Thanks Mini,i am missisng him alot and feeling quite down over the last 24 hrs,even tearfull,and its bringing tears to my eyes now just writing this.
Another thing that has made me feel down since Aaron has gone is that i have 2 very close friends of mine mother and daughter who say they see me as family and i thought we r very close,they live in the next block to me,well i always call them to see how things r with them every day and usually see them most days,but when Aaron went they never even bothered even ringing up to see if he got there safely and i rang them a few times but got no answer so did not bother ringing back,they then rang me on Friday 48 hrs after Aaron had travelled andn started talking normally,i told her i was upset that they did not even ring to see if he got there safely and they know i dont go out very often so i am here alone,she said she was sorry but she know deep down aaron was safe,i said to her she should know how it felt as when her daughter went away 2 weeks ago she was very upset and they were only 2 hrs away.
Since friday have not heard from them and i wont ring them i am always there for them no matter what and i honestly feel like "Aaron and i are out of sight and out of mind" and it hurts as i did not think our friendship was like that,so that is getting me down as well.
Sorry for goimng on and on xxx