Good to hear from you above Yams, very very good, I have been angsting about what to reply , and in my head I had written several pages of stuff [ narrow escape for the forum huh!]but instead of the usual reams of boring stuff about not acting on our unreliable emotions etc etc, because it was you and I know that you are your own best counsel and really don't need any advice from anyone else, what I was tempted to say was just this....DO NOT GIVE UP !!!