Did another disappearing act from my WI last week because I couldn't get my head into gear. I can feel the weight going back on ... I'm going back on Wednesday but i'm so irritated with myself - I've more than likely undone all of the hard work i've done over the other two months and i'm so scared of facing up to it. Yes i've learnt a few things about myself over the last month but when i just think of if i'd stuck to my guns how small I would be right now I could just cry.
It's taken a whole month to get back into the right frame of mind and i'm so terrified of failing again. I can accept this as an option.
The first week of my lapse I skipped going to my WI because i was so scared of the scales ... Big mistake as I ended up lapsing even further the week after. Contacted my LC and explained my absence - she said it was perfectly fine and at least i'd nipped it in the bud. I asked if i could be weighed the next week as my confidence was still a little shakey, i'm completely regretting this decision now as in my mind I feel like this could have ended two weeks ago now. Did another disappearing act from my WI last week because I couldn't get my head into gear. I can feel the weight going back on ... I'm going back on Wednesday but i'm so irritated with myself - I've more than likely undone all of the hard work i've done over the other two months and i'm so scared of facing up to it. Yes i've learnt a few things about myself over the last month but when i just think of if i'd stuck to my guns how small I would be right now I could just cry.