I think, like you YW, I’m going to quickly regret my all similar order but it seems we probably all go through the same cycle of variety then thinning it down, then variety again. Ultimately I’ll probably never be truly content, it’s all just an attempt to make the plan as easy going as possible and we all know how hard it is. The regular drops in weight cannot be beaten though, so we see it through.
I’d consider ordering shakes for my next order but I know what I’m like and I will consider it too much effort for little reward. I know, I know, water and product in a shaker; shake. The microwave meals are find less hassle when in reality there’s little difference and the bars are just the easiest but often leave me craving something savoury, although craving is a strong word as I rarely crave on this plan - I just know what I’d like to eat.
I’m looking forward to, what will now be known to me as ‘the crisps and balls week’, and should make a nice change. I need to map out when that week actually falls as I have no idea. The yogurt thing is okay. Glad I didn’t miss my error as I wouldn’t want 48 more of them but another 6 is okay. I shan’t be reaching for them any time soon.
Today has been the day from hell workwise. It’s been ramping up over the last few days and I have little hope for tomorrow knowing the meetings I have and with whom. I would like to say I’ve learnt something about myself but the truth is I knew this anyway. When the **** hit the fans, my answer to unwind is booze, food and cigarettes, in no order and preferably all at once in large quantities. They’re all vices and considered bad lifestyle choices - I smoke regularly but giving up when I find my vape which should be soon but don’t drink much and we know about eating right now. I feel like I’m only a whisper off snorting a few lines and asking someone to pass me the syringe. I would never go that far but how many vices can one person have? I ended up going to Waitrose to stock up on some cigarettes (which is my only available vice at the moment) and they didn’t have my brand so I ended up getting a black coffee as a kind of rebellion against all the crap (while walking through I had picked up rolls for OH and the bag split at the bottom and rolls went skidding across the floor as I managed to kick them as they fell - could anything else possibly go wrong was what my fraught mind was telling me). The coffee was a rebellion as I’d decided to quit coffee when I restarted the plan and only have it when the plan was over but only when it was going to be well made - not copious amounts of instant. So I’ve consumed that. Don’t even enjoy black coffee so don’t feel satisfied but there’s nothing I can do about that.
And breath.....not sure what I’m trying to say but I always knew I had/have an emotional connection with food. I probably always will. I don’t ever want to stop enjoying food. I want to learn when to offset the ‘damage’ and actually act in that. Amongst all my ramblings, if anyone thinks I’ve cheated today, don’t worry, I haven’t. I still have two packs to consume tonight so will make a start soon. Today is another achievement for me today that I haven’t broken due to circumstance. When off plan, it’s quite likely that I would have had one drink tonight and possibly enjoyed a take away. However, I need to discipline myself to redress the balance the next day. If the next day there is a planned evening out then I just make sure I sort it out at the next possible point and not let one day turn into ten or more. When at maintenance there will be times like this and I will need to be strong. I’m sure I will learn to live life this way and it will be far more enjoyable in the long-run.
When I was maintaining before my injury, I thought little about it and must have been doing it all naturally. I’m almost pleased the injury has sent me backwards because there was clearly something I needed to learn in real-terms and I feel this might slowly be sinking in meaning I won’t be back here again. I mean I may well stick around through maintenance and beyond but I don’t want to be back because I have to lose in the way I am now.
Wow, if you got to this point, well done! Have a great evening you lovely people