I have had a great weekend, just us 2 and the dog, we did talk weddings and have both decided very very small with just close family prob abroad, he knows I want to lose weight and has agreed to encourage and support me fully, starting with a smart app thing you pop on your wrist, have no idea what it does as yet but I will!!! and a brand spanking new pair of trainers, god knows what I will use them for but the thought was there.
I had a massive wobble on Thursday, before we left to go to the cottage we met his best friend and his wife for a mean and drinks, when I was coming back from the toilet I heard her taking the piss out of Jon for being a chubby chaser, it floored me I was mortified. her husband spotted me and he could see by my face I had heard. the only positive is I could hear Jon well and truly putting her in her pace. I was gutted, I have taken flack over the years due to my size, but to hear my partner getting hassle was not nice. I did not have the courage to confront her, so sat there as if nothing happened, but I was very quiet. we left not so long after as the atmosphere was awkward.
Jon and myself talked about what happened, he was more upset I had heard, he reassured me and made me accept she has the problem not us. I have had a sorry text from his friends wife, said she was joking and she had had to much to drink, Jon informs me she is not liked within the group anyway. Sadly its still there it keeps running around in my head, I need to take this emotion and use it for a positive.
so tomorrow I start, have breakfast sorted, and we are going to do a big healthy shop. Jon has said we should go get some healthy cooking cookbooks, as he likes to cook but only knows a few extremely high in points recipes. looking forward to a new chapter and for being on plan longer than 3 weeks!!!!